Spiritual Weather Reports
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Friday of the
Twenty-Ninth Week in Ordinary Time
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Father Steven Reilly, LC
Luke 12:54-59
Jesus
said to the crowds, "When you see a cloud rising in the west you say
immediately that it is going to rain -- and so it does; and when you notice
that the wind is blowing from the south you say that it is going to be hot --
and so it is. You hypocrites! You know how to interpret the appearance of the
earth and the sky; why do you not know how to interpret the present time? Why
do you not judge for yourselves what is right? If you are to go with your
opponent before a magistrate, make an effort to settle the matter on the way;
otherwise your opponent will turn you over to the judge, and the judge hand
you over to the constable, and the constable throw you into prison. I say to
you, you will not be released until you have paid the last penny."
Introductory
Prayer:
Lord, I believe that
You are here with me. I have come to honor and adore You. Your love sustains
me. I want to love You more in return.
Petition: Lord, allow me to
comprehend Your providence more deeply.
1.
Seeing Signs: Jesus
expresses some indignation with the spiritual obtuseness of his listeners; in
other words, they don’t get it! When it comes to earthly matters, they can
put two and two together in an almost infallible manner. A dim dullness,
however, has the upper hand when the spiritual realm is broached. Why?
Possibly because they were not bothering to ponder what the sign of Jesus’
presence, miracles and words really meant. They remained on the superficial
level without plumbing the depths. Superficiality inhibits our own spiritual
progress as well. Seeing signs isn’t so much a matter of being able to pick
out the shape of a tabernacle or cross in a passing cloud, but of deep and
prayerful consideration of the love of God in our lives.
2.
God’s Presence: People who live a life of consistent prayer are much more in
tune with God’s presence. Where others see coincidence, they see providence.
This gives them a profound sense of peace. They know that God is in charge
and that they don’t have to figure out everything for themselves. The world
doesn’t rest on their shoulders, but on God’s. So instead of complaining or
worrying, they live in an atmosphere of trust and acceptance.
3.
Paying Attention: God’s providence guides all things. We know this through faith
and sometimes he sends a sign to say, “Yes, I’m indeed here.” Once a
Legionary priest was driving down the road in Virginia and his thoughts were
taken up with a difficulty he was having with a particular person. “How
should I handle this,” he asked himself. A car pulled out in front of him.
Virginia is known for its high number of vanity license plates, and this one
left him scratching his head. The license plate read “CARITAS”, which is
Latin for “charity.” Was it just a coincidence? He couldn’t deny that this
was the answer he was looking for. The signs that invite us to be more
Christ-like are the ones to which we need to pay the most attention.
Conversation
with Christ: Lord,
the times I really don’t pick up on the signs You send me are when they
challenge my resistance to Your grace. Help me to overcome my spiritual
superficiality and perceive Your presence in my life.
Resolution:
I will try to be
prompt in following the inspirations of the Holy Spirit.
Excerpts from the
DIARY of Saint Faustina Kowalska
186 +Today Jesus
said to me, I desire that you know more profoundly the love that burns in
My Heart for souls, and you will understand this when you meditate upon My
Passion. Call upon My mercy on behalf of sinners; I desire their salvation.
When you say this prayer, with a contrite heart and with faith on behalf of
some sinner, I will give him the grace of conversion. This is the prayer:
187 "O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fount of Mercy for us, I trust in You."
206 The next day,
after Communion, I heard the voice saying, My daughter, look into the
abyss of My mercy and give praise and glory to this mercy of Mine. Do it in
this way: Gather all sinners from the entire world and immerse them in the
abyss of My mercy. I want to give Myself to souls; I yearn for souls, My
daughter. On the day of My feast, the Feast of Mercy, you will go through the
whole world and bring fainting souls to the spring of My mercy. I shall heal
and strengthen them.
280 Jesus commanded
me to celebrate the Feast of God's Mercy on the first Sunday after Easter.
[This I did] through interior recollection and exterior mortification,
wearing the belt for three hours and praying continuously for sinners and for
mercy on the whole world. And Jesus said to me, My eyes rest with pleasure
upon this house today.
308 1934, Holy
Thursday. Jesus said to me, I desire that you make an offering of yourself
for sinners and especially far those souls who have lost hope in God's mercy.
God and Souls. An Act of Oblation. 309 Before heaven and earth, before all the choirs of Angels, before the Most Holy Virgin Mary, before all the Powers of heaven, I declare to the One Triune God that today, in union with Jesus Christ, Redeemer of souls, I make a voluntary offering of myself for the conversion of sinners, especially for those souls who have lost hope in God's mercy. This offering consists in my accepting, with total subjection to God's will, all the sufferings, fears and terrors with which sinners are filled. In return, I give them all the consolations which my soul receives from my communion with God. In a word, I offer everything for them: Holy Masses, Holy Communions, penances, mortifications, prayers. I do not fear the blows, blows of divine justice, because I am united with Jesus. O my God, in this way I want to make amends to You for the souls that do not trust in Your goodness. I hope against all hope in the ocean of Your mercy. My Lord and my God, my portion-my portion forever, I do not base this act of oblation on my own strength, but on the strength that flows from the merits of Jesus Christ. I will daily repeat this act of self-oblation by pronouncing the following prayer which You yourself have taught me, Jesus: "O Blood and Water which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a Fount of Mercy for us, I trust in You!"
319 August 9, 1934.
Night adoration on Thursdays.[79]
I made my hour of adoration from eleven o'clock till midnight. I offered it
for the conversion of hardened sinners, especially for those who have lost
hope in God's mercy. I was reflecting on how much God had suffered and on how
great was the love He had shown for us, and on the fact that we still do not
believe that God loves us so much. O Jesus, who can understand this? What
suffering it is for our Savior! How can He convince us of His love if even
His death cannot convince us? I called upon the whole of heaven to join me in
making amends to the Lord for the ingratitude of certain souls.
320 Jesus made
known to me how very pleasing to Him were prayers of atonement. He said to
me, The prayer of a humble and loving soul disarms the anger of My Father
and draws down an ocean of blessings. After the adoration, half way to my
cell, I was surrounded by a , pack of huge black dogs who were jumping and
howling and trying to tear me to pieces. I realized that they were not dogs,
but demons. One of them spoke up in a rage, "Because you have snatched
so many souls away from us this night, we will tear you to pieces." I
answered, "If that is the will of the most merciful God, tear me to
pieces, for I have justly deserved it, because I am the most miserable of all
sinners, and God is ever holy, just, and infinitely merciful." To these
words all the demons answered as one, "Let us flee, for she is not
alone; the Almighty is with her!" And they vanished like dust, like the
noise of the road, while I continued on my way to my cell undisturbed, finishing
my Te Deum and pondering the infinite and unfathomable mercy of God.
324 The next day, I
felt very weak, but experienced no further suffering. After Holy Communion, I
saw the Lord Jesus just as I had seen Him during one adoration. The Lord's
gaze pierced my soul through and through, and not even the least speck of
dust escaped His notice. And I said to Jesus, "Jesus, I thought You were
going to take me. "And Jesus answered, My will has not yet been fully accomplished in you; you
will still remain on earth, but not for long. I am well pleased with your
trust, but your love should be more ardent. Pure love gives the soul strength
at the very moment of dying. When I was dying on the cross, I was not
thinking about Myself, but about poor sinners, and I prayed for them to My
Father. I want your last moments to be completely similar to Mine on the
cross. There is but one price at which souls are bought, and that is
suffering united to My suffering on the cross. Pure love understands these
words; carnal love will never understand them.
349 In the morning,
during meditation, I felt a painful thorn in the left side of my head. The
suffering continued all day. I meditated continually about how Jesus had been
able to endure the pain of so many thorns which made up His crown. I joined
my suffering to the sufferings of Jesus and offered it for sinners. At four
o'clock when I came for adoration, I saw one of our wards offending God
greatly by sins of impure thoughts. I also saw a certain person who was the
cause of her sin. My soul was pierced with fear, and I asked God, for the
sake of Jesus' pain, to snatch her from this terrible misery.
350 Jesus answered
that He would grant her that favor, not for her sake, but for the sake of my
request. Now I understood how much we ought to pray for sinners, and
especially for our wards.
Our life is truly apostolic; I cannot imagine a religious living in one of our houses; that is, in our Community, and not having an apostolic spirit. Zeal for the salvation of souls should burn in our hearts.
355 1934-1935. New
Year's Eve. I was given permission not to go to sleep, but rather pray in the
chapel. One of the sisters had asked me to offer an hour of adoration for
her. I said yes, and prayed for her for an hour. During the hour, God gave me
to understand how very pleasing this soul was to Him.
I offered the second hour of adoration for the conversion of sinners, and I tried especially to offer expiation to God for the insults that were being committed against Him at this present moment. How greatly God is being offended! I offered the third hour for my spiritual director. I fervently prayed for light for him in a particular matter. Finally the clock struck twelve, the last hour of the year. I finished it in the Name of the Holy Trinity, and I also started the first hour of the New Year in the Name of the Holy Trinity. I asked each of the Three Persons to bless me and, with great confidence, looked toward the New Year which certainly would not be sparing of suffering. 356 O Blessed Host, in whom is contained the testament of God's mercy for us, and especially for poor sinners. O Blessed Host, in whom is contained the Body and Blood of the Lord Jesus as proof of infinite mercy for us, and especially for poor sinners. O Blessed Host, in whom is contained life eternal and of infinite mercy, dispensed in abundance to us and especially to poor sinners. O Blessed Host, in whom is contained the mercy of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit toward us, and especially toward poor sinners. O Blessed Host, in whom is contained the infinite price of mercy which will compensate for all our debts, and especially those of poor sinners. O Blessed Host, in whom is contained the fountain of living water which springs from infinite mercy for us, and especially for poor sinners. O Blessed Host, in whom is contained the fire of purest love which blazes forth from the bosom of the Eternal Father, as from an abyss of infinite mercy for us, and especially for poor sinners. O Blessed Host, in whom is contained the medicine for all our infirmities, flowing from infinite mercy, as from a fount, for us and especially for poor sinners. O Blessed Host, in whom is contained the union between God and us through His infinite mercy for us, and especially for poor sinners. O Blessed Host, in whom are contained all the sentiments of the most sweet Heart of Jesus toward us, and especially poor sinners. O Blessed Host, our only hope in all the sufferings and adversities of life. O Blessed Host, our only hope in the midst of darkness and of storms within and without. O Blessed Host, our only hope in life and at the hour of our death. O Blessed Host, our only hope in the midst of adversities and floods of despair. O Blessed Host, our only hope in the midst of falsehood and treason. O Blessed Host, our only hope in the midst of the darkness and godlessness which inundate the earth. O Blessed Host, our only hope in the longing and pain in which no one will understand us. O Blessed Host, our only hope in the toil and monotony of everyday life. O Blessed Host, our only hope amid the ruin of our hopes and endeavors. O Blessed Host, our only hope in the midst of the ravages of the enemy and the efforts of hell. O Blessed Host, I trust in You when the burdens are beyond my strength and I find my efforts are fruitless. O Blessed Host, I trust in You when storms toss my heart about and my fearful spirit tends to despair. O Blessed Host, I trust in You when my heart is about to tremble and mortal sweat moistens my brow. O Blessed Host, I trust in You when everything conspires against me and black despair creeps into my soul. O Blessed Host, I trust in You when my eyes will begin to grow dim to all temporal things and, for the first time, my spirit will behold the unknown worlds. O Blessed Host, I trust in You when my tasks will be beyond my strength and adversity will become my daily lot. O Blessed Host I trust in You when the practice of virtue will appear difficult for me and my nature will grow rebellious. O Blessed Host, I trust in You when hostile blows will be aimed against me. O Blessed Host, I trust in You when my toils and efforts will be misjudged by others. O Blessed Host, I trust in You when Your judgments will resound over me; it is then that I will trust in the sea of Your mercy.
951 + O
incomprehensible and limitless Mercy Divine, To extol and adore You worthily,
who can? Supreme attribu186 +Today Jesus said to me, I desire that you
know more profoundly the love that burns in My Heart for souls, and you will
understand this when you meditate upon My Passion. Call upon My mercy on
behalf of sinners; I desire their salvation. When you say this prayer, with a
contrite heart and with faith on behalf of some sinner, I will give him the
grace of conversion. This is the prayer:
Holy Trinity, One
God,
361 incomprehensible in the greatness of Your mercy for creatures, and especially for poor sinners, You have made known the abyss of Your mercy, incomprehensible and unfathomable [as it is] to any mind, whether of man or angel. Our nothingness and our misery are drowned in Your greatness. O infinite goodness, who can ever praise You sufficiently? Can there be found a soul that understands You in Your love? O Jesus, there are such souls, but they are few.
367 +On one occasion,
Jesus gave me to know that when I pray for intentions which people are wont
to entrust to me, He is always ready to grant His graces, but souls do not
always want to accept them: My
Heart overflows with great mercy for souls, and especially for poor sinners.
If only they could understand that I am the best of Fathers to them and that
it is for them that the Blood and Water flowed from My Heart as from a fount
overflowing with mercy. For them I dwell in the tabernacle as King of Mercy.
I desire to bestow My graces upon souls, but they do not want to accept them.
You, at least, come to Me as often as possible and take these graces they do
not want to accept. In this way you will console My Heart. Oh, how
indifferent are souls to so much goodness, to so many proofs of love! My
Heart drinks only of the ingratitude and forgetfulness of souls living in the
world. They have time for everything, but they have no time to come to Me for
graces.
So I turn to you, you-chosen souls, will you also fail to understand the love of My Heart? Here, too, My Heart finds disappointment; I do not find complete surrender to My love. So many reservations, so much distrust, so much caution. To comfort you, let Me tell you that there are souls living in the world who love Me dearly. I dwell In their hearts with delight. But they are few. In convents too, there are souls that fill My Heart with joy. They bear My features; therefore the Heavenly Father looks upon them with special pleasure. They will be a marvel to Angels and men. Their number is very small. They are a defense for the world before the justice of the Heavenly Father and a means of obtaining mercy for the world. The love and sacrifice of these souls sustain the world in existence. The infidelity of a soul specially chosen by Me wounds My Heart most painfully. Such infidelities are swords which pierce My Heart.
384 When I stayed
for adoration from nine to ten o'clock, four other sisters stayed; too. When
1 approached the altar and began to meditate on the Passion of the Lord
Jesus, a terrible pain immediately filled my soul because of the ingratitude
of so many souls living in the world; but particularly painful was the
ingratitude of souls especially chosen by God. There is no notion or
comparison [which can describe it]. At the sight of this blackest
ungratefulness I felt as though my heart were torn open; my strength failed
me completely, and I fell on my face, not attempting to hide my loud cries.
Each time I thought of God's great mercy and of the ingratitude of souls,
pain stabbed at my heart, and I understood how painfully it wounded the
sweetest Heart of Jesus. With a burning heart, I renewed my act of
self-oblation on behalf of sinners.
420 Low Sunday;
that is, the Feast of The Divine Mercy, the conclusion of the Jubilee of
Redemption. When we went to take part in the celebrations, my heart leapt
with joy that the two solemnities were so closely united. I asked God for
mercy on the souls of sinners. Toward the end of the service, when the priest
took the Blessed Sacrament to bless the people, I saw the Lord Jesus as He is
represented in the image. The Lord gave His blessing, and the rays extended
over the whole world. Suddenly, I saw an impenetrable brightness in the form
of a crystal dwelling place, woven together from waves of a brilliance
unapproachable to both creatures and spirits. Three doors led to this
resplendence. At that moment, Jesus, as He is represented in the image,
entered this resplendence through the second door to the Unity within. It is
a triple Unity, which is incomprehensible-which is infinity. I heard a voice,
This Feast emerged from the very depths of My mercy, and it is confirmed in
the vast depths of My tender mercies. Every soul believing and trusting in My
mercy will obtain it. I was overjoyed at the immense goodness and greatness
of my God.
423 Praise the
Lord, my soul, for everything, and glorify His mercy, for His goodness is
without end. Everything will pass, but His mercy is without limit or end. And
although evil will attain its measure, in mercy there is no measure.
O my God, even in the punishments You send down upon the earth I see the abyss of Your mercy, for by punishing us here on earth You free us from eternal punishment. Rejoice, all you creatures, for you are closer to God in His infinite mercy than a baby to its mother's heart. O God, You are compassion itself for the greatest sinners who sincerely repent. The greater the sinner, the greater his right to God's mercy.
687 Once, as I was
going down the hall to the kitchen, I heard these words in my soul: Say unceasingly the chaplet that I
have taught you. Whoever will recite it will receive great mercy at the hour
of death. Priests will recommend it to sinners as their last hope of
salvation. Even if there were a sinner most hardened, if he were to recite
this chaplet only once, he would receive grace from My infinite mercy. I
desire that the whole world know My infinite mercy. I desire to grant
unimaginable graces to those souls who trust in My mercy.
699 On one
occasion, I heard these words:
My daughter, tell the whole world about My inconceivable mercy. I desire that
the Feast of Mercy [139] be a refuge and shelter for all souls, and
especially for poor sinners. On that day the very depths of My tender mercy
are open. I pour out a whole ocean of graces upon those souls who approach
the fount of My mercy. The soul that will go to Confession and receive Holy
Communion shall obtain complete forgiveness of sins and punishment. On that
day all the divine floodgates through which grace flow are opened. Let no
soul fear to draw near to Me, even though its sins be as scarlet. My mercy is
so great that no mind, be it of man or of angel, will be able to fathom it
throughout all eternity. Everything that exists has come forth from the very
depths of My most tender mercy. Every soul in its relation to Me will
contemplate My love and mercy throughout eternity. The Feast of Mercy emerged
from My very depths of tenderness. It is My desire that it be solemnly
celebrated on the first Sunday after Easter. Mankind will not have peace
until it turns to the Fount of My Mercy.
730 + In this retreat, I shall keep you
continually close to My Heart, that you may better know My mercy, that mercy
which I have for people and especially for poor sinners.
741 Today, I was
led by an Angel to the chasms of hell. It is a place of great torture; how
awesomely large and extensive it is! The kinds of tortures I saw: the first
torture that constitutes hell is the loss of God; the second is perpetual
remorse of conscience; the third is that one's condition will never change;
the fourth is the fire that will penetrate the soul without destroying it-a
terrible suffering, since it is a purely spiritual fire, lit by God's anger;
the fifth torture is continual darkness and a terrible suffocating smell,
and, despite the darkness, the devils and the souls of the damned see each
other and all the evil, both of others and their own; the sixth torture is
the constant company of Satan; the seventh torture is horrible despair,
hatred of God, vile words, curses and blasphemies. These are the tortures
suffered by all the damned together, but that is not the end of the
sufferings. There are special tortures destined for particular souls. These
are the torments of the senses. Each soul undergoes terrible and
indescribable sufferings, related to the manner in which it has sinned. There
are caverns and pits of torture where one form of agony differs from another.
I would have died at the very sight of these tortures if the omnipotence of
God had not supported me. Let the sinner know that he will be tortured
throughout all eternity, in those senses which he made use of to sin. I am
writing this at the command of God, so that no soul may find an excuse by
saying there is no hell, or that nobody has ever been there, and so no one
can say what it is like.
I, Sister Faustina, by the order of God, have visited the abysses of hell so that I might tell souls about it and testify to its existence. I cannot speak about it now; but I have received a command from God to leave it in writing. The devils were full of hatred for me, but they had to obey me at the command of God. What I have written is but a pale shadow of the things I saw. But I noticed one thing: that most of the souls there are those who disbelieved that there is a hell. When I came to, I could hardly recover from the fright. How terribly souls suffer there! Consequently, I pray even more fervently for the conversion of sinners. I incessantly plead God's mercy upon them. O my Jesus, I would rather be in agony until the end of the world, amidst the greatest sufferings, than offend You by the least sin.
793 I am reliving
these moments with Our Lady. With great longing, I am waiting for the Lord's
coming. Great are my desires. I desire that all humankind come to know the
Lord. I would like to prepare all nations for the coming of the Word
Incarnate. O Jesus, make the fount of Your mercy gush forth more abundantly,
for humankind is seriously ill and thus has more need than ever of Your
compassion. You are a bottomless sea of mercy for us sinners; and the greater
the misery, the more right we have to Your mercy. You are a fount which makes
all creatures happy by Your infinite mercy.
845 Before the
vigil supper, I entered the chapel for a moment to break the wafer
spiritually with those dear to my heart. I presented them all, by name, to
Jesus and begged for graces on their behalf. But that wasn't all. I commended
to the Lord all those who are being persecuted, those who are suffering,
those who do not know His Name, and especially poor sinners. O little Jesus,
I fervently ask You, enclose them all in the ocean of Your incomprehensible
mercy. O sweet little Jesus, here is my heart; let it be a little cozy
dwelling place for Yourself. O Infinite Majesty, with what sweetness You drew
close to us. Here, there is no dread of the thunderbolts of the great
Jehovah; here, there is the sweet little Jesus. Here, no soul is afraid,
although Your majesty has not lessened, but only concealed itself. After
supper, I felt very tired and was in pain. I had to lie down. But I kept
vigil with the Most Holy Mother, awaiting the arrival of the little Child.
873 January 8. On
Friday morning, as I was going to the chapel to attend Holy Mass, I suddenly
saw a huge juniper tree on the pavement and in it a horrible cat who, looking
angrily at me, blocked my way to the chapel. One whisper of the name of Jesus
dissipated all that. I offered the whole day for dying sinners. During Holy
Mass, I felt the closeness of the Lord in a special way. After Holy
Communion, I turned my gaze with trust toward the Lord and told him,
"Jesus, I so much desire to tell You something." And the Lord
looked at me with love and said, And
what is it that you desire to tell Me?
"Jesus, I beg You, by the inconceivable power of Your mercy, that all the souls who will die today escape the fire of hell, even if they have been the greatest sinners. Today is Friday, the memorial of Your bitter agony on the Cross; because Your mercy is inconceivable, the Angels will not be surprised at this." Jesus pressed me to His Heart and said, My beloved daughter, you have come to know well the depths of My mercy. I will do what you ask, but unite yourself continually with My agonizing Heart and make reparation to My justice. Know that you have asked Me for a great thing, but I see that this was dictated by your pure love for Me; that is why I am complying with your requests.
875 Today, I
experienced a great suffering during the visit of our sisters. I learned of
something that hurt me terribly, but I controlled myself so that the sisters
didn't notice anything. For some time, the pain was tearing my heart apart,
but all that is for the sake of poor sinners.... O Jesus, for poor
sinners.... Jesus, my strength, stay close to me, help me....
893 January 22,
[1937]. Today is Friday. My soul is in a sea of suffering. Sinners have taken
everything away from me. But that is all right; I have given everything away
for their sake that they might know that You are good and infinitely
merciful. I shall be faithful to You, come rain or shine.
908 + O Jesus, how
sorry I feel for poor sinners. Jesus, grant them contrition and repentance.
Remember Your own sorrowful Passion. I know Your infinite mercy and cannot
bear it that a soul that has cost You so much should perish. Jesus, give me
the souls of sinners; let Your mercy rest upon them. Take everything away
from me, but give me souls. I want to become a sacrificial host for sinners.
Let the shell of my body conceal my offering, for Your Most Sacred Heart is
also hidden in a Host, and certainly You are a living sacrifice.
Transform me into Yourself, O Jesus, that I may be a living sacrifice and pleasing to You. I desire to atone at each moment for poor sinners. The sacrifice of my spirit is hidden under the veil of the body; the human eye does not perceive it, and for that reason it is pure and pleasing to You. O my Creator and Father of great mercy, I trust in You, for You are Goodness Itself. Souls, do not be afraid of God, but trust in Him, for He is good, and His mercy is everlasting.
927 On these two
days, I received Holy Communion as an act of reparation, and I said to the
Lord, "Jesus, I offer everything today for sinners. Let the blows of
Your justice fall on me, and the sea of Your mercy engulf the poor
sinners." And the Lord heard my prayer: many souls returned to the Lord,
but I was in agony under the yoke of God's justice. I felt I was the object
of the anger of the Most High God. By evening my sufferings had reached such
a stage of interior desolation that moans welled up involuntarily from my
breast. I locked the door of my room and began an adoration; that is to say,
a Holy Hour. Interior desolation and an experience of God's justice-that was
my prayer; and the moans and pain that welled up from my soul took the place
of a sweet conversation with the Lord.
929 When I had
rested near His sweetest Heart, I told Him, "Jesus, I have so much to
tell You." And the Lord said to me with great love, Speak, My daughter.
And I started to enumerate the pains of my heart; that is, how greatly
concerned I am for all mankind, that "they all do not know You, and
those who do know You do not love You as You deserve to be loved. I also see
how terribly sinners offend You; and then again, I see how severely the
faithful, especially Your servants, are oppressed and persecuted. And then,
too, I see many souls rushing headlong into the terrible abyss of hell. You
see, Jesus, this is the pain that gnaws at my heart and bones. And, although
You show me special love and inundate my heart with streams of Your joys,
nevertheless, this does not appease the sufferings I have just mentioned, but
rather they penetrate my poor heart all the more acutely. Oh, how ardently I
desire that all mankind turn with trust to Your mercy. Then, seeing the glory
of Your name, my heart will be comforted."
Jesus listened to these outpourings of my heart with gravity and interest, as if He had known nothing about them, and this seemed to make it easier for me to talk. And the Lord said to me, My daughter, those words of your heart are pleasing to Me, and by saying the chaplet you are bringing humankind closer to Me. After these words, I found myself alone, but the presence of God is always in my soul.
934 Small practices
for Lent. Although I wish and desire to do so, I cannot practice big
mortifications as before, because I am under the strict surveillance of the
doctor. But I can practice little things: first-sleep without a pillow; keep
myself a little hungry; every day, with my arms outstretched, say the chaplet
which the Lord taught me; occasionally, with arms outstretched, for an
indefinite period of time pray informally. Intention: to beg divine mercy for
poor sinners, and for priests, the power to bring sinful hearts to
repentance.
942 February 11,
[1937]. Today is Friday. During Mass, I suffered pain in my body: in my
hands, my feet and my side. Jesus is sending me this kind of suffering that I
may make reparation for sinners. The pain is brief, but very severe. I do not
suffer for more than a couple of minutes, but the impression remains for a
long time and is very vivid.
943 + Today, I feel
such desolation in my soul that I do not know how to explain it even to
myself. I would like to hide from people and cry endlessly. No one
understands a heart wounded by love, and when such a heart feels itself
abandoned interiorly, no one can comfort it. O souls of sinners, you have
taken the Lord away from me, but all right, all right; you get to know how
sweet the Lord is, and let the whole sea of bitterness flood my heart. I have
given all my divine comforts to you.
975 Today I heard
these words: Pray for
souls that they be not afraid to approach the tribunal of My mercy. Do not
grow weary of praying for sinners. You know what a burden their souls are to
My Heart. Relieve My deathly sorrow; dispense My mercy.
999 Last night I
was in such pain that I thought it was the end. The doctors could not
diagnose what the sickness was. I felt as if my entrails had been torn to
shreds, but after a few hours of such sufferings I am all right. All this is
for sinners. Let Your mercy descend upon them, O Lord.
1059 Jesus is
commanding me to make a novena before the Feast of Mercy, and today I am to
begin it for the conversion of the whole world and for the recognition of The
Divine Mercy... so
that every soul will praise My goodness. I desire trust from My creatures.
Encourage souls to place great trust in My fathomless mercy. Let the weak,
sinful soul have no fear to approach Me, for even if it had more sins than
there are grains of sand in the world, all would be drowned in the unmeasurable
depths of My mercy.
1062 + I made an
hour of adoration in thanksgiving for the graces which had been granted me
and for my illness. Illness also is a great grace. I have been ill for four
months, but I do not recall having wasted so much as a minute of it. All has
been for God and souls; I want to be faithful to Him everywhere.
During this adoration, I realized the utter care and goodness that Jesus has been lavishing upon me and the protection He has given me against all evil. I thank You especially, Jesus, for visiting me in my solitude, and I thank You also for inspiring my superiors to send me for this treatment. Give them, Jesus, the omnipotence of Your blessing and compensate them for all the losses incurred because of me.
1063 Today, Jesus
is bidding me to comfort and reassure a certain soul who has opened herself
to me and told me about her difficulties. This soul is pleasing to the Lord,
but she is not aware of it. God is keeping her in deep humility. I have carried
out the Lord's directives.
1064 + O my most
sweet Master, good Jesus, I give You my heart. You shape and mold it after
Your liking. O fathomless love, I open the calyx of my heart to You, like a
rosebud to the freshness of dew. To You alone, my Betrothed, is known the
fragrance of the flower of my heart. Let the fragrance of my sacrifice be
pleasing to You. O Immortal God, my everlasting delight, already here on
earth You are my heaven. May every beat of my heart be a new hymn of praise
to You, O Holy Trinity! Had I as many hearts as there are drops of water in
the ocean or grains of sand in the whole world, I would offer them all to
You, O my Love, O Treasure of my heart! Whomever I shall meet in my life, no
matter who they may be, I want to draw them all to love You, O my Jesus, my
Beauty, my Repose, my sole Master, Judge, Savior and Spouse, all in one; I
know that one title will modify the other-I have entrusted everything to Your
mercy.
1065 + My Jesus,
support me when difficult and stormy days come, days of testing, days of
ordeal, when suffering and fatigue begin to oppress my body and my soul.
Sustain me, Jesus, and give me strength to bear suffering. Set a guard upon
my lips that they may address no word of complaint to creatures. Your most
merciful Heart is all my hope. I have nothing for my defense but only Your
mercy; in it lies all my trust.
1122 God of great
mercy, who deigned to send us Your only begotten Son as the greatest proof of
Your fathomless love and mercy, You do not reject sinners; but in Your
boundless mercy You have opened for them also Your treasures, treasures from
which they can draw abundantly, not only justification, but also all the
sanctity that a soul can attain. Father of great mercy, I desire that all
hearts turn with confidence to Your infinite mercy. No one will be justified
before You if he is not accompanied by Your unfathomable mercy. When You
reveal the mystery of Your mercy to us, there will not be enough of eternity
to properly thank You for it.
1123 Oh, how sweet it is to have in the depth of one's soul that which the Church tells us we must believe. When my soul is immersed in love, I solve the most intricate questions clearly and quickly. Only love is able to cross over precipices and mountain peaks. Love, once again, love.
1315 + In times of
interior desolation I do not lose my peace, because I know that God never
abandons a soul, except perhaps only when the soul itself breaks the bond of
love by its unfaithfulness. However, all creatures without exception depend
on the Lord and are maintained by His omnipotence. Some are under the rule of
love, others under the rule of justice. It depends on us under which rule we
want to live, because no one is refused the aid of sufficient grace. I am not
frightened at all by my apparent abandonment. I examine myself more
profoundly to discover whether this is due to my fault. If this is not the
case then may [the Lord] be blessed!
1316 October 1,
1937. Daughter, I need sacrifice lovingly accomplished, because that alone
has meaning for Me. Enormous indeed are the debts of the world which are due
to Me; pure souls can pay them by their sacrifice, exercising mercy in
spirit.
1317 I understand
Your words, Lord, and the magnitude of the mercy that ought to shine in my
soul. Jesus: I know, My daughter, that you understand it and that you do
everything within your power. But write this for the many souls who are
often worried because they do not have the material means with which
to carry out an act of mercy. Yet spiritual mercy, which requires
neither permissions nor storehouses, is much more meritorious and is
within the grasp of every soul. If a soul does not exercise mercy
somehow or other, it will not obtain My mercy on the day of judgment.
Oh, if only souls knew how to gather eternal treasure for themselves,
they would not be judged, for they would forestall My judgment with their
mercy.
1318 October 10,
[1937]. O my Jesus, in thanksgiving for Your many graces, I offer You my body
and soul, intellect and will, and all the sentiments of my heart. Through the
vows, I have given myself entirely to You; I have then nothing more that I
can offer You. Jesus said to me, My daughter, you have not offered Me that
which is really yours. I probed deeply into myself and found that I love
God with all the faculties of my soul and, unable to see what it was that I
had not yet given to the Lord, I asked, "Jesus, tell me what it is, and I
will give it to You at once with a generous heart." Jesus said to me
with kindness, Daughter, give Me your misery, because it is your exclusive
property. At that moment, a ray of light illumined my soul, and I saw the
whole abyss of my misery. In that same moment I nestled close to the Most
Sacred Heart of Jesus with so much trust that even if I had the sins of all
the damned weighing on my conscience, I would not have doubted God's mercy
but, with a heart crushed to dust, I would have thrown myself into the abyss
of Your mercy. I believe, O Jesus, that You would not reject me, but would
absolve me through the hand of Your representative.
1319 You expired,
Jesus, but the source of life gushed forth for souls, and the ocean of mercy
opened up for the whole world. O Fount of Life, unfathomable Divine Mercy,
envelop the whole world and empty Yourself out upon us.
1320 At three
o'clock, implore My mercy, especially for sinners; and, if only for a brief
moment, immerse yourself in My Passion, particularly in My abandonment at the
moment of agony. This is the hour of great mercy for the whole world. I will
allow you to enter into My mortal sorrow. In this hour, I will refuse nothing
to the soul that makes a request of Me in virtue of My Passion....
1321 Hail, most
merciful Heart of Jesus,
Living Fountain of
all graces,
Our sole shelter,
our only refuge;
In You I have the
light of hope.
Hail, most
compassionate Heart of my God,
Unfathomable living
Fount of Love
From which gushes
life for sinful man
And the Spring of
all sweetness.
Hail, open Wound of
the Most Sacred Heart,
From which the rays
of mercy issued forth
And from which it
was given us to draw life
With the vessel of
trust alone.
Hail, God's
goodness, incomprehensible,
Never to be
measured or fathomed,
Full of love and
mercy, though always holy,
Yet, like a good
mother, ever bent o'er us.
Hail, Throne of
Mercy, Lamb of God,
Who gave Your life
in sacrifice for me,
Before whom my soul
humbles itself daily,
Living in faith
profound.
[End of Notebook
Four]
1322 +J.M.J.
The barque of my
life sails along
Amid darkness and
shadows of night,
And I see no shore;
I am sailing the
high seas.
The slightest storm
would drown me,
Engulfing my boat
in the swirling depths,
If You yourself did
not watch over me, O God,
At each instant and
moment of my life.
Amid the roaring
waves
I sail peacefully,
trustingly,
And gaze like a
child into the distance without fear,
Because You, O
Jesus, are my Light.
Dread and terror is
all about me,
But within my soul
is peace more profound than the depths of the sea,
For he who is with
You, O Lord, will not perish;
Of this Your love
assures me, O God.
Though a host of
dangers surround me,
None of them do I
fear, for I fix my gaze on the starry sky,
And I sail along
bravely and merrily,
As becomes a pure
heart.
And if the ship of
my life sails so peacefully,
This is due to but
one thing above all:
You are my
helmsman, O God.
This I confess with
utmost humility.
+ J.M.J.
1323 O my God, I
love You.
Sister Faustina of
the Blessed Sacrament.
Cracow, October 20,
1937.
1324 + I bow down
before You, O Bread of Angels,
With deep faith,
hope and love
And from the depths
of my soul I worship You,
Though I am but
nothingness.
I bow down before
You, O hidden God
And love You with
all my heart.
The veils of
mystery hinder me not at all;
I love You as do
Your chosen ones in heaven.
I bow down before
You, O Lamb of God
Who take away the
sins of my soul,
Whom I receive into
my heart each morn,
You who are my
saving help.
+ J. M. J.
Cracow, October 20,
1937.
Fifth Notebook
1325 O my God, let
everything that is in me praise You, my Lord and Creator; and with every beat
of my heart I want to praise Your unfathomable mercy. I want to tell souls of
Your goodness and encourage them to trust in Your mercy. That is my mission,
which You yourself have entrusted to me, O Lord, in this life and in the life
to come.
1336 + In this
profound silence, I am better able to judge the condition of my soul. My soul
is like clear water in which I can see everything: both my misery and the
vastness of God's graces. And owing to this true knowledge of itself, my
spirit is strengthened in deep humility. I expose my heart to the action of
Your grace like a crystal exposed to the rays of the sun. May Your image be
reflected in it, O my God, to the extent that it is possible to be reflected
in the heart of a creature. Let Your divinity radiate through me, O You who
dwell in my soul.
1337 As I was
praying before the Blessed Sacrament and greeting the five wounds of Jesus,
at each salutation I felt a torrent of graces gushing into my soul, giving me
a foretaste of heaven and absolute confidence in God's mercy.
1338 As I write
these words, I hear the cry of Satan: "She's 'writing everything, she's
writing everything, and because of this we are losing so much! Do not write
about the goodness of God; He is just!" And howling with fury, he
vanished.
1341 When one's
health is poor, there is much one has to bear. For when one is ill, but not
in bed, one is not considered to be ill. For many reasons, therefore, there
are constant occasions for sacrifices, and sometimes big ones. I understand
now that only in eternity will many things be revealed. But I also understand
that if God demands a sacrifice, He does not withhold His grace, but gives it
to the soul in abundance.
1342 My Jesus, let
my sacrifice burn before Your throne in all silence, but with the full force
of love, as I beg You to have mercy on souls.
1343 Third day. In
the meditation on death, I prepared myself as if for real death. I examined
my conscience and searched all my affairs at the approach of death and,
thanks be to grace, my affairs were directed toward that ultimate goal. This
filled my heart with great gratitude to God, and I resolved to serve my God
even more faithfully in the future. One thing alone is necessary: to put my
old self to death and to begin a new life. In the morning, I prepared to
receive Holy Communion as if it were to be the last in my life, and after
Holy Communion I brought before my imagination my actual death, and I said
the prayers for the dying and then the De Profundis for my own soul. My body
was lowered into the grave, and I said to my soul, "See what has become
of your body, a heap of dirt teeming with vermin-that is your
inheritance."
1344 O merciful
God, who still allow me to live, give me strength that I may live a new life,
the life of the spirit, over which death has no dominion. And with that, my
heart was renewed, and I began a new life while still here on earth, a life
of love of God. Nevertheless, I do not forget that I am weakness itself,
though I do not doubt even for a moment that I will obtain the help of Your
grace, O God.
1349 Jesus
comforted me, saying that both our souls had benefited from this. But I
begged the Lord to deign to spare me from being the occasion of anyone's
suffering, as my heart could not bear this.
1350 O white Host,
You preserve my soul in whiteness; I fear the day when I might forsake You. You
are the Bread of Angels, and thus also the Bread of Virgins.
1351 Jesus, my most
perfect model, with my eyes fixed on You, I will go through life in Your footsteps,
adapting nature to grace, according to Your most holy will and Your light
which illumines my soul, trusting completely in Your help.
+J.M.J.
1357 Once, when I
was passing by a group of people, I asked the Lord if they were all in the state of grace,
because I did not feel His sufferings. Because you do not feel My
sufferings, it does
not follow that they must all be in the state of grace. At times, I
allow you to be
aware of the condition of certain souls, and I give you the grace of
suffering solely
because I use you as the instrument of their conversion.
1358 Where there is
genuine virtue, there must be sacrifice as well; one's whole life must be a sacrifice.
It is only by means of sacrifice that souls can become useful. It is my
self-sacrifice which, in my relationship with my neighbor, can give glory to
God, but God's love must flow through this sacrifice, because everything is
concentrated in this love and takes its value from it.
1359 Bear in
mind that when you come out of this retreat, I shall be dealing with you as with
a perfect soul. I want to hold you in My hand as a pliant tool, perfectly
adapted to the
completion of My works.
1360 O Lord, You
who penetrate my whole being and the most secret depths of my soul, You see that
I desire You alone and long only for the fulfillment of Your holy will,
paying no heed to difficulties or sufferings or humiliations or to what
others might think.
1361 This firm
resolution to become a saint is extremely pleasing to Me. I bless your efforts
and will give you opportunities to sanctify yourself. Be watchful that you lose
no opportunity that My providence offers you for sanctification. If you do
not succeed in taking advantage of an opportunity, do not lose your peace,
but humble yourself profoundly before Me and, with great trust, immerse
yourself completely in My mercy. In this way, you gain more than you have
lost, because more favor is granted to a humble soul than the soul itself
asks for...
1364 Now I can be
wholly useful to the Church by my personal sanctity, which throbs with life
in the whole Church, for we all make up one organism in Jesus. That is why I
endeavor to make the soil of my heart bear good fruit. Although the human eye
may perhaps never see it, there will nevertheless come a day when it will
become apparent that many souls have been fed and will continue to be fed
with this fruit.
1365 O Eternal
Love, who enkindle a new life within me, a life of love and of mercy, support
me with Your grace, so that I may worthily answer Your call, so that what You
yourself have intended to accomplish in souls through me, might indeed be
accomplished. My God, I see the radiance of eternal dawn. My whole soul
bounds toward You, O Lord; nothing any longer holds me back, nothing ties me
to earth. Help me, O Lord, to bear the rest of my days with patience. The
sacrifice of my love burns incessantly before Your Majesty, but so silently
that only Your divine eye sees it, O God, and no other creature is capable of
perceiving it.
1366 O my Lord,
although so many things occupy me, although I have this work at heart,
although I desire the triumph of the Church and the salvation of souls,
although all the persecutions of Your faithful ones affect me, although the
fall of each soul is painful to me, yet, above and beyond all this, I still
have a profound peace in my soul which neither triumphs nor desires nor
adversities can disturb because, for me, You are above all dispensations, my
Lord and my God.
1375 November 1,
1937.
After Vespers
today, there was a procession to the cemetery. I could not go, because I was
on duty at the gate. But that did not stop me at all from praying for the
souls. As the procession was returning from the cemetery to the chapel, my
soul felt the presence of many souls. I understood the great justice of God,
how each one had to pay off the debt to the last cent.
1379 November 10,
[1937]. When Mother [Irene] showed me the booklet with the chaplet, the
litany and the novena, I asked her to let me look it over. As I was glancing
through it, Jesus gave me to know interiorly: Already there are many souls
who have been drawn to My love by this image. My mercy acts in souls
through this work. I learned that many souls had experienced God's grace.
1396 Today I heard
a voice in my soul: Oh,
if sinners knew My mercy, they would not perish in such great numbers. Tell
sinful souls not to be afraid to approach Me; speak to them of My great
mercy.
1397 The Lord said
to me, The loss of
each soul plunges Me into mortal sadness. You always console Me when you pray
for sinners. The prayer most pleasing to Me is prayer for the conversion of
sinners. Know, My daughter, that this prayer is always heard and answered.
1446 The Lord said
to me, It should be of
no concern to you how anyone else acts; you are to be My living reflection,
through love and mercy. I answered, "Lord, but they
often take advantage of my goodness." That makes no difference, My daughter. That is no
concern of yours. As for you, be always merciful toward other people, and
especially toward sinners.
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-186-187, 206, 250, 308-309, 319, 320)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-324, 349, 350, 355-356, 361, 367, 384)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-420, 423)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-687, 699, 730, 741, 793, 845, 873,
875)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-893, 908, 927, 929, 934, 943-943, 951)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-975, 999)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-III-1059, 1062-1065, 1122-1123)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-IV-1315-1321)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-V-1322-1325, 1336-1338, 1341-1344)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-V-1349-1351, 1357-1361, 1364-1366)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-V-1375, 1379, 1395-1397, 1446)
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