Human Harshness vs. the Charity of a Saint
August 13, 2015. Thursday
of the Nineteenth Week in Ordinary Time
Father Steven Reilly, LC
Matthew
18:21 - 19:1
Peter approached Jesus and asked him,
"Lord, if my brother sins against me, how often must I forgive him? As many
as seven times?" Jesus answered, "I say to you, not seven times but
seventy-seven times. That is why the Kingdom of heaven may be likened to a king
who decided to settle accounts with his servants. When he began the accounting,
a debtor was brought before him who owed him a huge amount. Since he had no way
of paying it back, his master ordered him to be sold, along with his wife, his
children, and all his property, in payment of the debt. At that, the servant
fell down, did him homage, and said, ´Be patient with me, and I will pay you
back in full.´ Moved with compassion the master of that servant let him go and
forgave him the loan. When that servant had left, he found one of his fellow
servants who owed him a much smaller amount. He seized him and started to choke
him, demanding, ´Pay back what you owe.´ Falling to his knees, his fellow
servant begged him, ´Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.´ But he
refused. Instead, he had him put in prison until he paid back the debt. Now
when his fellow servants saw what had happened, they were deeply disturbed, and
went to their master and reported the whole affair. His master summoned him and
said to him, ´You wicked servant! I forgave you your entire debt because you
begged me to. Should you not have had pity on your fellow servant, as I had
pity on you?´ Then in anger his master handed him over to the torturers until
he should pay back the whole debt. So will my heavenly Father do to you, unless
each of you forgives his brother from his heart." When Jesus finished
these words, he left Galilee and went to the district of Judea across the
Jordan.
Introductory Prayer: Lord God, I believe You are present here with
me as I begin this moment of prayer. I hope in You. I know that You will always
take care of me. I want this time with You to be a sign of my love for You. I
seek only to please You, without desiring any spiritual consolation for myself.
Petition: Lord, grant me a more forgiving heart!
1. Human Harshness: “He seized him and started to choke him,
demanding, ‘Pay back what you owe.’” The Gospel gives a startling example of
human harshness. History recalls another one. In Auschwitz, the camp deputy
commander, Karl Fritzch, decided that the most effective way to keep prisoners
from trying to escape would be an overwhelming example of reprisal. Ten men in
Block 13 were picked out for starvation. The thought of innocent men dying
because of another’s escape would definitely make anyone think twice about it.
The master of our Lord’s story is angry at the harshness of his servant. We can
only imagine the Lord’s anger at the harshness of a place like Auschwitz,
called by Pope Benedict, “a place of horror” and “unprecedented mass crimes”
(May 28, 2006). Let us purge our own hearts of the evil of harshness, which
brings down such misery on our own soul.
2. St. Maximilian Steps Forward: The Lord’s answer to Peter in this Gospel,
“not seven times but seventy-seven times,” points to a heroic living of the
virtue of charity and forgiveness. St. Maximilian Kolbe, whose feast we
celebrated this week, gives us an example of that kind of love. When the
commander had picked out his ten victims, St. Maximilian had been passed over.
No doubt the others who were spared were breathing intense sighs of relief.
Instead, St. Maximilian stepped forward and offered to take the place of one of
those chosen, Franciszek Gajowniczek, who cried out in anguish over his family.
We can only shake our heads in amazement that the flame of love could burn so
brightly in that “place of horror.”
3. The Cross Sets the Standard: The examples of the saints challenge us. They
don’t give us a “superhuman” example, but rather the testimony of what men and
women are capable of doing when they allow the grace of God to work in their
souls. We, too, have many occasions when we are called to live a higher degree
of virtue, but so often we cut ourselves a little too much slack. When Peter
asked about a seven-fold forgiveness, he was being quite generous. But the
“seventy-seven times” that Jesus speaks about is measured against the Cross,
the symbol of the Lord’s infinite love and forgiveness. Saints like Kolbe
understood this. Let’s try to imitate it today, in ways both big and small.
Conversation with Christ: Lord Jesus, I can only be amazed at Your work
through the soul of St. Maximilian Kolbe. You enabled him to lay down his life
for another, in imitation of Your own self-sacrificing love. Help me to embrace
the same path of love and forgiveness.
Resolution: I will immediately forgive any wrongs I suffer today, and I will
try to sacrifice myself in a hidden way for someone else.
Excerpts from the DIARY of Saint
Faustina Kowalska
163 JMJ The Year 1937 General
Exercises
+O Most Holy Trinity! As many times
as I breathe, as many times as my heart beats, as many times as my blood
pulsates through my body, so many thousand times do I want to glorify Your
mercy.
+I want to be completely transformed
into Your mercy and to be Your living reflection, 0 Lord. May the greatest of
all divine attributes, that of Your unfathomable mercy, pass through my heart
and soul to my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my eyes may be
merciful, so that I may never suspect or judge from appearances, but look for
what is beautiful in my neighbors' souls and come to their rescue.
Help me, that my ears may be
merciful, so that I may give heed to my neighbors' needs and not be indifferent
to their pains and moanings. Help me, O Lord, that my tongue may be merciful,
so that I should never speak negatively of my neighbor, but have a word of
comfort and forgiveness for all.
Help me, O Lord, that my hands may
be merciful and filled with good deeds, so that I may do only good to my
neighbors and take upon myself the more difficult and toilsome tasks.
Help me, that my feet may be
merciful, so that I may hurry to assist my neighbor, overcoming my own fatigue
and weariness. My true rest is in the service of my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my heart may
be merciful so that I myself may feel all the sufferings of my neighbor. I will
refuse my heart to no one. I will be sincere even with those who, I know, will
abuse my kindness. And I will lock myself up in the most merciful Heart of
Jesus. I will bear my own suffering in silence. May Your mercy, O Lord, rest
upon me.
+You yourself command me to exercise
the three degrees of mercy. The first: the act of mercy, of whatever kind. The
second: the word of mercy-if I cannot carry out a work of mercy, I will assist
by my words. The third: prayer-if I cannot show mercy by deeds or words, I can
always do so by prayer. My prayer reaches out even there where I cannot reach
out physically.
O my Jesus, transform me into
Yourself, for you can do all things.
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216 We have come to Cracow today
[April 18, 1933]. What a joy it is to find myself again where I took my first
steps in the spiritual life! Dear Mother Directress [Mary Joseph] is ever the
same, cheerful and full of love of neighbor. I entered the chapel for a moment
and joy filled my soul. In a flash I recalled the whole ocean of graces that
had been given me as a novice here.
241 Love of neighbor. First:
Helpfulness towards the sisters. Second: Do not speak about those who are
absent, and defend the good name of my neighbor. Third: Rejoice in the success
of others.
243 I will thank the Lord Jesus for
every humiliation and will pray specially for the person who has given me the
chance to be humiliated. I will immolate myself for the benefit of souls. I will
not count the cost of any sacrifice. I will cast myself beneath the feet of the
sisters, like a carpet on which they can not only tread, but also wipe their
feet. My place is under the feet of the sisters. I will make every effort to
obtain that place unnoticed by others. It is enough that God sees this.
362 +One day, during the morning
meditation, I heard this voice: I myself am your director; I was, I am, and I will be. And since you asked for visible help, I
chose and gave you a director even before you had asked, for My work required
this. Know that the faults you commit against him wound My Heart. Be especially
on your guard against self-willfulness; even the smallest thing should bear the
seal of obedience.
With a crushed and humbled heart I
begged forgiveness of Jesus for these faults. I also begged pardon of my
spiritual director and resolved to do nothing rather than to do many things
wrongly.
390 He who knows how to forgive
prepares for himself many graces from God. As often as I look upon the cross,
so often will I forgive with all my heart.
588 On one occasion, I heard these
words within me: Every movement of your heart is known to me. Know, My
daughter, that one glance of yours directed at someone else would wound Me more
than many sins committed by another person.
590 When I receive Holy Communion, I
entreat and beg the Savior to heal my tongue, that I may never fail in love of
neighbor.
612 One time, I was in doubt as to
whether what had happened to me had seriously offended the Lord Jesus or not.
As I could not solve this doubt, I made up my mind not to go to Communion
before first going to confession, although I immediately made an act of
contrition, as it is my habit to ask for forgiveness after the slightest
transgression. During those days when I did not receive Holy Communion, I did
not feel the presence of God. This caused me unspeakable pain, but I took it as
a punishment for sin. However, at the time of Holy Confession I was reproached
for not going to Holy Communion, because what had happened to me was not an
obstacle to receiving Holy Communion. After confession, I received Holy
Communion, and I saw the Lord Jesus who said to me, Know, My daughter, that you caused Me more sorrow by not uniting yourself
with Me in Holy Communion than you did by that small transgression.
692 + O Jesus, I understand that
Your mercy is beyond all imagining, and therefore I ask You to make my heart so
big that there will be room in it for the needs of all the souls living on the
face of the earth. O Jesus, my love extends beyond the world, to the souls
suffering in purgatory, and I want to exercise mercy toward them by means of
indulgenced prayers. God's mercy is unfathomable and inexhaustible, just as God
himself is unfathomable. Even if I were to use the strongest words there are to
express this mercy of God, all this would be nothing in comparison with what it
is in reality. O Jesus, make my heart sensitive to all the sufferings of my
neighbor, whether of body or of soul. O my Jesus, I know that You act toward us
as we act toward our neighbor.
My Jesus, make my heart like unto Your merciful Heart. Jesus, help me to go through life doing good to everyone.
My Jesus, make my heart like unto Your merciful Heart. Jesus, help me to go through life doing good to everyone.
699 On one occasion, I heard these words: My daughter, tell the whole world about My
inconceivable mercy. I desire that the Feast of Mercy [139] be a refuge and
shelter for all souls, and especially for poor sinners. On that day the very
depths of My tender mercy are open. I pour out a whole ocean of graces upon
those souls who approach the fount of My mercy. The soul that will go to
Confession and receive Holy Communion shall obtain complete forgiveness of sins
and punishment. On that day all the divine floodgates through which grace flow
are opened. Let no soul fear to draw near to Me, even though its sins be as
scarlet. My mercy is so great that no mind, be it of man or of angel, will be
able to fathom it throughout all eternity. Everything that exists has come
forth from the very depths of My most tender mercy. Every soul in its relation
to Me will contemplate My love and mercy throughout eternity. The Feast of
Mercy emerged from My very depths of tenderness. It is My desire that it be
solemnly celebrated on the first Sunday after Easter. Mankind will not have
peace until it turns to the Fount of My Mercy.
700 + Once, when I was very tired
and in much pain, I told Mother Superior [Irene] about it and received the
answer that I should get used to suffering. I listened to everything that Mother
told me, and then I went out. Our Mother Superior has great love of neighbor
and especially great love for the sick sisters, as everyone knows. And yet, as
regards me, it is extraordinary that the Lord Jesus has permitted that she not
understand me and that she test me much in this respect.
704 I spend every free moment at the
feet of the hidden God. He is my Master; I ask Him about everything; I speak to
Him about everything. Here I obtain strength and light; here I learn
everything; here I am given light on how to act toward my neighbor. From the
time I left the novitiate, I have enclosed myself in the tabernacle together
with Jesus, my Master. He himself drew me into the fire of living love on which
everything converges.
742 My daughter, if I demand
through you that people revere My mercy, you should be the first to distinguish
yourself by this confidence in My mercy. I demand from you deeds of mercy,
which are to arise out of love for Me. You are to show mercy to your neighbors
always and everywhere. You must not shrink from this or try to excuse or
absolve yourself from it.
I am giving you three ways of exercising mercy toward your neighbor: the first-by deed, the second-by word, the third-by prayer. In these three degrees is contained the fullness of mercy, and it is an unquestionable proof of love for Me. By this means a soul glorifies and pays reverence to My mercy. Yes, the first Sunday after Easter is the Feast of Mercy, but there must also be acts of mercy, and I demand the worship of My mercy through the solemn celebration of the Feast and through the veneration of the image which is painted. By means of this image I shall grant many graces to souls. It is to be a reminder of the demands of My mercy, because even the strongest faith is of no avail without works. O my Jesus, You yourself must help me in everything, because You see how very little I am, and so I depend solely on Your goodness, O God.
I am giving you three ways of exercising mercy toward your neighbor: the first-by deed, the second-by word, the third-by prayer. In these three degrees is contained the fullness of mercy, and it is an unquestionable proof of love for Me. By this means a soul glorifies and pays reverence to My mercy. Yes, the first Sunday after Easter is the Feast of Mercy, but there must also be acts of mercy, and I demand the worship of My mercy through the solemn celebration of the Feast and through the veneration of the image which is painted. By means of this image I shall grant many graces to souls. It is to be a reminder of the demands of My mercy, because even the strongest faith is of no avail without works. O my Jesus, You yourself must help me in everything, because You see how very little I am, and so I depend solely on Your goodness, O God.
901 + There is a certain person
[Stanislava Kwietniewska [163]] who tests my patience. I must devote much time
to her. When I talk with her, I feel that she is lying, and this, continually.
And because she tells me about things far away which I cannot verify, she is
able to get away with the lie. But I am inwardly convinced that there is no truth
in what she says. When it occurred to me once that I might be mistaken and that
she might be telling the truth, I asked the Lord Jesus to give me the following
sign: if she is really lying, let her admit to me herself that she has lied
about any one of the things ; concerning which I am inwardly convinced that she
is lying. And if she is telling the truth, let the Lord Jesus take this
conviction away from me. A little later, she came to me again and said,
"Sister, I beg your forgiveness, but I have lied about such and such a
thing," and I understood that the inner light concerning that person had
not misled me.
1148 June 20, [1937]. We resemble
God most when we forgive our neighbors. God is Love, Goodness, and Mercy...
Every
soul, and especially the soul of every religious, should reflect My mercy. My
Heart overflows with compassion and mercy for all. The heart of My beloved must
resemble Mine; from her heart must spring the fountain of My mercy for souls;
otherwise I will not acknowledge her as Mine.
1293 It so happened that I fell
again into a certain error, in spite of a sincere resolution not to do so-even
though the lapse was a minor imperfection and rather involuntary-and at this I
felt such acute pain in my soul that I interrupted my work and went to the
chapel for a while. Falling at the feet of Jesus, with love and a great deal of
pain, I apologized to the Lord, all the more ashamed because of the fact that
in my conversation with Him after Holy Communion this very morning I had
promised to be faithful to Him. Then I heard these words: If it hadn't been for this small imperfection, you wouldn't have come
to Me. Know that as often as you come to Me, humbling yourself and asking My
forgiveness, I pour out a superabundance of graces on your soul, and your
imperfection vanishes before My eyes, and I see only your love and your
humility. You lose nothing but gain much...
1332 Second day. As I was meditating
on the sin of the Angels and their immediate punishment, I asked Jesus why the
Angels had been punished as soon as they had sinned. I heard a voice: Because of their profound knowledge of
God. No person on earth, even though a great saint, has such knowledge of God
as an Angel has. Nevertheless, to me who am so miserable, You have shown
Your mercy, O God, and this, time and time again. You carry me in the bosom of
Your mercy and forgive me every time that I ask Your forgiveness with a
contrite heart.
1460 + My daughter, I have something to tell you. I replied,
"Speak, Jesus, for I thirst for Your words." It displeases Me that, because the sisters were murmuring, you
did not ask to have Father Andrasz hear your confession in your cell. Know
that, because of this, you gave them even greater cause for murmuring. Very
humbly I begged the Lord's forgiveness. O my Master, rebuke me; do not overlook
my faults, and do not let me err.
1485 The mercy of God, hidden in the
Blessed Sacrament, the voice of the Lord who speaks to us from the throne of
mercy: Come to Me, all of you.
Conversation of the Merciful God
with a Sinful Soul.
Jesus: Be not afraid of your Savior, O sinful soul. I make the first move to
come to you, for I know that by yourself you are unable to lift yourself to me.
Child, do not run away from your Father; be willing to talk openly with your
God of mercy who wants to speak words of pardon and lavish his graces on you.
How dear your soul is to Me! I have inscribed your name upon My hand; you are
engraved as a deep wound in My Heart.
Soul: Lord, I hear your voice
calling me to turn back from the path of sin, but I have neither the strength
nor the courage to do so.
Jesus: I am your strength, I will help you in the struggle.
Soul: Lord, I recognize your
holiness, and I fear You.
Jesus: My child, do you fear the God of mercy? My holiness does not prevent
Me from being merciful. Behold, for you I have established a throne of mercy on
earth- the tabernacle-and from this throne I desire to enter into your heart. I
am not surrounded by a retinue or guards. You can come to me at any moment, at
any time; I want to speak to you and desire to grant you grace.
Soul: Lord, I doubt that You will
pardon my numerous sins; my misery fills me with fright.
Jesus: My mercy is greater than your sins and those of the entire world. Who
can measure the extent of my goodness? For you I descended from heaven to
earth; for you I allowed myself to be nailed to the cross; for you I let my
Sacred Heart be pierced with a lance, thus opening wide the source of mercy for
you. Come, then, with trust to draw graces from this fountain. I never reject a
contrite heart. Your misery has disappeared in the depths of My mercy. Do not
argue with Me about your wretchedness. You will give me pleasure if you hand
over to me all your troubles and griefs. I shall heap upon you the treasures of
My grace.
Soul: You have conquered, O Lord, my
stony heart with Your goodness. In trust and humility I approach the tribunal
of Your mercy, where You yourself absolve me by the hand of your
representative. O Lord, I feel Your grace and Your peace filling my poor soul.
I feel overwhelmed by Your mercy, O Lord. You forgive me, which is more than I
dared to hope for or could imagine. Your goodness surpasses all my desires. And
now, filled with gratitude for so many graces, I invite You to my heart. I
wandered, like a prodigal child gone astray; but you did not cease to be my
Father. Increase Your mercy toward me, for You see how weak I am.
Jesus: Child, speak no more of your misery; it is already forgotten. Listen,
My child, to what I desire to tell you. Come close to My wounds and draw from
the Fountain of Life whatever your heart desires. Drink copiously from the
Fountain of Life and you will not weary on your journey. Look at the splendors
of My mercy and do not fear the enemies of your salvation. Glorify My mercy.
1488 Conversation of the Merciful
God with a Soul Striving after Perfection.
Jesus: I am pleased with your efforts, O soul aspiring for perfection, but why
do I see you so often sad and depressed? Tell Me, My child, what is the meaning
of this sadness, and what is its cause?
Soul: Lord, the reason for my
sadness is that, in spite of my sincere resolutions, I fall again into the same
faults. I make resolutions in the morning, but in the evening I see how much I
have departed from them.
Jesus: You see, My child, what you are of yourself. The cause of your falls is
that you rely too much upon yourself and too little on Me. But let this not
sadden you so much. You are dealing with the God of mercy, which your misery
cannot exhaust. Remember, I did not allot only a certain number of pardons.
Soul: Yes, I know all that, but
great temptations assail me, and various doubts awaken within me and, moreover,
everything irritates and discourages me.
Jesus: My child, know that the greatest obstacles to holiness are
discouragement and an exaggerated anxiety. These will deprive you of the
ability to practice virtue. All temptations united together ought not disturb your
interior peace, not even momentarily. Sensitiveness and discouragement are the
fruits of self-love. You should not become discouraged, but strive to make My
love reign in place of your self-love. Have confidence, My child. Do not lose
heart in coming for pardon, for I am always ready to forgive you. As often as
you beg for it, you glorify My mercy.
Soul: I understand what is the
better thing to do, what pleases You more, but I encounter great obstacles in
acting on this understanding.
Jesus: My child, life on earth is a struggle indeed; a great struggle for My
kingdom.
But
fear not, because you are not alone. I am always supporting you, so lean on Me
as you struggle, fearing nothing. Take the vessel of trust and draw from the
fountain of life-for yourself, but also for other souls, especially such as are
distrustful of My goodness.
Soul: O Lord, I feel my heart being
filled with Your love and the rays of Your mercy and love piercing my soul. I
go, Lord, at Your command. I go to conquer souls. Sustained by Your grace, I am
ready to follow You, Lord, not only to Tabor, but also to Calvary. I desire to
lead souls to the fount of Your mercy so that the splendor of Your mercy may be
reflected in all souls, and the home of our Father be filled to overflowing.
And when the enemy begins to attack me, I shall take refuge behind the shield
of Your mercy.
1489 Conversation of the Merciful
God with a Perfect Soul.
Soul: My Lord and Master, I desire
to converse with You.
Jesus: Speak, My beloved child, for I am always listening. I wait for you.
What do you desire to say?
Soul: Lord, first let me pour out my
heart at Your feet in a fragrant anointing of gratitude for the many blessings
which You lavish upon me; even if I wanted to, I could not count them. I only
recall that there has never been a moment in my life in which I have not
experienced Your protection and goodness.
Jesus: Your words please Me, and your thanksgiving opens up new treasures of
graces. But, My child, we should talk in more detail about the things that lie
in your heart. Let us talk confidentially and frankly, as two hearts that love
one another do.
Soul: O my merciful Lord, there are
secrets in my heart which no one knows or will ever know except You because,
even if I wanted to reveal them, no one would understand me. Your minister
knows some because I confess to him, but he knows only the bit of these
mysteries that I am capable of revealing; the rest remains between us for
eternity, O My Lord! You have covered me with the cloak of Your mercy,
pardoning my sins. Not once did You refuse Your pardon; You always had pity on
me, giving me a new life of grace. To prevent doubts, You have entrusted me to
the loving care of Your Church, that tender mother, who in Your name assures me
of the truths of faith and watches lest I wander. Especially in the tribunal of
Your mercy does my soul meet an ocean of favors, though You did not give the
Fallen Angels time to repent or prolong their time of mercy. O my Lord, you
have provided saintly priests to show me the sure way. Jesus, there is one more
secret in my life, the deepest and dearest to my heart: it is You yourself when
You come to my heart under the appearance of bread. Herein lies the whole
secret of my sanctity. Here my heart is so united with Yours as to be but one.
There are no more secrets, because all that is Yours is mine, and all that is
mine is Yours. Such is the omnipotence and the miracle of Your mercy. All the
tongues of men and of angels united could not find words adequate to this
mystery of Your love and mercy.
When I contemplate this mystery, my
heart falls into a new ecstasy. In silence I tell You everything, Lord, because
the language of love is without words; not a single stirring of my heart
escapes You. O Lord, the extent of Your great condescension has awakened in my
soul an even greater love for You, the sole object of my love. The life of
union manifests itself in perfect purity, deep humility, gentle silence, and
great zeal for the salvation of souls.
O my sweetest Lord, You watch over
me each moment and inspire me as to how I should act in a precise situation,
when my heart wavers between two things. You yourself frequently intervened in
the resolution of a difficulty. Countless times, by means of a sudden enlightenment,
You have given me to know what is the more pleasing to You.
Oh, how numerous are the instances
of forgiveness about which no one knows! How often You have poured into my soul
courage and perseverance to go forward. It is You yourself who removed
obstacles from my road, intervening directly in the actions of people. O Jesus,
everything I have said to You is but a pale shadow of what is taking place in
my heart. O my Jesus, how ardently I desire the conversion of sinners! You know
what I am doing for them to win them for You. Every offense against You wounds
me deeply. I spare neither strength, nor health, nor life itself in defense of
Your kingdom. Although my efforts may remain invisible on earth, they are no
less valuable in Your eyes.
O Jesus, I want to bring souls to
the fount of Your mercy to draw the reviving water of life with the vessel of
trust. The soul desirous of more of God's mercy should approach God with
greater trust; and if her trust in God is unlimited, then the mercy of God toward
it will be likewise limitless. O my God, Who know every beat of my heart, You
know how eagerly I desire that all hearts would beat for You alone, that every
soul glorify the greatness of Your mercy.
Jesus: My beloved child, delight of My Heart, your words are dearer and more
pleasing to me than the angelic chorus. All the treasures of My Heart are open
to you. Take from this Heart all that you need for yourself and for the whole
world. For the sake of your love, I withhold the just chastisements, which
mankind has deserved. A single act of pure love pleases Me more than a thousand
imperfect prayers. One of your sighs of love atones for many offenses with
which the godless overwhelm Me. The smallest act of virtue has unlimited value
in My eyes because of your great love for Me. In a soul that lives on My love
alone, I reign as in heaven. I watch over it day and night. In it I find My
happiness; My ear is attentive to each request of its heart; often I anticipate
its requests. O child, especially beloved by Me, apple of My eye, rest a moment
near My Heart and taste of the love in which you will delight for all eternity.
But
child, you are not yet in your homeland; so go, fortified by My grace, and
fight for My kingdom in human souls; fight as a king's child would; and
remember that the days of your exile will pass quickly, and with them the
possibility of earning merit for heaven. I expect from you, My child, a great
number of souls who will glorify My mercy for all eternity. My child, that you
may answer My call worthily, receive Me daily in Holy Communion. It will give
you strength...
Jesus, do not leave me alone in
suffering. You know, Lord, how weak I am. I am an abyss of wretchedness, I am
nothingness itself; so what will be so strange if You leave me alone and I
fall? I am an infant, Lord, so I cannot get along by myself. However, beyond
all abandonment I trust, and in spite of my own feeling I trust, and I am being
completely transformed into trust-often in spite of what I feel. Do not lessen
any of my sufferings, only give me strength to bear them. Do with me as You
please, Lord, only give me the grace to be able to love You in every event and
circumstance. Lord, do not lessen my cup of bitterness, only give me strength
that I may be able to drink it all.
O Lord, sometimes You lift me up to
the brightness of visions, and then again You plunge
me into the darkness of night and
the abyss of my nothingness, and my soul feels as if it were alone in the
wilderness. Yet, above all things, I trust in You, Jesus, for You are
unchangeable. My moods change, but You are always the same, full of mercy.
1656 I do not know how to describe
all that I suffer, and what I have written thus far is merely a drop. There are
moments of suffering about which I really cannot write. But there are also
moments in my life when my lips are silent, and there are no words for my
defense, and I submit myself completely to the will of God; then the Lord
Himself defends me and makes claims on my behalf, and His demands are such that
they can be noticed exteriorly. Nevertheless, when I perceive His major
interventions, which manifest themselves by way of punishment, then I beg Him
earnestly for mercy and forgiveness. Yet I am not always heard. The Lord acts
toward me in a mysterious manner. There are times when He Himself allows
terrible sufferings, and then again there are times when He does not let me
suffer and removes everything that might afflict my soul. These are His ways,
unfathomable and incomprehensible to us. It is for us to submit ourselves
completely to His holy will. There are mysteries that the human mind will never
fathom here on earth; eternity will reveal them.
1692 I adore You, Lord and Creator,
hidden in the Blessed Sacrament. I adore You for all the works of Your hands,
that reveal to me so much wisdom, goodness and mercy, O Lord. You have spread
so much beauty over the earth, and it tells me about Your beauty, even though
these beautiful things are but a faint reflection of You, Incomprehensible
Beauty. And although You have hidden Yourself and concealed Your beauty, my
eye, enlightened by faith, reaches You, and my soul recognizes its Creator, its
Highest Good; and my heart is completely immersed in prayer of adoration.
My Lord and Creator, Your goodness
encourages me to converse with You. Your mercy abolishes the chasm which
separates the Creator from the creature. To converse with You, O Lord, is the
delight of my heart. In You I find everything that my heart could desire. Here
Your light illumines my mind, enabling it to know You more and more deeply.
Here streams of graces flow down upon my heart. Here my soul draws eternal
life. O my Lord and Creator, You alone, beyond all these gifts, give Your own
self to me and unite Yourself intimately with Your miserable creature. Here,
without searching for words, our hearts understand each other. Here, no one is
able to interrupt our conversation. What I talk to You about, Jesus, is our
secret, which creatures shall not know and Angels dare not ask about. These are
secret acts of forgiveness, known only to Jesus and me; this is the mystery of
His mercy, which embraces each soul separately. For this incomprehensible
goodness of Yours, I adore You, O Lord and Creator, with all my heart and all
my soul. And, although my worship is so little and poor, I am at peace because
I know that You know it is sincere, however inadequate...
1698 l often attend upon the dying
and through entreaties obtain for them trust in God's mercy, and I implore God
for an abundance of divine grace, which is always victorious. God's mercy
sometimes touches the sinner at the last moment in a wondrous and mysterious
way. Outwardly, it seems as if everything were lost, but it is not so. The
soul, illumined by a ray of God's powerful final grace, turns to God in the
last moment with such a power of love that, in an instant, it receives from God
forgiveness of sin and punishment, while outwardly it shows no sign either of
repentance or of contrition, because souls [at that stage] no longer react to
external things. Oh, how beyond comprehension is God's mercy! But-horror!-
there are also souls who voluntarily and consciously reject and scorn this
grace! Although a person is at the point of death, the merciful God gives the
soul that interior vivid moment, so that if the soul is willing, it has the
possibility of returning to God. But sometimes, the obduracy in souls is so
great that consciously they choose hell; they [thus] make useless all the
prayers that other souls offer to God for them and even the efforts of God
Himself...
1744 May You be adored, O merciful
God of ours,
O All-powerful Lord and Creator.
In deepest humility, we give You
praise,
Plunging ourselves into the ocean of
Your Godhead.
But man did not persevere in the
hour of trial.
At the instigation of the evil one,
he became unfaithful to You.
He lost Your grace and gifts; only
misery was left him,
And tears, suffering, sorrow and
bitterness, until he would rest in the grave.
But you, O merciful God, did not let
humanity perish,
And gave it the promise of a
Redeemer.
You did not let us despair, despite
our grave offenses,
And You sent Your prophets to
Israel.
Still, day and night, mankind cries
out to You,
From the abyss of misery, sin and all
pain.
Hear the moaning and the tears, You
who reign in heaven,
God of great mercy, God of
compassion.
Man erred, but he cannot ask pardon,
Because a gaping chasm has appeared
between God and man.
With the voice of his misery, he
cries out, "Mercy!"
But Yahweh is silent... and century
after century passes on.
But the longing of all humankind
grows deeper.
A longing for Him who has been
promised.
Come, Lamb of God, take away our
vile sins,
Come, illumine our darkness like a
ray of light.
Humanity calls out to You
unceasingly, O Lord of lords,
Calls out to Your unfathomable
mercy, to Your compassion.
O great Yahweh, grant that we may
make atonement,
Remember Your goodness, and forgive
us our sins.
Third Day.
1768 My daughter, in this meditation, consider the love of neighbor. Is your love for your neighbor guided by My love? Do you pray for your enemies? Do you wish well to those who have, in one way or another, caused you sorrow or offended you?
Know that whatever good you do to any soul, I accept it as if you had done it to Me.
1768 My daughter, in this meditation, consider the love of neighbor. Is your love for your neighbor guided by My love? Do you pray for your enemies? Do you wish well to those who have, in one way or another, caused you sorrow or offended you?
Know that whatever good you do to any soul, I accept it as if you had done it to Me.
1769 Application: O Jesus, my Love,
You know that it has only been for a short while that I have acted toward my
neighbor guided solely by Your love. You alone know of my efforts to do this.
It comes to me more easily now, but if You Yourself did not kindle that love in
my soul, I would not be able to persevere in this. This is due to Your
Eucharistic love which daily sets me afire.
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-I-163, 216, 241, 243, 362, 390)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-588, 590, 612, 692, 699, 700, 704, 742)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-901)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-III-1148)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-IV-1239)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-V-1332, 1460, 1485, 1488-1489)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-IV-1656, 1692, 1698, 1744)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-IV-1768-1769)
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