Become a Child-Like Again
Second
Sunday in Ordinary Time
Luke 2:41-51
Each year Jesus’
parents went to Jerusalem for the feast of Passover, and when he was twelve
years old, they went up according to festival custom. After they had completed
its days, as they were returning, the boy Jesus remained behind in Jerusalem,
but his parents did not know it. Thinking that he was in the caravan, they
journeyed for a day and looked for him among their relatives and acquaintances,
but not finding him, they returned to Jerusalem to look for him. After three
days they found him in the Temple, sitting in the midst of the teachers,
listening to them and asking them questions, and all who heard him were
astounded at his understanding and his answers. When his parents saw him, they
were astonished, and his mother said to him, "Son, why have you done this
to us? Your father and I have been looking for you with great anxiety."
And he said to them, "Why were you looking for me? Did you not know that I
must be in my Father´s house?" But they did not understand what he said to
them. He went down with them and came to Nazareth, and was obedient to them;
and his mother kept all these things in her heart.
Introductory
Prayer: Dearest Mother Mary, Christ Your Son learned to love from Your loving
example. Teach me to love in the same way. Instruct me in the way of Your
virtues. Help me to make use of every opportunity to grow in them. Never let me
miss the opportunities life gives me to love and form myself in virtue. I
always want to love the way You love.
Petition: Mary, my Mother,
help me be Your faithful child. Bring me to your son.
1. Not Everything
Is Clear From the Outset: Mary has a mother’s heart that wants to love the
loves of her Son. For Mary the road was not always clear. There would be many
trials and difficulties. Nevertheless, Mary is resolved to follow her Son. She
wants to follow him, understanding the mission. She cares for him in every way
– even spiritually. There were many surprises in store for her as Christ
matured and prepared for his mission. She never expected this one: losing her
son for three days, at such an early age. Her son desired to be in his Father’s
house and prepare his work. He loved being there and was preparing for the day
when he would go out and actively do the work he had been sent to complete.
Mary too was preparing for that day and Christ helped her get ready.
2. She Stored All
These Things Up In Her Heart: It was hard for Mary to understand
the full meaning of this moment. Being a woman of prayer and contemplation, she
stored all these things up in her heart where she could recall them, reflect on
them and compare them to other moments of her mission. What did all this mean?
What did it point to? God’s plan would only reveal itself with time and Mary
would be ready for it. It was not so much understanding that she needed but
rather acceptance and fidelity to complete it. Mary had a contemplative heart
that sought to unite itself and identify itself to the mission of her Son. She
knew that she had a part to play in that mission and that she would need to
prepare herself for it through prayer.
3. Take Mary’s
Hand: We will never understand the purpose and meaning of our life unless we
pray and contemplate like Mary did. It takes time, patience and a great deal of
simplicity and trust. “Blessed is she that believed that the promises made to
her would be fulfilled!” exclaims her cousin Elizabeth after the annunciation
by the angel Gabriel. We are blessed when we can believe. It may take a long
time to see the fulfillment of God’s designs in our lives too. We need to be
like Mary and follow through by faithfully walking the path that is marked out
for us. It can be a path that is not clear. We don’t need to know all of what
lies ahead – just where we need to walk. Mary identified with her Son’s mission
with her whole heart. She invites us to identify with it too. She will not fail
to take you by the hand and lead you along that unclear, difficult and unknown path.
Conversation with
Christ: Lord Jesus Christ, when You had already given us everything – Your
life, Your love, Your Body and Blood in the Eucharist – from the cross You gave
us the gift of Your Mother. I thank You for this great gift. I want to be Her
faithful child. I want to imitate all her virtues, especially Her faithfulness to You up to and beyond the
moment of the cross. Grant me the grace to accompany both You and Your mother
at the foot of the cross. I want to follow You closely and perfectly as Mary
did. I want to belong only to You and do only Your will.
Resolution: I will ask Mary to
shape all Christian virtues in me by my daily prayer to her in the Rosary. I
will also make a special visit to her at one of her statues or images this
week.
Excerpts from the DIARY of Saint Faustina
Kowalska
27 First vows [First profession of
temporary vows, April 30, 1928]. An ardent desire to empty myself for God by an
active love, but a love that would be imperceptible, even to the sisters closest
to me.
However, even after the vows, darkness
continued to reign in my soul for almost a half
year. Once, when I was praying, Jesus
pervaded all my soul, darkness melted away, and I heard these words within me: You
are My joy; you are My heart's delight. From that moment I felt the Most
Holy Trinity in my heart; that is to say, within myself. I felt that I was
inundated with Divine light. Since then, my soul has been in intimate communion
with God, like a child with its beloved Father.
39 + One day Jesus told me
that He would cause a chastisement to fall upon the most beautiful city in our
country [probably Warsaw]. This chastisement would be that with which God had punished
Sodom and Gomorrah.[27] I saw the great wrath of God and a shudder pierced my heart. I
prayed in silence. After a moment, Jesus said to me, My child, unite
yourself closely to Me during the Sacrifice and offer My Blood and My
Wounds to My Father in expiation for the sins of that city. Repeat this
without interruption throughout the entire Holy Mass. Do this for seven
days. On the seventh day I saw Jesus in a bright cloud and began to beg Him
to look upon the city and upon our whole country. Jesus looked [down]
graciously. When I saw the kindness of' Jesus, I began to beg His blessing. Immediately
Jesus said, For your sake I bless the entire country. And He made a big sign
of the cross over our country. Seeing the goodness of God, a great joy filled
my soul.
55 1933.
Spiritual Counsel Given Me by Father Andrasz, S.J.
First: You must not
turn away from these interior inspirations, but always tell everything to your
confessor. If you recognize that these interior inspirations refer to your own
self; that is to say, they are for the good of your soul or for the good of
other souls, l urge you to follow them; and you must not neglect them, but
always do so in consultation with your confessor.
Second: If these inspirations are not in accord with the faith or the spirit of the Church, they must be rejected immediately as coming from the evil spirit.
Third: If these inspirations do not refer to souls, in general, nor specifically to their good, you should not take them too seriously, and it would be better to even ignore them.
But you should not make this decision by yourself, either one way or the other, as you can easily be led astray despite these great favors from God. Humility, humility, and ever humility, as we can do nothing of ourselves; all is purely and simply God's grace.
You say to me that God demands great trust from souls; well then, you be the first to show this trust. And one more word-accept all this with serenity.
Words of one of the confessors: "Sister, God is preparing many special graces for you, but try to make your life as clear as crystal before the Lord, paying no attention to what anyone else thinks about you. Let God suffice you; He alone."
Toward the end of my novitiate, a confessor [perhaps Father Theodore] told me: "Go through life doing good, so that I could write on its pages: `She spent her life doing good.' May God bring this about in you."
Another time the confessor said to me, "Comport yourself before God like the widow in the Gospel; although the coin she dropped into the box was of little value, it counted far more before God than all the big offerings of others."
On another occasion the instruction I received was this: " Act in such a way that all those who come in contact with you will go away joyful. Sow happiness about you because you have received much from God; give, then, generously to others. They should take leave of you with their hearts filled with joy, even if they have no more than touched the hem of your garment. Keep well in mind the words I am telling you right now."
Still another time he gave me the following recommendation: "Let God push your boat out into the deep waters, toward the unfathomable depths of the interior life."
Here are a few words from a conversation I had with the Mother Directress [Mary Joseph] toward the end of my novitiate: "Sister, let simplicity and humility be the characteristic traits of your soul. Go through life like a little child, always trusting, always full of simplicity and humility, content with everything, happy in every circumstance. There, where others fear, you will pass calmly along, thanks to this simplicity and humility. Remember this, Sister, for your whole life: as waters flow from the mountains down into the valleys, so, too, do God's graces flow only into humble souls."
Second: If these inspirations are not in accord with the faith or the spirit of the Church, they must be rejected immediately as coming from the evil spirit.
Third: If these inspirations do not refer to souls, in general, nor specifically to their good, you should not take them too seriously, and it would be better to even ignore them.
But you should not make this decision by yourself, either one way or the other, as you can easily be led astray despite these great favors from God. Humility, humility, and ever humility, as we can do nothing of ourselves; all is purely and simply God's grace.
You say to me that God demands great trust from souls; well then, you be the first to show this trust. And one more word-accept all this with serenity.
Words of one of the confessors: "Sister, God is preparing many special graces for you, but try to make your life as clear as crystal before the Lord, paying no attention to what anyone else thinks about you. Let God suffice you; He alone."
Toward the end of my novitiate, a confessor [perhaps Father Theodore] told me: "Go through life doing good, so that I could write on its pages: `She spent her life doing good.' May God bring this about in you."
Another time the confessor said to me, "Comport yourself before God like the widow in the Gospel; although the coin she dropped into the box was of little value, it counted far more before God than all the big offerings of others."
On another occasion the instruction I received was this: " Act in such a way that all those who come in contact with you will go away joyful. Sow happiness about you because you have received much from God; give, then, generously to others. They should take leave of you with their hearts filled with joy, even if they have no more than touched the hem of your garment. Keep well in mind the words I am telling you right now."
Still another time he gave me the following recommendation: "Let God push your boat out into the deep waters, toward the unfathomable depths of the interior life."
Here are a few words from a conversation I had with the Mother Directress [Mary Joseph] toward the end of my novitiate: "Sister, let simplicity and humility be the characteristic traits of your soul. Go through life like a little child, always trusting, always full of simplicity and humility, content with everything, happy in every circumstance. There, where others fear, you will pass calmly along, thanks to this simplicity and humility. Remember this, Sister, for your whole life: as waters flow from the mountains down into the valleys, so, too, do God's graces flow only into humble souls."
56 O my God, I understand
well that You demand this spiritual childhood[32] of me,
because You are constantly asking it of me through Your representatives.
At the beginning of my
religious life, suffering and adversities frightened and disheartened me. So I
prayed continuously, asking Jesus to strengthen me and to grant me the power of
His Holy Spirit that I might carry out His holy will in all things, because
from the beginning I have been aware of my weakness. I know very well what I am
of myself, because for this purpose Jesus has opened the eyes of my soul; I am
an abyss of misery, and hence I understand that whatever good there is in my
soul consists solely of His holy grace. The knowledge of my own misery allows
me, at the same time, to know the immensity of Your mercy. In my own interior
life, I am looking with one eye at the abyss of my misery and baseness, and
with the other, at the abyss of Your mercy, O God.
102 After some time, one of the sisters came into the cell
and found me almost dead. She was frightened and went to find the Directress of
Novices who, in the name of holy obedience ordered me to get up from the
ground. My strength returned immediately, and I got up, trembling. The
Directress recognized immediately the state of my soul and spoke to me about
the inscrutable mercy of God, saying, "Do not be distressed about
anything, Sister. I command this of you in virtue of obedience." Then she
said to me, "I see now, Sister, that God is calling you to a high degree
of holiness; the Lord wants to draw you very close to Himself since He has
allowed these things to happen to you so soon. Be faithful to God, Sister,
because this is a sign that He wants you to have a high place in heaven."
However, I did not understand anything of these words. When I went into the
chapel, I felt as though my soul had been set free from everything, as though I
had just come forth from the hand of God. I perceived the inviolability of my
soul; I felt that I was a tiny child.
116 My Jesus, You know what my soul
goes through at the recollection of these sufferings. I have often marveled
that the angels and saints hold their peace at the sight of a soul suffering like
that. Yet they have special love for us at such moments. My soul has often
cried out after God, as a little child who cries as loudly as he can when his
mother covers her face and he cannot recognize her. O my Jesus, honor and glory
to You for these trials of love! Great and incomprehensible is your mercy. All
that You intended for my soul, O Lord, is steeped in Your mercy.
148 +A noble and delicate soul, even
the most simple, but one of delicate sensibilities, sees God in everything,
finds Him everywhere, and knows how to find Him in even the most hidden things.
It finds all things important, it highly appreciates all things, it thanks God
for all things, it draws profit for the soul from all things, and it gives all
glory to God. It places its trust in God and is not confused when the time of
ordeals comes. It knows that God is always the best of Fathers and makes little
of human opinion. It follows faithfully the faintest breath of the Holy Spirit;
it rejoices in this Spiritual Guest and holds onto Him like a child to its
mother. Where other souls come to a standstill and fear, this soul passes on
without fear or difficulty.
150 + I want to write down a dream
that I had about Saint Therese of the Child Jesus. I was still a novice at the
time and was going through some difficulties which I did not know how to
overcome. They were interior difficulties connected with exterior ones. I made
novenas to various saints, but the situation grew more and more difficult. The
sufferings it caused me were so great that I did not know how to go on living,
but suddenly the thought occurred to me that I should pray to Saint Therese of
the Child Jesus. I started a novena to this Saint, because before entering the
convent I had had a great devotion to her. Lately I had somewhat neglected this
devotion, but in my need I began again to pray with great fervor.
On the fifth day of the novena, I dreamed of Saint Therese, but it was as if she were still living on earth. She hid from me the fact that she was a saint and began to comfort me, saying that I should not be worried about this matter, but should trust more in God. She said, "I suffered greatly, too," but I did not quite believe her and said, "It seems to me that you have not suffered at all." But Saint Therese answered me in a convincing manner that she had suffered very much indeed and said to me, "Sister, know that in three days the difficulty will come to a happy conclusion." When I was not very willing to believe her, she revealed to me that she was a saint. At that moment, a great joy filled my soul, and I said to her, "You are a saint?" "Yes," she answered, "I am a saint. Trust that this matter will be resolved in three days:" And I said, "Dear sweet Therese, tell me, shall I go to heaven?" And she answered, "Yes, you will go to heaven, Sister." "And will I be a saint?" To which she replied, "Yes, you will be a saint." "But, little Therese, shall I be a saint as you are, raised to the altar?" And she answered, "Yes, you will be a saint just as I am, but you must trust in the Lord Jesus." I then asked her if my mother and father would go to heaven, will [unfinished sentence] And she replied that they would. I further asked, "And will my brothers and sisters go to heaven?" She told me to pray hard for them, but gave me no definite answer. I understood that they were in need of much prayer.
This was a dream. And as the proverb goes, dreams are phantoms; God is faith. Nevertheless, three days later the difficulty was solved very easily, just as she had said. And everything in this affair turned out exactly as she said it would. It was a dream, but it had its significance.
On the fifth day of the novena, I dreamed of Saint Therese, but it was as if she were still living on earth. She hid from me the fact that she was a saint and began to comfort me, saying that I should not be worried about this matter, but should trust more in God. She said, "I suffered greatly, too," but I did not quite believe her and said, "It seems to me that you have not suffered at all." But Saint Therese answered me in a convincing manner that she had suffered very much indeed and said to me, "Sister, know that in three days the difficulty will come to a happy conclusion." When I was not very willing to believe her, she revealed to me that she was a saint. At that moment, a great joy filled my soul, and I said to her, "You are a saint?" "Yes," she answered, "I am a saint. Trust that this matter will be resolved in three days:" And I said, "Dear sweet Therese, tell me, shall I go to heaven?" And she answered, "Yes, you will go to heaven, Sister." "And will I be a saint?" To which she replied, "Yes, you will be a saint." "But, little Therese, shall I be a saint as you are, raised to the altar?" And she answered, "Yes, you will be a saint just as I am, but you must trust in the Lord Jesus." I then asked her if my mother and father would go to heaven, will [unfinished sentence] And she replied that they would. I further asked, "And will my brothers and sisters go to heaven?" She told me to pray hard for them, but gave me no definite answer. I understood that they were in need of much prayer.
This was a dream. And as the proverb goes, dreams are phantoms; God is faith. Nevertheless, three days later the difficulty was solved very easily, just as she had said. And everything in this affair turned out exactly as she said it would. It was a dream, but it had its significance.
164 +JMJ Warsaw, 1933.
Probation Before Perpetual
Vows[56]
When I learned I was to go
for probation, my heart beat with joy at the thought of such an immense grace,
that of the perpetual vows. I went before the Blessed Sacrament; and when I
immersed myself in a prayer of thanksgiving, I heard these words in my soul: My
child you are My delight, you are the comfort of My Heart. I grant you
as many graces as you can hold. As often as you want to make Me happy,
speak to the world about My great and unfathomable mercy.
165 A few weeks before I was told
about the probation, I entered the chapel for a moment and Jesus said to me, At
this very moment the superiors are deciding which sisters are going to
take perpetual vows. Not all of them will be granted this grace, but this is
their own fault. He who does not take advantage of small graces will not
receive great ones. But to you, my child, this grace is being given. My
soul was seized with joyful surprise, because a few days earlier one of the
sisters had said to me, "Sister, you will not be going for the third
probation. I myself will see to it that you will not be permitted to make your
vows." I said nothing to the sister, but felt great pain which I tried to
conceal as best I could.
O Jesus, how strange are Your ways! I
now see that people can do very little on their own, for I did make my
probation, as Jesus had told me.
182 I learned that certain people have
a special gift for vexing others. They try you as best they can. The poor soul
that falls into their hands can do nothing right; her best efforts are maliciously
criticized.
+Christmas Eve.
Today I was closely united with the
Mother of God. I relived her interior sentiments. In the evening, before the
ceremony of the breaking of the wafer, I went into the chapel to break the
wafer, in spirit, with my loved ones, and I asked the Mother of God for graces
for them. My spirit was totally steeped in God. During the Midnight Mass
["Pasterka" or Shepherds' Mass], I saw the Child Jesus in the Host,
and my spirit was immersed in Him. Although He was a tiny Child, His majesty
penetrated my soul. I was permeated to the depths of my being by this mystery,
this great abasement on the part of God, this inconceivable emptying of Himself.
These sentiments remained vividly alive in my soul all through the festive
season. Oh, we shall never comprehend this great self-abasement on the part of
God; the more I think of it, [unfinished thought].
184 +Holy Hour. During this hour, l
tried to meditate on the Lord's Passion. But my soul was filled with joy, and
suddenly I saw the Child Jesus. But His majesty penetrated me to such an extent
that I said, "Jesus, You are so little, and yet I know that You are my
Creator and Lord." And Jesus answered me, I am, and I keep company with
you as a child to teach you humility and simplicity.
I gathered all my sufferings and
difficulties into a bouquet for Jesus for the day of our
perpetual betrothal. Nothing was
difficult for me, when I remembered it was for my
Betrothed
as proof of my love for Him.
209 In my sufferings, I do not seek
help from creatures, but God is everything to me. And yet, it often seems that
even the Lord does not hear me. I arm myself with patience and silence, like a
dove that does not complain and feels no bitterness when its children are being
taken away from it. I want to soar into the very heat of the sun, and I do not
want to stop in its vapors. I will not grow weary, because it is on You that I
am leaning-O You, my Strength!
219 In the evening, the Lord said to
me, My daughter, let nothing frighten or disconcert you. Remain deeply at
peace. Everything is in My hands. I will give you to understand everything
through Father Andrasz. Be like a child towards him.
228 You see that in
pronouncing my perpetual vows I am leaving the novitiate[68] today.
Jesus, You know how weak and little I am, and so from today on, I am entering
Your novitiate in a very special way. I continue to be a novice, but Your
novice, Jesus, and You will be my Master to the last day. Daily I will attend
lectures at Your feet. I will not do the least thing by myself, without
consulting You first as my Master. Jesus, how happy I am that You yourself have
drawn me and taken me into Your novitiate; that is to say, into the tabernacle.
In making my perpetual vows, I have by no means become a perfect nun. No, no! I
am still a weak little novice of Jesus, and I must strive to acquire perfection
as I did in the first days of the novitiate, and I will make every effort to
keep the same disposition of soul which I had on that first day the convent
gate opened to admit me.
With the trust and
simplicity of a small child, I give myself to You today, O Lord Jesus, my Master.
I leave You complete freedom in directing my soul. Guide me along the paths You
wish. I won't question them. I will follow You trustingly. Your merciful Heart
can do all things!
The little novice of
Jesus-Sister Faustina.
229 +At the beginning of the retreat,
Jesus told me, During this retreat, I myself will direct your soul. I want
to confirm you in peace and love. And so the first few days passed by. On
the fourth day, doubts began to trouble me: Is not this tranquility of mine
false? Then I heard these words, My daughter, imagine that you are
the sovereign of all the world and have the power to dispose of all things
according to your good pleasure. You have the power to do all the good you
want, and suddenly a little child knocks on your door, all trembling and in
tears and, trusting in your kindness, asks for a piece of bread lest he die of
starvation. What would you do for this child? Answer Me, my daughter.
And I said, "Jesus, I would give the child all it asked and a thousand
times more. "And the Lord said to me, That is how I am treating
your soul. In this retreat I am giving you, not only peace, but also such a
disposition of soul that even if you wanted to experience uneasiness you could
not do so. My love has taken possession of your soul, and I want you to be confirmed
in it. Bring your ear close to My Heart, forget everything else, and meditate
upon My wondrous mercy. My love will give you the strength and courage you need
in these matters.
230 Jesus, living Host, You are my Mother, You are my
all! It is with simplicity and love, with faith and trust that I will always
come to You, O Jesus! I will share everything with You, as a child with its
loving mother, my joys and sorrows-in a word, everything.
240 Three requests on the
day of my perpetual vows. Jesus, I know that today You will refuse me nothing.
First request: Jesus, my
most beloved Spouse, I beg You for the triumph of the Church,
particularly in Russia and
in Spain; for blessings on the Holy Father, Pius XI, and on all the clergy; for
the grace of conversion for impenitent sinners. And I ask You for a special blessing
and for light, O Jesus, for the priests before whom I will make my confessions throughout
my lifetime.
Second request :I beg Your
blessings on our Congregation, and may it be filled with great zeal. Bless, O
Jesus, our Mother General and our Mother Directress, all the novices and all the
superiors. Bless my dearest parents. Bestow Your grace, O Jesus, on our wards; strengthen
them so powerfully by Your grace so that those who leave our houses will no longer
offend You by any sin. Jesus, I beg You for my homeland; protect it against the
assaults of its enemies.
Third request: Jesus, I
plead with You for the souls that are most in need of prayer. I plead for the
dying; be merciful to them. I also beg You, Jesus, to free all souls from
purgatory.
Jesus, I commend to You
these particular persons: My confessors, persons recommended to my prayers, a
certain person..., Father Andrasz, Father Czaputa, and the priest I met in Vilnius
[Father Sopocko], who is to be my confessor, a certain soul... a certain
priest, a certain religious[70] to whom You know how much I owe,
Jesus, and all the people who have been recommended to my prayer. Jesus, on
this day You can do everything for those for whom I am pleading. For myself I
ask, Lord, transform me completely into Yourself, maintain in me a holy zeal
for Your glory, give me the grace and spiritual strength to do Your holy will in
all things.
Thank You, o my dearest
Bridegroom, for the dignity You have conferred on me, and in
particular for the royal
coat-of-arms which will adorn me from this day on and which even the Angels do
not possess; namely, the cross, the sword and the crown of thorns. But above all,
O my Jesus, I thank You for Your Heart-it is all I need.
Mother of God, Most Holy
Mary, my Mother, You are my Mother in a special way now because Your beloved
Son is my Bridegroom, and thus we are both Your children. For Your Son's sake,
You have to love me. O Mary, my dearest Mother, guide my spiritual life in such
a way that it will please Your Son.
+Holy and Omnipotent God, at this
moment of immense grace by which You are uniting me with Yourself forever, I,
mere nothingness, with the utmost gratitude, cast myself at Your feet like a
tiny, unknown flower and, each day, the fragrance of that flower of love will ascend
to Your throne.
In times of struggle and suffering, of
darkness and storm, of yearning and sorrow, in times of difficult trials, in
times when nobody will understand me, when I will even be condemned and scorned
by everyone, I will remember the day of my perpetual vows, the day of God's incomprehensible
grace.
242 +O God, how much I
desire to be a small child.[71] You are my Father, and You know
how little and weak I am. So I beg You, keep me close by Your side all my life
and especially at the hour of my death. Jesus, I know that Your goodness
surpasses the goodness of a most tender mother.
243 I will thank the Lord
Jesus for every humiliation and will pray specially for the person who has
given me the chance to be humiliated. I will immolate myself for the benefit of
souls. I will not count the cost of any sacrifice. I will cast myself beneath
the feet of the sisters, like a carpet on which they can not only tread, but
also wipe their feet. My place is under the feet of the sisters. I will make
every effort to obtain that place unnoticed by others. It is enough that God
sees this.
244 Now a gray, ordinary day has
begun. The solemn hours of the perpetual vows have passed, but God's great
grace has remained in my soul. I feel I am all God's; I feel I am His child, I feel
I am wholly God's property. I experience this in a way that can be physically
sensed. I am completely at peace about everything, because I know it is the
Spouse's business to look after me. I have forgotten about myself completely.
My trust placed in His Most Merciful Heart has no limit. I am continuously
united with Him. It seems to me as though Jesus could not be happy without me,
nor could I without Him. Although I understand that, being God, He is happy in
himself and has absolutely no need of any creature, still, His goodness compels
Him to give himself to the creature, and with a generosity which is beyond understanding.
260 I had permission to
visit Czestochowa while on my journey. I saw the Mother of God [image] for the
first time, when I went to attend the unveiling of the image at five in the
morning. I prayed without interruption until eleven, and it seemed to me that I
had just come. The superior of the house there [Mother Serafin[75]] sent a
sister for me, to tell me to come to breakfast and said she was worried that I
would miss my train. The Mother of God told me many things. I entrusted my
perpetual vows to Her. I felt that I was her child and that She was my Mother.
She did not refuse any of my requests.
264 +O my Jesus, keep me near to You!
See how weak I am! I cannot go a step forward by myself; so You, Jesus, must
stand by me constantly like a mother by a helpless child-and even more so.
275 Jesus loves hidden souls. A hidden
flower is the most fragrant. I must strive to make the interior of my soul a
resting place for the Heart of Jesus. In difficult and painful moments, O my
Creator, I sing You a hymn of trust, for bottomless is the abyss of my trust in
You and in Your mercy!
282 Once the Lord said to me, My
Heart was moved by great mercy towards you, My dearest child, when I saw you
torn to shreds because of the great pain you suffered in repenting for your
sins. I see your love, so pure and true that I give you first place among the
virgins. You are the honor and glory of My Passion. I see every abasement of
your soul, and nothing escapes my attention. I lift up the humble even to my
very throne, because I want it so.
God, One in the Holy Trinity.
287 +My Jesus, when I look at this
life of souls, I see that many of them serve You with some mistrust. At certain
times, especially when there is an opportunity to show their love for God, I
see them running away from the battlefield. And once Jesus said to me, Do
you, my child, also want to act like that? I answered the Lord,
"Oh, no, my Jesus, I will not retreat from the battlefield, even if mortal
sweat breaks out on my brow; I will not let the sword fall from my hand until I
rest at the feet of the Holy Trinity!" Whatever I do, I do not rely on my
own strength, but on God's grace. With God's grace a soul can overcome the
greatest difficulties.
298 O my Jesus, the Life, the Way and
the Truth, I beg You to keep me close to You as a mother holds a baby to her
bosom, for I am not only a helpless child, but an accumulation of misery and
nothingness.
+The Mystery of the Soul. Vilnius,
1934
312 +Once when I went outside the
convent to go to confession [St. Michael's Church], I chanced upon my confessor
[Father Sopocko] saying Mass just then. After a while I saw the Child Jesus on
the altar, joyfully and playfully holding out His hands to him. But a moment
later the priest took the beautiful Child into his hands, broke Him up and ate
Him alive. At the first instant I felt a dislike for the priest for having done
this to Jesus, but I was immediately enlightened in the matter and understood
that this priest was very pleasing to God.
315 +Mother of God, Your soul was
plunged into a sea of bitterness; look upon Your child and teach her to suffer
and to love while suffering. Fortify my soul that pain will not break it. Mother
of grace, teach me to live by [the power of] God.
332 +Thursday. When I started the Holy
Hour, I wanted to immerse myself in the agony of Jesus in the Garden of Olives.
Then I heard a voice in my soul: Meditate on the mystery of the Incarnation
. And suddenly the Infant Jesus appeared before me, radiant with beauty. He
told me how much God is pleased with simplicity in a soul. Although My
greatness is beyond understanding, I commune only with those who are
little. I demand of you a childlike spirit.
333 I now see clearly how God acts through
the confessor and how faithfully He keeps His promises. Two weeks ago, my
confessor told me to reflect upon this spiritual childhood. It was somewhat
difficult at first, but my confessor, disregarding my difficulties, told me to
continue to reflect upon spiritual childhood. "In practice, this spiritual
childhood," [he said,] "should manifest itself in this way: a child
does not worry about the past or the future, but makes use of the present
moment. I want to emphasize that spiritual childlikeness in you, Sister, and I
place great stress upon it." I can see how God bows down to my confessor's
wishes; He does not show himself to me at this time as a Teacher in the
fullness of His strength and human adulthood, but as a little Child. The God
who is beyond all understanding stoops to me under the appearance of a little
Child.
334 But the eye of my soul does not
stop at this appearance. Although You take the form of a little Child, I see in
You the immortal, infinite Lord of lords, whom pure spirits adore, day and night,
and for whom the hearts of the Seraphim burn with the fire of purest love. O
Christ, O Jesus, I want to surpass them in my love for You! I apologize to you,
O pure spirits, for my boldness in comparing myself to you. I, this chasm of
misery, this abyss of misery; and You, O God, who are the incomprehensible
abyss of mercy, swallow me up as the heat of the sun swallows up a drop of dew!
A loving look from You will fill up any abyss. I feel immensely happy at the
greatness of God. Seeing God's greatness is more than enough to make me happy
throughout all eternity!
335 Once, when I saw Jesus in the form
of a small child, I asked, "Jesus, why do you now take on the form of a
child when You commune with me? In spite of this, I still see in You the
infinite God, my Lord and Creator. Jesus replied that until I learned
simplicity and humility, He would commune with me as a little child.
357 +Most Holy Trinity, I trust in
Your infinite mercy. God is my Father and so I, His child, have every claim to
His divine Heart; and the greater the darkness, the more complete our trust should
be.
377 Concerning Holy Confession. We
should derive two kinds of profit from Holy Confession:
1. We come to confession to be healed;
2. We come to be educated-like a small
child, our soul has constant need of education.
O my Jesus, I understand these words
to their very depths, and I know from my own experience that, on its own
strength, the soul will not go far; it will exert itself greatly and will do
nothing for the glory of God; it will err continually, because our mind is
darkened and does not know how to discern its own affairs. I shall pay special
attention to two things: firstly, I will choose, in making my confession, that
which humiliates me most, even if it be a trifle, but something that costs me
much, and for that reason I will tell it; secondly, I will practice contrition,
not only during confession, but during every self-examination, and I will arouse
within myself an act of perfect contrition, especially when I am going to bed.
One more word: a soul which sincerely wants to advance in perfection must
observe strictly the advice given by the spiritual director. There is as much
holiness as there is dependence.
395 [February] 15, 1935. A
few days' visit at my parents' home [92] to see my
dying mother. When I learned that my mother was seriously ill and near death,
and that she had asked that I come home, as she wanted to see me once more
before dying, a host of emotions were awakened in my heart. As a child who
sincerely loves its mother, I wanted very much to fulfill her wish. But I left
this to God and resigned myself completely to His will. Paying no heed to the
ache in my heart, I followed God's will. On the morning of my name day, February
fifteen, Mother Superior gave me a second letter from my family and granted me permission
to go to my parents' home to fulfill the wish and request of my dying mother. I
began at once to make the necessary preparations for the journey and left
Vilnius in the evening. I offered the whole night for my seriously ill mother,
that God might grant her the grace of losing none of the merits of her
suffering.
406 After a short while, I saw the
little Jesus, who came out from the Host and rested in my hands. This lasted
for a moment; immense joy flooded my soul. The Child Jesus had the same
appearance as He had the time we entered the Chapel with Mother Superior-my
former Directress, Mary Joseph. The next day I was already back in my beloved
Vilnius.
424 In the evening, I just about got
into bed, and I fell asleep immediately. Though I fell asleep quickly, I was
awakened even more quickly. A little child came and woke me up. The child
seemed about a year old, and I was surprised it could speak so well, as
children of that age either do not speak or speak very indistinctly The child
was beautiful beyond words and resembled the Child Jesus, and he said to me, Look
at the sky. And when I looked at the sky I saw the stars and the moon
shining. Then the child asked me, Do you see this moon and these stars? When
I said yes, he spoke these words to me, These stars are the souls of
faithful Christians, and the moon is the souls of religious. Do you see how
great the difference is between the light of the moon and the light of the
stars? Such is the difference in heaven between the soul of a religious and the
soul of a faithful Christian. And he went on to say that, True greatness
is in loving God and in humility.
427 A moment later, I again saw the
child who had awakened me. It was of wondrous beauty and repeated these words
to me, True greatness of the soul is in loving God and in humility. I
asked the child, "How do you know that true greatness of the soul is in
loving God and in humility? Only theologians know about such things and you
haven't even learned the catechism. So how do you know?" To this he
answered, I know; I know all things. And with that, He disappeared.
451 Once after Holy Communion, I heard
these words: You are Our dwelling place. At that moment, I felt in my
soul the presence of the Holy Trinity, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit.
I felt that I was the temple of God. I felt I was a child of the Father. I
cannot explain all this, but the spirit understands it well. O infinite
Goodness, how low You stoop to Your miserable creature!
481 Almost every feast of the Church
gives me a deeper knowledge of God and a special grace. That is why I prepare
myself for each feast and unite myself closely with the spirit of the Church.
What a joy it is to be a faithful child of the Church! Oh, how much I love Holy
Church and all those who live in it! I look upon them as living members of
Christ, who is their Head. I burn with love with those who love; I suffer with
those who suffer, I am consumed with sorrow at the sight of those who are cold
and ungrateful; and I then try to have such a love for God that it will make
amends for those who do not love Him, those who feed their Savior with
ingratitude at its worst.
J.M.J. Cracow, October 20, 1935.
Eight-day Retreat.
492 Eternal God, Goodness itself,
whose mercy is incomprehensible to every intellect, whether human or angelic,
help me, your feeble child, to do Your holy will as You make it known to me. I
desire nothing but to fulfill God's desires. Lord, here are my soul and my
body, my mind and my will, my heart and all my love. Rule me according to Your
eternal plans.
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-I-27, 39, 55-56, 102, 116, 148, 150)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-I-164-165, 182, 184, 209, 219, 228)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-I-229-230, 242-244, 260, 264, 282)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-I-287, 298, 312, 315, 332-335, 357)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-377, 395, 406, 424, 427, 481, 492)
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