A Lesson about the Heart
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Memorial of Saint
John of the Cross, priest and doctor of the Church
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Matthew 11: 16-19
Jesus said to the
crowds: “To what shall I compare this generation? It is like children who sit
in the marketplaces and call to one another, ‘We played the flute for you,
but you did not dance, we sang a dirge, but you did not mourn.’ For John came
neither eating nor drinking, and they said, ‘He is possessed by a demon.’ The
Son of Man came eating and drinking and they said. ‘Look he is a glutton and
a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners.’ But wisdom is vindicated
by her works.”
Introductory Prayer:
Lord Jesus, thank You
for this new day and all the graces You will bless me with. I believe in You
and Your love for me. I wish to show my love for You by staying focused on
what is most important during this time of prayer: You and Your most holy
will.
Petition: Lord Jesus, help me to see Your actions and
the actions of others with the eyes of faith.
1. Eyes of Faith: God comes to us in many and various ways
each day. Sometimes he reveals his goodness to us when he allows us to
succeed in life. Other times he permits trials in our life so that we can
cling more surely to him. The proper response to God’s constant action in our
lives will only be possible if we are able to discern that it is indeed God
who is acting –– that it is God who is “playing the flute for us” or “singing
a dirge for us”. We need the eyes of faith. A habitual interior attitude of
faith and trust in God allows us to live with great peace and purpose.
2. Worldly Standards
of Judgment: Jesus complains when
the crowds use worldly standards to size him up. They are caught up in their
opinions and all too easily pass judgment on him. They accuse Jesus of being
possessed by a demon, a drunkard, and so on. How easy is it for me to judge
others by accepting or rejecting them for mere external things? What are my
internal attitudes towards others? Lord, help me to be detached from all
worldly standards of judging and to embrace each soul, loving them as you do,
and to leave the judging to you.
3. But Wisdom is
Vindicated by Her Works: Despite
the rejection and harsh judgments of many, Jesus went about doing good. This
is what he meant by saying that “wisdom is vindicated by her works”. In the
same vein he also taught that you can recognize a tree by its fruits. Knowing
how easy it is to misjudge others, I cannot permit myself to worry about what
others may say or think of me. Rather I need to be busy like Jesus, going
about doing good. Good actions speak for themselves, even if it may take a
while for others to perceive or appreciate them. When we trustfully follow
along to the flute or the dirge Our Lord is playing for us, and we do so for
his sake and for the sake of spreading his message, we can rest in the
certainty that God is blessing us and will bring his good works to fruition
through us.
Conversation with
Christ: Thank You, Jesus,
for this opportunity to spend time with You in prayer. Let it be my
motivation for the day and bring me to live a greater spirit of faith in You
and the mission You have entrusted me. How much it would help me to consider
my actions, the actions of others and Your actions under the light of Your
love and good will. I do believe that You permit everything that happens in
my life for the sake of bringing about a greater good, but Lord, increase my
faith.
Resolution: I will strive to interpret the actions of
others in a positive way, excusing any defects I may perceive.
Excerpts from the
DIARY of Saint Faustina Kowalska
102 After some time, one of the
sisters came into the cell and found me almost dead. She was frightened and
went to find the Directress of Novices who, in the name of holy obedience
ordered me to get up from the ground. My strength returned immediately, and I
got up, trembling. The Directress recognized immediately the state of my soul
and spoke to me about the inscrutable mercy of God, saying, "Do not be
distressed about anything, Sister. I command this of you in virtue of
obedience." Then she said to me, "I see now, Sister, that God is
calling you to a high degree of holiness; the Lord wants to draw you very
close to Himself since He has allowed these things to happen to you so soon.
Be faithful to God, Sister, because this is a sign that He wants you to have
a high place in heaven." However, I did not understand anything of these
words. When I went into the chapel, I felt as though my soul had been set
free from everything, as though I had just come forth from the hand of God. I
perceived the inviolability of my soul; I felt that I was a tiny child.
106 Though these are frightening
things, the soul should not be too fearful, because God will never test us
beyond what we are able to bear. On the other hand, He may never send us such
sufferings, but I write this because, if it pleases the Lord to let a soul
pass through such sufferings, it should not be afraid but, insofar as this
depends on the soul itself, it should remain faithful to God. God will do a
soul no harm, because He is Love itself, and in this unfathomable love has
called it into being. However, when I was so tormented, I myself did not
understand this.
107 O my God, I have come to know that I am not of this earth; You, O Lord, have poured this profound awareness into my soul. My communion is more with heaven than with earth, though I in no way neglect my duties.
109 After such sufferings the soul
finds itself in a state of great purity of spirit and very close to God. But
I should add that during these spiritual torments it is close to God, but it
is blind. The soul's vision is plunged into darkness, and though God is
nearer than ever to the soul which is suffering, the whole secret consists in
the fact that it knows nothing of this. The soul in fact declares that, not
only has God abandoned it, but it is the object of His hatred. With how great
a malady are they eyes of the soul afflicted! When struck by divine light,
the soul affirms that this light does not exist, although it is precisely
because this divine light is so bright that it is blinded. Yet despite all, I
learned later that God is closer to a soul at such moments than at others,
because it would not be able to endure these trials with the help of ordinary
grace alone. God's omnipotence and an extraordinary grace must be active
here, for otherwise the soul would succumb at the first blow.
110 O Divine Master, what happens in my soul is Your work alone! You, O Lord, are not afraid to place the soul on the edge of a terrible precipice where it stands, alarmed and filled with fright, and then You call it back again to Yourself. These are Your imponderable mysteries. 111 When, in the midst of these interior torments, I tried to accuse myself in confession of the smallest trifles, the priest was surprised that I had not committed graver faults, and he said to me, "If you are as faithful as this to God during these sufferings, this in itself is evidence to me that God is sustaining you, Sister, with a special grace, and it is a good thing that you do not understand this." It is a strange thing, nevertheless, that confessors could neither understand me nor set my mind at peace concerning these matters, until I met Father Andrasz and, later on, Father Sopocko.
343 True love is measured by the
thermometer of suffering. Jesus, I thank You for the little daily crosses,
for opposition to my endeavors, for the hardships of communal life, for the
misinterpretation of my intentions, for humiliations at the hands of others,
for the harsh way in which we are treated, for false suspicions, for poor
health and loss of strength, for self-denial, for dying to myself, for lack
of recognition in everything, for the upsetting of all my plans.
Thank You, Jesus, for interior sufferings, for dryness of spirit, for terrors, fears and incertitude's, for the darkness and the deep interior night, for temptations and various ordeals, for torments too difficult to describe, especially for those which no one will understand, for the hour of death with its fierce struggle and all its bitterness. I thank You, Jesus, You who first drank the cup of bitterness before You gave it to me, in a much milder form. I put my lips to this cup of Your holy will. Let all be done according to Your good pleasure; let that which Your wisdom ordained before the ages be done to me. I want to drink the cup to its last drop, and not seek to know the reason why. In bitterness is my joy, in hopelessness is my trust. In You, O Lord, all is good, all is a gift of Your paternal Heart. I do not prefer consolations over bitterness or bitterness over consolations, but thank You, O Jesus, for everything! It is my delight to fix my gaze upon You, O incomprehensible God! My spirit abides in these mysterious dwelling places, and there I am at home. I know very well the dwelling place of my Spouse. I feel there is not a single drop of blood in me that does not burn with love for You. O Uncreated Beauty, whoever comes to know You once cannot love anything else. I can feel the bottomless abyss of my soul, and nothing will fill it but God himself. I feel that I am drowned in Him like a single grain of sand in a bottomless ocean.
383 At the
beginning of the retreat, I saw, on the ceiling of the chapel, Jesus nailed
to the Cross. He was looking at the sisters with great love, but not at all
of them. There were three sisters at whom Jesus looked severely, for what
reasons I do not know. I only know what a terrible thing it is to meet with
such a look, which is the look of a severe Judge. That look was not directed
at me, and yet I was paralyzed with terror. I still tremble as I write these
words. I did not dare to say so much as a single word to Jesus. My physical
strength failed me, and I thought I would not live to the end of the
conference. The next day, I saw the same thing again, just as I had seen it
the first time, and this time I dared to speak these words: "Jesus, how
great is Your mercy!"
On the third day,
that gaze of great kindness upon all the sisters, except the three, was
again repeated. I
gathered up my courage, which drew its force from love of neighbor, and I said
to the Lord, "You, who are Mercy Itself, as You yourself told me, I beg
You by the power of Your mercy, to look then with kindness at these three
sisters as well. And if this is not in accord with Your wisdom, I ask You for
an exchange: turn to them the kind look meant for my soul, and let Your severe
gaze at their souls be turned on me." Jesus then said to me these words:
My daughter, for the sake of your sincere and generous love, I grant them
many graces although they are not asking Me for them. But I am doing so because
of the promise I have made to you. And at that moment, He turned a
merciful look towards those three sisters as well. My heart leapt with joy to
see the goodness of God.
458
During the ten-o'clock meditation, Father [Rzyczkowski [98]] spoke
about divine mercy and about God's goodness to us. He said that as we review
the history of mankind, we can see this great goodness of God at every step.
All the attributes of God, such as omnipotence and wisdom, serve to reveal to
us the greatest of His attributes; namely, His goodness. God's goodness is
the greatest of God's attributes. Many souls striving for perfection,
however, are not aware of this great goodness of God. Everything that Father
said in the course of the meditation about the goodness of God, was exactly
what Jesus had said to me concerning (the Feast of Mercy. I have now come to
understand clearly what the Lord has promised me, and I have no doubt about
anything; God's language is clear and distinct.
+ J.M.J.
742 My daughter, if I demand through you that people revere My mercy, you
should be the first to distinguish yourself by this confidence in My mercy. I
demand from you deeds of mercy, which are to arise out of love for Me. You
are to show mercy to your neighbors always and everywhere. You must not
shrink from this or try to excuse or absolve yourself from it.
I am giving you three ways of exercising mercy toward your neighbor: the first-by deed, the second-by word, the third-by prayer. In these three degrees is contained the fullness of mercy, and it is an unquestionable proof of love for Me. By this means a soul glorifies and pays reverence to My mercy. Yes, the first Sunday after Easter is the Feast of Mercy, but there must also be acts of mercy, and I demand the worship of My mercy through the solemn celebration of the Feast and through the veneration of the image which is painted. By means of this image I shall grant many graces to souls. It is to be a reminder of the demands of My mercy, because even the strongest faith is of no avail without works. O my Jesus, You yourself must help me in everything, because You see how very little I am, and so I depend solely on Your goodness, O God. + Particular Examen Union with the merciful Christ. With my heart I encompass the whole world, especially countries which are uncivilized or where there is persecution. I am praying for mercy upon them.
743 Two general resolutions:
First: To strive after inner silence and to observe the rule of silence strictly. Second: Faithfulness to interior inspirations; to bring them into my life and actions according to the advice of my spiritual director. In this present illness, I desire to glorify the will of God. I will try, as far as I am able, to take part in all the community exercises. I will give the Lord God fervent thanks for every sorrow and suffering.
885 Jesus, give me
the strength and wisdom to get through this terrible wilderness, that my heart
may bear patiently this longing for You, O my Lord! I always remain in holy
amazement when I
sense that You are approaching me, You, the Lord of the awesome
throne; that You
descend to this miserable exile and visit this poor beggar who has nothing but
misery! I do not know how to entertain You, my Royal Prince, but You know
that I love You with every beat of my heart. I see how You lower yourself,
but nevertheless Your majesty does not diminish in my eyes. I know that You
love me with the love of a bridegroom, and that is enough for me. Although we
are separated by a great chasm, for You are the Creator and I am Your
creature, nevertheless, love alone explains our union. Without it, all is
incomprehensible. Only love makes it possible to understand these incomprehensible
intimacies with which You visit me. O Jesus, Your greatness terrifies me, and
I would be in constant astonishment and fear, if You yourself did not set me
at peace. You make me capable of communing with You before each approach.
965 Jesus looked at me and said, Souls
perish in spite of My bitter Passion. I am giving them the last hope of
salvation; that is, the Feast of My Mercy. If they will not adore My mercy,
they will perish for all eternity. Secretary of My mercy, write, tell souls
about this great mercy of Mine, because the awful day, the day of My justice,
is near.
966 + Today, I heard in my soul these words: My daughter, it is time for you to take action; I am with you. Great persecutions and sufferings are in store for you, but be comforted by the thought that many souls will be saved and sanctified by this work. 967 + When I set to work at underlining the Lord's words and thus was going through everything in sequence, I reached the page where I had marked down Father Andrasz's advice and directions. I did not know what to do, to underline or not to underline, and then I heard these words in my soul: Underline, because these words are Mine; I have borrowed the lips of the friend of My Heart in order to speak to you and reassure you. You are to observe these directions until your death. It would not please Me at all if you were to disobey these directions. Know that it is I who have placed him between Myself and your soul. I am doing this to set you at peace and so that you may not err. 968 Since I have placed you in this priest's special care, you are thus exempted from giving a detailed account to your superiors concerning My relationship with you. In all other matters, be as a child with your superiors, but whatever I do in the depths of your soul is to be told, with all frankness, only to the priests. And I have noticed that, from the time God gave me a spiritual director, He has not required me to report everything to the superiors, as was the case before, but only that which concerns external matters; apart from this, only the director knows my soul. To have a spiritual director is a special grace of God. Oh, how few have received it! The soul remains in constant peace amidst the greatest difficulties. Every day after Holy Communion, I thank the Lord Jesus for this grace, and every day I ask the Holy Spirit to enlighten him. I have truly experienced in my soul what power the director's words have. Blessed be God's mercy for this grace!
975 Today I heard these words: Pray
for souls that they be not afraid to approach the tribunal of My mercy. Do
not grow weary of praying for sinners. You know what a burden their souls are
to My Heart. Relieve My deathly sorrow; dispense My mercy.
990 I know well, O Lord, that You
have no need of our works; You demand love. Love, love and once again, love
of God-there is nothing greater in heaven or on earth. The greatest greatness
is to love God; true greatness is in loving God; real wisdom is to love God.
All that is great and beautiful is in God; there is no beauty or greatness
outside of Him. O you sages of the world and you great minds, recognize that
true greatness is in loving God! Oh, how astonished I am that some people
deceive themselves, saying: There is no eternity!
998 Today, I took part in a
one-day retreat. When I was at the last conference, [177] the priest was speaking of how much the
world needs God's mercy, and that this seems to be a special time when people
have great need of prayer and God's mercy. Then I heard a voice in my soul: These
words are for you. Do all you possibly can for this work of My mercy. I
desire that My mercy be worshiped, and I am giving mankind the last hope of
salvation; that is, recourse to My mercy. My Heart rejoices in this feast. After
these words, I understood that nothing can dispense me from the obligation
which the Lord demands from me.
1030 + O my Jesus,
give me wisdom, give me a mind great and enlightened by Your light, and this
only, that I may know You better, O Lord. For the better I get to know You,
the more ardently will I love You, the sole object of my love. In You my soul
drowns, in You my heart dissolves. I know not how to love partially, but only
with the full strength of my soul and the total ardor of my heart. You
yourself, O Lord, have enkindled this love of mine for You; in You my heart
has drowned forever.
1456 + O most
gracious Lord, how merciful it is on Your part to judge each one according to
his conscience and his discernment, and not according to people's talk. My
spirit delights and feeds more and more on Your wisdom, which I am getting to
know more and more deeply. And in this, the vastness of Your mercy becomes
more and more manifest to me. O my Jesus, the effect of all this knowledge on
my soul is that I am being transformed into a flame of love towards You, my
God.
1682 + May 1, [1938]. This
evening, Jesus said to me, My daughter, do you need anything? I
answered, "O my Love, when I have You I have everything." And the
Lord answered, If souls would put themselves completely in My care, I
Myself would undertake the task of sanctifying them, and I would lavish even
greater graces on them. There are souls who thwart My efforts, but I have not
given up on them; as often as they turn to Me, I hurry to their aid,
shielding them with My mercy, and I give them the first place in My
compassionate Heart.
1683 Write for the benefit of religious souls that it delights Me to come to their hearts in Holy Communion. But if there is anyone else in such a heart, I cannot bear it and quickly leave that heart, taking with Me all the gifts and graces I have prepared for the soul. And the soul does not even notice My going. After some time, inner emptiness and dissatisfaction will come to her attention. Oh, if only she would turn to Me then, I would help her to cleanse her heart, and I would fulfill everything in her soul; but without her knowledge and consent, I cannot be the Master of her heart. 1684 + I often communicate with persons who are dying and obtain the divine mercy for them. Oh, how great is the goodness of God, greater than we can understand. There are moments and there are mysteries of the divine mercy over which the heavens are astounded. Let our judgment of souls cease, for God's mercy upon them is extraordinary. 1685 During Holy Hour today, I asked the Lord Jesus if He would deign to teach me about the spiritual life. Jesus answered me, My daughter, faithfully live up to the words which I speak to you. Do not value any external thing too highly, even if it were to seem very precious to you. Let go of yourself, and abide with Me continually. Entrust everything to Me and do nothing on your own, and you will always have great freedom of spirit. No circumstances or events will ever be able to upset you. Set little store on what people say. Let everyone judge you as they like. Do not make excuses for yourself; it will do you no harm. Give away everything at the first sign of a demand, even if they were the most necessary things. Do not ask for anything without consulting Me. Allow them to take away even what is due you-respect, your good name-let your spirit rise above all that. And so, set free from everything, rest close to My Heart, not allowing your peace to be disturbed by anything. My pupil, consider the words which I have spoken to you. 1686 O my Love, my eternal Master, how good it is to obey; because when obedience infuses the soul, it brings with it power and strength to act. 1687 Today I saw the Crucified Lord Jesus. Precious pearls and diamonds were pouring forth from the wound in His Heart. I saw how a multitude of souls was gathering these gifts, but there was one soul who was closest to His Heart and she, knowing the greatness of these gifts, was gathering them with liberality, not only for herself, but for others as well. The Savior said to me, Behold, the treasures of grace that flow down upon souls, but not all souls know how to take advantage of My generosity. 1688 Today, the Lord said to me, My daughter, look into My Merciful Heart and reflect its compassion in your own heart and in your deeds, so that you, who proclaim My mercy to the world, may yourself be aflame with it.
1692 I adore You,
Lord and Creator, hidden in the Blessed Sacrament. I adore You for all the works
of Your hands, that reveal to me so much wisdom, goodness and mercy, O Lord.
You have spread so much beauty over the earth, and it tells me about Your
beauty, even though these beautiful things are but a faint reflection of You,
Incomprehensible Beauty. And although You have hidden Yourself and concealed
Your beauty, my eye, enlightened by faith, reaches You, and my soul
recognizes its Creator, its Highest Good; and my heart is completely immersed
in prayer of adoration.
My Lord and
Creator, Your goodness encourages me to converse with You. Your mercy
abolishes the chasm
which separates the Creator from the creature. To converse with You, O Lord,
is the delight of my heart. In You I find everything that my heart could
desire. Here Your light illumines my mind, enabling it to know You more and
more deeply. Here streams of graces flow down upon my heart. Here my soul
draws eternal life. O my Lord and Creator, You alone, beyond all these gifts,
give Your own self to me and unite Yourself intimately with Your miserable
creature. Here, without searching for words, our hearts understand each
other. Here, no one is able to interrupt our conversation. What I talk to You
about, Jesus, is our secret, which creatures shall not know and Angels dare
not ask about. These are secret acts of forgiveness, known only to Jesus and
me; this is the mystery of His mercy, which embraces each soul separately.
For this incomprehensible goodness of Yours, I adore You, O Lord and Creator,
with all my heart and all my soul. And, although my worship is so little and
poor, I am at peace because I know that You know it is sincere, however
inadequate...
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-102, 106-107, 109-111, 343, 383, 458)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-742-743, 885, 965-968, 975, 990, 998)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-III-1030)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-V-1465)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-VI-1682-1688, 1692)
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