Be Opened!
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Twenty-Third Sunday
in Ordinary Time
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Mark 7:31-37
Again Jesus left the
district of Tyre and went by way of Sidon to the Sea of Galilee, into the
district of the Decapolis. And people brought to him a deaf man who had a
speech impediment and begged him to lay his hand on him. He took him off by
himself away from the crowd. He put his finger into the man´s ears and,
spitting, touched his tongue; then he looked up to heaven and groaned, and
said to him, Ephphatha! that is, "Be opened!" And
immediately the man´s ears were opened, his speech impediment was removed,
and he spoke plainly. He ordered them not to tell anyone. But the more he
ordered them not to, the more they proclaimed it. They were exceedingly
astonished and they said, "He has done all things well. He makes the
deaf hear and the mute speak."
Introductory Prayer:
Lord Jesus, I come
to You once again in prayer. Even though I cannot see You, my faith tells me
that You are present. You are ready to listen and desire to speak with me.
Your presence gives me hope, because You are the all-powerful God, the
creator of heaven and earth. You are the source of all that is good in my
life. Nothing happens to me without Your knowing and permitting it. My hope
leads me to love. I want to be one with You in mind and heart, identifying
myself with Your will and your standards.
Petition: Lord, teach me how to be alone with You.
Help me to encounter You.
1. Away from the
Crowd: Why does Jesus take
the deaf man off by himself away from the crowd? Jesus wants to be alone with
him, away from the noise and activity of the crowd. He wants to be able to
communicate with him in silence and solitude. Jesus invites me also to go
away from the crowd, away from the activity and noise of life, away from
other people and distractions, in order to pray. Jesus invites me to be alone
with him so that he can reveal himself to my soul and heal the impediments
that keep me from communicating his love and truth to others.
2. The Human Effort
to Heal: Many times in the
Gospel, Jesus works a miracle with a mere word. But sometimes he performs
miracles with a physical act, as in this case, when he puts his finger into
the man’s ears and touches his tongue with spittle. What are we to make of
this? What can we learn from it? Many times, our healing requires a human
effort. Action must be taken. We are not purely spiritual beings, but body
and spirit woven into one. So our physical side plays a part. We kneel to
pray. We go into the presence of the Blessed Sacrament. We make an effort to
read Scripture. We do all of these physical things so that our entire being,
both body and soul, can be healed of sin and grow closer to Christ.
3. To Speak Plainly:
The fruit of this
encounter with Christ and of the effort that Christ makes is clarity –– plain
speech. The fog of imperfection is removed and the deaf-mute begins to speak
with the clarity and the forcefulness of truth –– so much so that the people
are astounded. If I have truly encountered Christ, the fog that veils my mind
and muddles my speech will be removed. The double-edged sword of God’s truth
will shine through my words and actions so much so that people will be
astounded.
Conversation with
Christ: Lord, I want to be Your disciple. I want Your
truth and love to shine in my life. Open my intellect so that I can perceive Your
truth as it really is. Soften my heart to love You with a pure love that
overflows into the hearts of those around me. Strengthen my will to choose You
and Your ways steadfastly.
Resolution: I will make the effort today to set aside some time to pray
away from the business of life.
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117 I will mention here that those
who live with such a person should not add external sufferings; for indeed,
when the soul's cup is full, the little drop we may add to it may be the one
drop too much, and the cup of bitterness will overflow. And who will answer for
such a soul? Let us beware of adding to the suffering of others, because that
is displeasing to the Lord. If the sisters or the superiors knew or even
suspected that a soul was suffering such trials, and they nevertheless added
still other sufferings, they would be sinning gravely, and God himself would
demand an account of them on behalf of such a soul. I am not speaking here of
instances which of their very nature are sinful, but of things which in other
circumstances would not be sinful. Let us be on our guard against having the
weight of such a soul on our conscience. This is a grave and common defect in
religious life; namely, that when one sees a suffering soul, one always wants
to add even more suffering. I do not say that everyone acts like this, but
there are some. We take the liberty of passing all sorts of judgments, and we
repeat them when we would do better to remain silent.
118 The tongue is a small member, but it does big things. A
religious who does not keep silence will never attain holiness; that is, she
will never become a saint. Let her not delude herself-unless it is the Spirit
of God who is speaking through her, for then she must not keep silent. But, in
order to hear the voice of God, one has to have silence in one's soul and to
keep silence; not a gloomy silence, but an interior silence; that is to say,
recollection in God. One can speak a great deal without breaking silence and,
on the contrary, one can speak little and be constantly breaking silence. Oh,
what irreparable damage is done by the breach of silence! We cause a lot of
harm to our neighbor, but even more to our own selves.
In my opinion, and according to my experience, the rule concerning silence should stand in the very first place. God does not give himself to a chattering soul which, like a drone in a beehive, buzzes around but gathers no honey. A talkative soul is empty inside. It lacks both the essential virtues and intimacy with God. A deeper interior life, one of gentle peace and of that silence where the Lord dwells, is quite out of the question. A soul that has never tasted the sweetness of inner silence is a restless spirit which disturbs the silence of others. I have seen many souls in the depths of hell for not having kept their silence; they told me so themselves when I asked them what was the cause of their undoing. These were souls of religious. My God, what an agony it is to think that not only might they have been in heaven, but they might even have become saints! O Jesus, have mercy!
In my opinion, and according to my experience, the rule concerning silence should stand in the very first place. God does not give himself to a chattering soul which, like a drone in a beehive, buzzes around but gathers no honey. A talkative soul is empty inside. It lacks both the essential virtues and intimacy with God. A deeper interior life, one of gentle peace and of that silence where the Lord dwells, is quite out of the question. A soul that has never tasted the sweetness of inner silence is a restless spirit which disturbs the silence of others. I have seen many souls in the depths of hell for not having kept their silence; they told me so themselves when I asked them what was the cause of their undoing. These were souls of religious. My God, what an agony it is to think that not only might they have been in heaven, but they might even have become saints! O Jesus, have mercy!
119 I tremble to think that I have to give an account of my
tongue. There is life, but there is also death in the tongue. Sometimes we kill
with the tongue: we commit real murders. And we are still to regard that as a
small thing? I truly do not understand such consciences. I have known a person
who, when she learned from someone that a certain thing was being said about
her, fell seriously ill. She lost a good deal of blood and shed many tears, and
the outcome was very sad. It was not the sword that did all this, but the
tongue. O my silent Jesus, have mercy on us!
120 I have wandered onto the subject of silence. But this is
not what I wanted to speak about, but rather about the soul's life with God and
about its response to grace. When a soul has been cleansed, and the Lord is on
intimate terms with it, it begins to apply all its inner force in striving
after God. Yet the soul cannot do anything of itself. God alone arranges
everything. The soul knows this and is mindful of it. It is still in exile and
understands well that there may yet come cloudy and rainy days, but it must now
look upon things differently from what it had up to now. It does not seek
reassurance in a false peace, but makes ready for battle. It knows it comes
from a warrior race. It is now much more aware of everything. It knows that it
is of royal stock. It is concerned with all that is great and holy.
126 Yet, I resolved to bear everything in silence and to
give no explanations when I was questioned. Some were irritated by my silence,
especially those who were more curious. Others, who reflected more deeply,
said, "Sister Faustina must be very close to God if she has the strength
to bear so much suffering." It was as if I were facing two groups of judges.
I strove after interior and exterior silence. I said nothing about myself, even
though I was questioned directly by some sisters. My lips were sealed. I
suffered like a dove, without complaint. But some sisters seemed to find
pleasure in vexing me in whatever way they could. My patience irritated them.
But God gave me so much inner strength that I endured it calmly.
163 JMJ The Year 1937
General Exercises
+O Most Holy Trinity! As many times as I breathe, as many times as my heart beats, as many times as my blood pulsates through my body, so many thousand times do I want to glorify Your mercy.
+I want to be completely transformed into Your mercy and to be Your living reflection, 0 Lord. May the greatest of all divine attributes, that of Your unfathomable mercy, pass through my heart and soul to my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my eyes may be merciful, so that I may never suspect or judge from appearances, but look for what is beautiful in my neighbors' souls and come to their rescue.
Help me, that my ears may be merciful, so that I may give heed to my neighbors' needs and not be indifferent to their pains and moanings. Help me, O Lord, that my tongue may be merciful, so that I should never speak negatively of my neighbor, but have a word of comfort and forgiveness for all.
Help me, O Lord, that my hands may be merciful and filled with good deeds, so that I may do only good to my neighbors and take upon myself the more difficult and toilsome tasks.
Help me, that my feet may be merciful, so that I may hurry to assist my neighbor, overcoming my own fatigue and weariness. My true rest is in the service of my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my heart may be merciful so that I myself may feel all the sufferings of my neighbor. I will refuse my heart to no one. I will be sincere even with those who, I know, will abuse my kindness. And I will lock myself up in the most merciful Heart of Jesus. I will bear my own suffering in silence. May Your mercy, O Lord, rest upon me.
+You yourself command me to exercise the three degrees of mercy. The first: the act of mercy, of whatever kind. The second: the word of mercy-if I cannot carry out a work of mercy, I will assist by my words. The third: prayer-if I cannot show mercy by deeds or words, I can always do so by prayer. My prayer reaches out even there where I cannot reach out physically.
O my Jesus, transform me into Yourself, for you can do all things.
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General Exercises
+O Most Holy Trinity! As many times as I breathe, as many times as my heart beats, as many times as my blood pulsates through my body, so many thousand times do I want to glorify Your mercy.
+I want to be completely transformed into Your mercy and to be Your living reflection, 0 Lord. May the greatest of all divine attributes, that of Your unfathomable mercy, pass through my heart and soul to my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my eyes may be merciful, so that I may never suspect or judge from appearances, but look for what is beautiful in my neighbors' souls and come to their rescue.
Help me, that my ears may be merciful, so that I may give heed to my neighbors' needs and not be indifferent to their pains and moanings. Help me, O Lord, that my tongue may be merciful, so that I should never speak negatively of my neighbor, but have a word of comfort and forgiveness for all.
Help me, O Lord, that my hands may be merciful and filled with good deeds, so that I may do only good to my neighbors and take upon myself the more difficult and toilsome tasks.
Help me, that my feet may be merciful, so that I may hurry to assist my neighbor, overcoming my own fatigue and weariness. My true rest is in the service of my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my heart may be merciful so that I myself may feel all the sufferings of my neighbor. I will refuse my heart to no one. I will be sincere even with those who, I know, will abuse my kindness. And I will lock myself up in the most merciful Heart of Jesus. I will bear my own suffering in silence. May Your mercy, O Lord, rest upon me.
+You yourself command me to exercise the three degrees of mercy. The first: the act of mercy, of whatever kind. The second: the word of mercy-if I cannot carry out a work of mercy, I will assist by my words. The third: prayer-if I cannot show mercy by deeds or words, I can always do so by prayer. My prayer reaches out even there where I cannot reach out physically.
O my Jesus, transform me into Yourself, for you can do all things.
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169 My conversation with the Lord Jesus before the retreat.
Jesus told me that this retreat would be a little different from others. You
shall strive to maintain a profound peace in respect to your communings with
Me. I will remove all doubts in this regard. I know that you are at peace now
as I speak to you, but the moment I stop talking you will start looking for
doubts. But I want you to know that I will affirm your soul to such a degree
that even if you wanted to be troubled, it will not be within your power. And
as a proof that it is I who am speaking to you, you will go to confession on
the second day of the retreat to the priest who is preaching the retreat; you
will go to him as soon as he has finished his conference and will present to
him all your doubts concerning Me. I will answer you through his lips, and then
your fears will end. During this retreat, observe such strict silence that it
will be as though nothing exists around you. You shall speak only to Me and to
your confessor; you will ask your superiors only for penances. I felt
immense joy that the Lord would show me such kindness and lower himself so much
for my sake.
171 Struggle to keep silence. As usual, sisters from various
houses came to the retreat. One of the sisters whom I had not seen for a long
time, came to my cell and said she had something to tell me. I did not answer
her, and she saw that I did not want to break silence. She said to me, "I
didn't know you were such an eccentric, sister," and she went away. I was
well aware that she had no other business with me than to satisfy her own
curious self-love. O God, preserve me in faithfulness.
226 The rules that I most often fail to obey: sometimes I break
silence; disobedience to the signal of the bell; sometimes I meddle in other
people's affairs. I will do my very best to improve.
I will avoid sisters who grumble, and if they cannot be avoided, I will at least keep silent before them, thus letting them know how sorry I am to hear such things. I must take no heed of the opinion of others, but obey the evidence of my own conscience and take God to be the witness of all my actions. I must do everything and act in all matters now as I would like to do and act at the hour of my death. For this reason, in every action I must be mindful of God.
Avoid presumed permissions.[67] I must report [even] small things to my superiors, and do so in as much detail as is possible. I must be faithful in my spiritual exercises; I must not easily ask to be dispensed from them. I must keep silence outside the time of recreation, and avoid jokes and witty words that make others laugh and break silence. I must have great appreciation for even the most minute rules. I must not let myself become absorbed in the whirl of work, [but] take a break to look up to heaven. Speak little with people, but a good deal with God. Avoid familiarity. I must pay little attention as to who is for me and who is against me. I must not tell others about those things I have had to put up with. I must avoid speaking out loud to others during work. I must maintain peace and equanimity during times of suffering. In difficult moments I must take refuge in the wounds of Jesus; I must seek consolation, comfort, light and affirmation in the wounds of Jesus.
I will avoid sisters who grumble, and if they cannot be avoided, I will at least keep silent before them, thus letting them know how sorry I am to hear such things. I must take no heed of the opinion of others, but obey the evidence of my own conscience and take God to be the witness of all my actions. I must do everything and act in all matters now as I would like to do and act at the hour of my death. For this reason, in every action I must be mindful of God.
Avoid presumed permissions.[67] I must report [even] small things to my superiors, and do so in as much detail as is possible. I must be faithful in my spiritual exercises; I must not easily ask to be dispensed from them. I must keep silence outside the time of recreation, and avoid jokes and witty words that make others laugh and break silence. I must have great appreciation for even the most minute rules. I must not let myself become absorbed in the whirl of work, [but] take a break to look up to heaven. Speak little with people, but a good deal with God. Avoid familiarity. I must pay little attention as to who is for me and who is against me. I must not tell others about those things I have had to put up with. I must avoid speaking out loud to others during work. I must maintain peace and equanimity during times of suffering. In difficult moments I must take refuge in the wounds of Jesus; I must seek consolation, comfort, light and affirmation in the wounds of Jesus.
236 Oh, how misleading are appearances, and how unjust the
judgments. Oh, how often virtue suffers only because it remains silent. To be
sincere with those who are incessantly stinging us demands much self-denial.
One bleeds, but there are no visible wounds. O Jesus, it is only on the last
day that many of these things will be made known. What joy-none of our efforts
will be lost!
253 +I must never judge anyone, but
look at others with leniency and at myself with severity. I must refer
everything to God and, in my own eyes, recognize myself for what I am: utter
misery and nothingness. In suffering, I must be patient and quiet, knowing that
everything passes in time.
274 Jesus gave me the grace of knowing myself. In this
divine light I see my principal fault; it is pride which takes the form of my
closing up within myself and of a lack of simplicity in my relations with
Mother Superior [Irene].
The second light concerns speaking. I sometimes talk too much. A thing could be settled in one or two words, and as for me, I take too much time about it. But Jesus wants me to use that time to say some short indulgenced prayers for the souls in purgatory. And the Lord says that every word will be weighed on the day of judgment.
The third light concerns our rules. I have not sufficiently avoided the occasions that lead to breaking the rules, especially that of silence. I will act as if the rule were written just for me; it should not affect me at all how anyone else might act, as long as I myself act as God wishes.
Resolution. Whatever Jesus demands of me regarding external things, I will immediately go and tell my superiors. I shall strive for childlike openness and frankness in my relations with the superior.
The second light concerns speaking. I sometimes talk too much. A thing could be settled in one or two words, and as for me, I take too much time about it. But Jesus wants me to use that time to say some short indulgenced prayers for the souls in purgatory. And the Lord says that every word will be weighed on the day of judgment.
The third light concerns our rules. I have not sufficiently avoided the occasions that lead to breaking the rules, especially that of silence. I will act as if the rule were written just for me; it should not affect me at all how anyone else might act, as long as I myself act as God wishes.
Resolution. Whatever Jesus demands of me regarding external things, I will immediately go and tell my superiors. I shall strive for childlike openness and frankness in my relations with the superior.
275 Jesus loves hidden souls. A hidden flower is the most
fragrant. I must strive to make the interior of my soul a resting place for the
Heart of Jesus. In difficult and painful moments, O my Creator, I sing You a
hymn of trust, for bottomless is the abyss of my trust in You and in Your
mercy!
300 +Ask of my faithful servant
[Father Sopocko] that, on this day, he tell the whole world of My great mercy;
that whoever approaches the Fount of Life on this day will be granted complete
remission of sins and punishment.
+Mankind will not have peace until it turns with trust to My mercy.
+Oh, how much I am hurt by a soul's distrust! Such a soul professes that I am Holy and Just, but does not believe that I am Mercy and does not trust in My Goodness. Even the devils glorify My Justice but do not believe in My Goodness.
My Heart rejoices in this title of Mercy.
+Mankind will not have peace until it turns with trust to My mercy.
+Oh, how much I am hurt by a soul's distrust! Such a soul professes that I am Holy and Just, but does not believe that I am Mercy and does not trust in My Goodness. Even the devils glorify My Justice but do not believe in My Goodness.
My Heart rejoices in this title of Mercy.
301 Proclaim that mercy is the
greatest attribute of God. All the works of My hands are crowned with mercy.
359 January 10, 1935. +Thursday. In the evening during
benediction,[85] such thoughts as these
began to distress me: Is not perhaps all this that I am saying about God's
great mercy just a lie or an illusion...? And I wanted to think about this for
a while, when I heard a strong and clear inner voice saying, Everything that
you say about My goodness is true; language has no adequate expression to extol
My goodness. These words were so filled with power and so clear that I
would give my life in declaring they came from God. I can tell this by the
profound peace that accompanied them at that time and that still remains with
me. This peace gives me such great strength and power that all difficulties,
adversities, sufferings, and death itself are as nothing. This light gave me a
glimpse of the truth that all my efforts to bring souls to know the mercy of
the Lord are very pleasing to God. And from this springs such great joy in my
soul that I do not know whether it could be any greater in heaven. Oh, if souls
would only be willing to listen, at least a little, to the voice of conscience
and the voicethat is, the inspirations-of the Holy Spirit! I say "at least
a little," because once we open ourselves to the influence of the Holy
Spirit, He himself will fulfill what is lacking in us.
375 Particular interior practice; that is, the examination
of conscience. Self-denial, denial of my own will.
I. The denial of my reason. Subjecting it to the reason of those who represent God to me here on earth.
II. The denial of my will. Doing the will of God, which is revealed in the will of those who represent God to me and which is contained in the rule of our order.
III. The denial of my judgment. Accepting immediately and without reflection, analysis or reasoning all orders given by those who represent God to me.
IV. The denial of my tongue. I will not give it the least bit of freedom; but in one case only I will give it complete freedom; that is, in proclaiming the glory of God. Whenever I receive Holy Communion, I will ask Jesus to fortify and cleanse my tongue that I may not injure my neighbor with it. That is why I have the greatest respect for the rule which speaks about silence.
I. The denial of my reason. Subjecting it to the reason of those who represent God to me here on earth.
II. The denial of my will. Doing the will of God, which is revealed in the will of those who represent God to me and which is contained in the rule of our order.
III. The denial of my judgment. Accepting immediately and without reflection, analysis or reasoning all orders given by those who represent God to me.
IV. The denial of my tongue. I will not give it the least bit of freedom; but in one case only I will give it complete freedom; that is, in proclaiming the glory of God. Whenever I receive Holy Communion, I will ask Jesus to fortify and cleanse my tongue that I may not injure my neighbor with it. That is why I have the greatest respect for the rule which speaks about silence.
396 My traveling companions were very kind; several women of
the Sodality of Mary were in the same compartment with me. I sensed that one of
them was suffering greatly and fighting a difficult battle in her soul. l began
to pray in spirit for this soul. At eleven o'clock these women went to another
compartment for a chat, leaving only the two of us behind in the carriage. I
could feel that my prayer was causing this soul's struggle to become even
fiercer. I did not console her, but prayed all the more fervently. Finally, the
lady turned to me and asked if she was obliged to fulfill a certain promise
which she had made to God. At that moment, I received inner knowledge of the
promise and replied, "You are absolutely obliged to keep it, or else you
will be miserable for the rest of your life. This thought will pursue you
everywhere and give you no peace." Surprised at my answer, she opened her
soul to me.
She was a schoolteacher. When she was about to take her examinations, she had promised God that if she did well in her examinations she would devote herself to His service; that is, enter a religious congregation. She passed the examinations very well. "But," she said, "when I entered into the hustle and bustle of the world, I no longer wanted to enter a convent. However, my conscience has given me no peace, and despite amusements I am always unhappy."
After a lengthy conversation, she was completely changed and told me that she would immediately take steps to enter a convent. She asked me to pray for her, and I felt that God would be generous with His grace.
She was a schoolteacher. When she was about to take her examinations, she had promised God that if she did well in her examinations she would devote herself to His service; that is, enter a religious congregation. She passed the examinations very well. "But," she said, "when I entered into the hustle and bustle of the world, I no longer wanted to enter a convent. However, my conscience has given me no peace, and despite amusements I am always unhappy."
After a lengthy conversation, she was completely changed and told me that she would immediately take steps to enter a convent. She asked me to pray for her, and I felt that God would be generous with His grace.
1728 Write: I am Thrice Holy, and
I detest the smallest sin. I cannot love a soul which is stained with sin; but
when it repents, there is no limit to My generosity toward it. My mercy
embraces and justifies it. With My mercy, I pursue sinners along all their
paths, and My Heart rejoices when they return to Me. I forget the bitterness
with which they fed My Heart and rejoice at their return.
Tell sinners that no one shall escape My Hand; if they run away from My Merciful Heart, they will fall into My Just Hands. Tell sinners that I am always waiting for them, that I listen intently to the beating of their heart... when will it beat for Me? Write, that I am speaking to them through their remorse of conscience, through their failures and sufferings, through thunderstorms, through the voice of the Church. And if they bring all My graces to naught, I begin to be angry with them, leaving them alone and giving them what they want.
Tell sinners that no one shall escape My Hand; if they run away from My Merciful Heart, they will fall into My Just Hands. Tell sinners that I am always waiting for them, that I listen intently to the beating of their heart... when will it beat for Me? Write, that I am speaking to them through their remorse of conscience, through their failures and sufferings, through thunderstorms, through the voice of the Church. And if they bring all My graces to naught, I begin to be angry with them, leaving them alone and giving them what they want.
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-117-120 126, 163, 169)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-171, 226, 236, 253, 254, 274-275)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-300-301, 359, 375, 396)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-445, 449)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-VI-1728)
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