Christ, the
Demanding Guest
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August 28, 2016. Twenty-Second
Sunday in Ordinary Time
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Luke 14: 1, 7-14
On a sabbath Jesus
went to dine at the home of one of the leading Pharisees, and the people
there were observing him carefully. He told a parable to those who had been
invited, noticing how they were choosing the places of honor at the table.
"When you are invited by someone to a wedding banquet, do not recline at
table in the place of honor. A more distinguished guest than you may have
been invited by him, and the host who invited both of you may approach you
and say, ´Give your place to this man,´ and then you would proceed with
embarrassment to take the lowest place. Rather, when you are invited, go and
take the lowest place so that when the host comes to you he may say, ´My
friend, move up to a higher position.´ Then you will enjoy the esteem of your
companions at the table. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but
the one who humbles himself will be exalted." Then he said to the host
who invited him, "When you hold a lunch or a dinner, do not invite your
friends or your brothers or your relatives or your wealthy neighbors, in case
they may invite you back and you have repayment. Rather, when you hold a
banquet, invite the poor, the crippled, the lame, the blind; blessed indeed
will you be because of their inability to repay you. For you will be repaid
at the resurrection of the righteous."
Introductory Prayer: Lord God, I come from dust and to dust I
shall return. You, however, existed before all time, and every creature takes
its being from You. You formed me in my mother’s womb with infinite care, and
You watch over me tenderly. I hope You will embrace my soul at my death to
carry me home to heaven to be with You forever. Thank You for looking upon me
and blessing me with Your love. Take my love in return. I humbly offer You
all that I am.
Petition: Grant me, Lord, to put my life humbly in
Your hands.
1. Opening the Door
to God: Today’s reading
shows us Jesus dining at the house of a Pharisee. Apparently they had invited
him in order to examine him closely, as they tended to find fault with
everyone who was not of their sect. Jesus turns the tables by calling them to
task for their pride. Inviting Jesus into our lives always means opening
ourselves to a challenge. He will reward our generosity by offering us the
road to greater holiness – which means that he will reveal our weaknesses to
us and challenge us to be better. Christianity isn’t comfortable. We have to
be ready to discover that we are not as holy and good as we thought we were.
Humility is an essential virtue for any true Christian. We need to ask
ourselves if we give God the first place at the table in our lives, and if we
are really listening to his invitation to conquer our defects and grow in
sanctity.
2. The Quickest Way
Up Is to Go Down: Living
humility may be difficult sometimes because of our natural tendency to be
self-centered, “to look out for #1.” Nonetheless, Jesus teaches that living
humility is the gateway to the road that leads to happiness. If we are only
looking out for ourselves, seeking the highest “places of honor,” we are
bound to be disappointed. God does not reward self-love. Moreover, because of
our limitations, we do not know well what is good for us, nor are we able to
achieve it without God’s grace. The rewards we can expect from human beings –
honors, power, pleasure – are limited in time and quantity, and cannot
satisfy our soul, which yearns for God. How often has our pride been the
cause of conflict and unhappiness? God will lift us up to true fulfillment
only if we get down from our own ivory tower of egotism.
3. Save Room for
Dessert… If we are humble and
seek to serve God instead of our own aggrandizement, then we leave the reward
up to God: He will give us the place in his plan that is best for us. God’s
reward is always better than what the world can offer because he promises
everlasting life and the joy of heaven. Although we don’t know exactly what
that will be like, Jesus clearly tells us that it’s so good, we should strive
not to be rewarded in this life. That seems to go against common sense – “a
bird in the hand is worth two in the bush” – but if we really have faith in
God and his Word, we need to put it into practice. If life is like the
banquet of today’s reading, our time in this world is just the appetizer.
"What eye has not seen, and ear has not heard, and what has not entered
the human heart, what God has prepared for those who love him" (1
Corinthians 2:9).
Conversation with
Christ: Lord, help me to
trust in You completely, not seeking myself, but doing my best to serve You
with humility and letting You take care of the rest. I know You are all good
and loving, and You will not let those who serve You go without their reward.
Resolution: Today I will practice humility by putting
others first in whatever way I can: yielding to them in conversation, giving
them the first choice when possible.
Excerpts from the
DIARY of Saint Faustina Kowalska
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55 1933.
Spiritual Counsel Given Me by Father Andrasz, S.J.
First: You must not turn away from these interior
inspirations, but always tell everything to your confessor. If you recognize
that these interior inspirations refer to your own self; that is to say, they
are for the good of your soul or for the good of other souls, l urge you to
follow them; and you must not neglect them, but always do so in consultation
with your confessor.
Second: If these inspirations are not in accord with the faith or the spirit of the Church, they must be rejected immediately as coming from the evil spirit.
Third: If these inspirations do not refer to souls, in general, nor specifically to their good, you should not take them too seriously, and it would be better to even ignore them.
But you should not make this decision by yourself, either one way or the other, as you can easily be led astray despite these great favors from God. Humility, humility, and ever humility, as we can do nothing of ourselves; all is purely and simply God's grace.
You say to me that God demands great trust from souls; well then, you be the first to show this trust. And one more word-accept all this with serenity.
Words of one of the confessors: "Sister, God is preparing many special graces for you, but try to make your life as clear as crystal before the Lord, paying no attention to what anyone else thinks about you. Let God suffice you; He alone."
Toward the end of my novitiate, a confessor [perhaps Father Theodore] told me: "Go through life doing good, so that I could write on its pages: `She spent her life doing good.' May God bring this about in you."
Another time the confessor said to me, "Comport yourself before God like the widow in the Gospel; although the coin she dropped into the box was of little value, it counted far more before God than all the big offerings of others."
On another occasion the instruction I received was this: " Act in such a way that all those who come in contact with you will go away joyful. Sow happiness about you because you have received much from God; give, then, generously to others. They should take leave of you with their hearts filled with joy, even if they have no more than touched the hem of your garment. Keep well in mind the words I am telling you right now."
Still another time he gave me the following recommendation: "Let God push your boat out into the deep waters, toward the unfathomable depths of the interior life."
Here are a few words from a conversation I had with the Mother Directress [Mary Joseph] toward the end of my novitiate: "Sister, let simplicity and humility be the characteristic traits of your soul. Go through life like a little child, always trusting, always full of simplicity and humility, content with everything, happy in every circumstance. There, where others fear, you will pass calmly along, thanks to this simplicity and humility. Remember this, Sister, for your whole life: as waters flow from the mountains down into the valleys, so, too, do God's graces flow only into humble souls."
Second: If these inspirations are not in accord with the faith or the spirit of the Church, they must be rejected immediately as coming from the evil spirit.
Third: If these inspirations do not refer to souls, in general, nor specifically to their good, you should not take them too seriously, and it would be better to even ignore them.
But you should not make this decision by yourself, either one way or the other, as you can easily be led astray despite these great favors from God. Humility, humility, and ever humility, as we can do nothing of ourselves; all is purely and simply God's grace.
You say to me that God demands great trust from souls; well then, you be the first to show this trust. And one more word-accept all this with serenity.
Words of one of the confessors: "Sister, God is preparing many special graces for you, but try to make your life as clear as crystal before the Lord, paying no attention to what anyone else thinks about you. Let God suffice you; He alone."
Toward the end of my novitiate, a confessor [perhaps Father Theodore] told me: "Go through life doing good, so that I could write on its pages: `She spent her life doing good.' May God bring this about in you."
Another time the confessor said to me, "Comport yourself before God like the widow in the Gospel; although the coin she dropped into the box was of little value, it counted far more before God than all the big offerings of others."
On another occasion the instruction I received was this: " Act in such a way that all those who come in contact with you will go away joyful. Sow happiness about you because you have received much from God; give, then, generously to others. They should take leave of you with their hearts filled with joy, even if they have no more than touched the hem of your garment. Keep well in mind the words I am telling you right now."
Still another time he gave me the following recommendation: "Let God push your boat out into the deep waters, toward the unfathomable depths of the interior life."
Here are a few words from a conversation I had with the Mother Directress [Mary Joseph] toward the end of my novitiate: "Sister, let simplicity and humility be the characteristic traits of your soul. Go through life like a little child, always trusting, always full of simplicity and humility, content with everything, happy in every circumstance. There, where others fear, you will pass calmly along, thanks to this simplicity and humility. Remember this, Sister, for your whole life: as waters flow from the mountains down into the valleys, so, too, do God's graces flow only into humble souls."
O Divine Sun, in Your
rays the soul sees the tiniest specks of dust which displease You.
72 O Jesus, eternal Truth, our Life, I call upon You and I beg Your mercy for poor sinners. O sweetest Heart of my Lord, full of pity and unfathomable mercy, I plead with You for poor sinners. O Most Sacred Heart, Fount of Mercy from which gush forth rays of inconceivable graces upon the entire human race, I beg of You light for poor sinners. O Jesus, be mindful of Your own bitter Passion and do not permit the loss of souls redeemed at so dear a price of Your most precious Blood. O Jesus, when I consider the great price of Your Blood, I rejoice at its immensity, for one drop alone would have been enough for the salvation of all sinners. Although sin is an abyss of wickedness and ingratitude, the price paid for us can never be equaled. Therefore, let every soul trust in the Passion of the Lord, and place its hope in His mercy. God will not deny His mercy to anyone. Heaven and earth may change, but God's mercy will never be exhausted. Oh, what immense joy burns in my heart when I contemplate Your incomprehensible goodness, O Jesus! I desire to bring all sinners to Your feet that they may glorify Your mercy throughout endless ages.
72 O Jesus, eternal Truth, our Life, I call upon You and I beg Your mercy for poor sinners. O sweetest Heart of my Lord, full of pity and unfathomable mercy, I plead with You for poor sinners. O Most Sacred Heart, Fount of Mercy from which gush forth rays of inconceivable graces upon the entire human race, I beg of You light for poor sinners. O Jesus, be mindful of Your own bitter Passion and do not permit the loss of souls redeemed at so dear a price of Your most precious Blood. O Jesus, when I consider the great price of Your Blood, I rejoice at its immensity, for one drop alone would have been enough for the salvation of all sinners. Although sin is an abyss of wickedness and ingratitude, the price paid for us can never be equaled. Therefore, let every soul trust in the Passion of the Lord, and place its hope in His mercy. God will not deny His mercy to anyone. Heaven and earth may change, but God's mercy will never be exhausted. Oh, what immense joy burns in my heart when I contemplate Your incomprehensible goodness, O Jesus! I desire to bring all sinners to Your feet that they may glorify Your mercy throughout endless ages.
92 Humiliation is my
daily food. I understand that the bride must herself share in everything that
is the groom's; and so His cloak of mockery must cover me, too. At those times
when I suffer much, I try to remain silent, as I do not trust my tongue which,
at such moments, is inclined to talk for itself, while its duty is to help me
praise God for all the blessings and gifts which He has given me. When I
receive Jesus in Holy Communion, I ask Him fervently to deign to heal my tongue
so that I would offend neither God nor neighbor by it. I want my tongue to
praise God without cease. Great are the faults committed by the tongue. The
soul will not attain sanctity if it does not keep watch over its tongue.
93 +A Short Version of
the Catechism of the Vows[39]
Q. What is a vow?
A. A vow is a voluntary promise made to God, to carry out a more perfect act.
Q. Is a vow binding in a matter which is the object of a commandment?
A. Yes. The carrying out of an act which is the object of a commandment has a double value and merit; and the neglect of such an act is a double transgression and evil, because by breaking such a vow we add to the sin against the commandment, the sin of sacrilege.
Q. Why do religious vows have such value?
A. Because they are the foundation of the religious life approved by the Church, in which the members bound together in a religious community undertake to strive always for perfection by means of the three religious vows of poverty, chastity and obedience, observed according to the rules.
Q. What is the meaning of the words, "strive for perfection?"
A. To strive for perfection means that the religious life does not in itself demand that perfection be already attained, but obliges, under the pain of sin, that we work daily to attain it. Therefore, a religious who does not want to become perfect neglects his principal duty of state.
Q. What are "solemn" religious vows?
A. " Solemn" religious vows are so absolute that, in extraordinary cases, only the Holy Father can dispense from them.
Q. What are simple religious vows?
A. These are vows which are less absolute - the Holy See dispenses from perpetual and annual vows.
Q. What is the difference between a vow and a virtue?
A. A vow pertains only to that which is commanded under pain of sin; the virtue goes beyond this and helps in the carrying out of the vow; on the other hand, by breaking the vow we fail in the virtue and do it damage.
Q. To what do the religious vows oblige us?
A. The religious vows oblige us to strive to acquire the virtues and to submit ourselves completely to our Superiors and to the Rules which are in force; thus the religious gives his own person to the Community, renouncing every right over himself and his actions, which he sacrifices to the service of God.
The Vow of Poverty
The vow of poverty is the voluntary renunciation of the right over property or to the use of such property with the purpose of pleasing God.
Q. What objects does the vow of poverty concern?
A. All those goods and those objects which appertain to the Community. We have no longer any right over anything that has been given to us, once it has been accepted, whether an article or money. All these donations and presents, which may have been given us out of gratitude or in any other way, belong by right to the Community. We cannot make use, without violating the vow, of any wages we may receive for work or even any annuity.
Q. When do we break or violate the vow in a matter which entails the seventh commandment?
A. We break or violate it when, without permission, we take for ourselves anything that belongs to the house; when, without permission, we retain something in order to appropriate it; and when, without authorization, we sell or exchange something that belongs to the Community. When we make use of an object for some other purpose than that intended by the Superior. When we give to, or accept from another, anything whatsoever without permission. When by negligence we destroy or damage something. When, in going from one house to another, we take something with us without permission. In a situation where the vow is broken, the religious is bound to restitution to the Community.
The Virtue of Poverty
This is an evangelical virtue which impels the heart to detach itself from temporal things; the religious, in virtue of his profession, is strictly obliged to it.
Q. When do we sin against the virtue of poverty? When we desire something, contrary to this virtue. When we become attached to something, and when we make use of superfluous things. How many degrees of poverty are there and what are they?
A. There are, in practice, four degrees of poverty for one who is a professed religious: to dispose of nothing without the consent of the Superiors (the strict matter of the vow); to avoid superfluities and be content with necessities (this pertains to the virtue); to readily content oneself with things of inferior quality in what concerns one's cell, clothing, nourishment, etc., and to experience this contentment interiorly; to rejoice in extreme poverty.
The Vow of Chastity
Q. To what does this vow oblige us?
A. To renounce marriage and to avoid everything that is forbidden by the sixth and ninth commandments.
Q. Is a fault against the virtue a violation of the vow?
A. Every fault against the virtue is at the same time a violation of the vow, because here there is no difference, as in the case of poverty and obedience, between the vow and the virtue.
Q. Is every bad thought a sin?
A. No, every bad thought is not a sin; it becomes so only when the acquiescence of the will and consent are joined to the consideration of the mind.
Q. Is there anything, over and above sins against chastity, which is detrimental to the virtue?
A. Lack of custody of the senses, of the imagination, of the feelings; familiarity and sentimental friendships are detrimental to the virtue.
Q. What are the means by which this virtue may be preserved?
A. To conquer interior temptations with the thought of the presence of God, and moreover to fight without fear. And for exterior temptations, to avoid occasions. There are, in all, seven principal means: to guard the senses, to avoid occasions, to avoid idleness, to remove temptations promptly, to remove oneself from all - and especially particular friendships, the spirit of mortification, and to reveal all these temptations to one's confessor.
Besides this, there are also five means of preserving this virtue: humility, the spirit of prayer, modesty of the eyes, fidelity to the rule, a sincere devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary.
The Vow of Obedience
The vow of obedience is superior to the first two. It is, to tell the truth, a holocaust, and it is more necessary because it forms and animates the monastic body.
Q. To what does the vow of obedience oblige us?
A. By the vow of obedience, the religious promises to God to be obedient to his legitimate superiors in everything that they will ordain in virtue of the rule. The vow of obedience makes the religious dependent on his superior in virtue of these rules for his whole life and in all his affairs. A religious commits a grave sin against the vow every time he disobeys an order given in virtue of obedience and of these rules.
The Virtue of Obedience
The virtue of obedience goes further than the vow; it embraces the rules, the regulations and even the counsels of the superiors.
Q. Is the virtue of obedience indispensable for a religious?
A. The virtue of obedience is so indispensable to a religious that, even if he were to perform good actions contrary to obedience, these would be evil and without merit.
Q. Can we sin gravely against the virtue of obedience?
A. We sin gravely when we scorn the authority or the order of the superior, or when spiritual or temporal harm to the community results from our disobedience.
Q. What faults endanger the vow?
A. To be prejudiced against the superior, or to harbor an antipathy for him - murmuring and criticism, tardiness and negligence.
The Degrees of Obedience
Prompt and complete fulfillment - the obedience of the will, when the will persuades the intellect to submit to the advice of the superior. To facilitate obedience, Saint Ignatius suggests, moreover, three means: always to see God in our superior, whoever he might be; to justify in itself the order or advice of the superior; to accept each order as an order from God, without examining it or reflecting on it. General means: humility. Nothing is difficult for the humble.
Q. What is a vow?
A. A vow is a voluntary promise made to God, to carry out a more perfect act.
Q. Is a vow binding in a matter which is the object of a commandment?
A. Yes. The carrying out of an act which is the object of a commandment has a double value and merit; and the neglect of such an act is a double transgression and evil, because by breaking such a vow we add to the sin against the commandment, the sin of sacrilege.
Q. Why do religious vows have such value?
A. Because they are the foundation of the religious life approved by the Church, in which the members bound together in a religious community undertake to strive always for perfection by means of the three religious vows of poverty, chastity and obedience, observed according to the rules.
Q. What is the meaning of the words, "strive for perfection?"
A. To strive for perfection means that the religious life does not in itself demand that perfection be already attained, but obliges, under the pain of sin, that we work daily to attain it. Therefore, a religious who does not want to become perfect neglects his principal duty of state.
Q. What are "solemn" religious vows?
A. " Solemn" religious vows are so absolute that, in extraordinary cases, only the Holy Father can dispense from them.
Q. What are simple religious vows?
A. These are vows which are less absolute - the Holy See dispenses from perpetual and annual vows.
Q. What is the difference between a vow and a virtue?
A. A vow pertains only to that which is commanded under pain of sin; the virtue goes beyond this and helps in the carrying out of the vow; on the other hand, by breaking the vow we fail in the virtue and do it damage.
Q. To what do the religious vows oblige us?
A. The religious vows oblige us to strive to acquire the virtues and to submit ourselves completely to our Superiors and to the Rules which are in force; thus the religious gives his own person to the Community, renouncing every right over himself and his actions, which he sacrifices to the service of God.
The Vow of Poverty
The vow of poverty is the voluntary renunciation of the right over property or to the use of such property with the purpose of pleasing God.
Q. What objects does the vow of poverty concern?
A. All those goods and those objects which appertain to the Community. We have no longer any right over anything that has been given to us, once it has been accepted, whether an article or money. All these donations and presents, which may have been given us out of gratitude or in any other way, belong by right to the Community. We cannot make use, without violating the vow, of any wages we may receive for work or even any annuity.
Q. When do we break or violate the vow in a matter which entails the seventh commandment?
A. We break or violate it when, without permission, we take for ourselves anything that belongs to the house; when, without permission, we retain something in order to appropriate it; and when, without authorization, we sell or exchange something that belongs to the Community. When we make use of an object for some other purpose than that intended by the Superior. When we give to, or accept from another, anything whatsoever without permission. When by negligence we destroy or damage something. When, in going from one house to another, we take something with us without permission. In a situation where the vow is broken, the religious is bound to restitution to the Community.
The Virtue of Poverty
This is an evangelical virtue which impels the heart to detach itself from temporal things; the religious, in virtue of his profession, is strictly obliged to it.
Q. When do we sin against the virtue of poverty? When we desire something, contrary to this virtue. When we become attached to something, and when we make use of superfluous things. How many degrees of poverty are there and what are they?
A. There are, in practice, four degrees of poverty for one who is a professed religious: to dispose of nothing without the consent of the Superiors (the strict matter of the vow); to avoid superfluities and be content with necessities (this pertains to the virtue); to readily content oneself with things of inferior quality in what concerns one's cell, clothing, nourishment, etc., and to experience this contentment interiorly; to rejoice in extreme poverty.
The Vow of Chastity
Q. To what does this vow oblige us?
A. To renounce marriage and to avoid everything that is forbidden by the sixth and ninth commandments.
Q. Is a fault against the virtue a violation of the vow?
A. Every fault against the virtue is at the same time a violation of the vow, because here there is no difference, as in the case of poverty and obedience, between the vow and the virtue.
Q. Is every bad thought a sin?
A. No, every bad thought is not a sin; it becomes so only when the acquiescence of the will and consent are joined to the consideration of the mind.
Q. Is there anything, over and above sins against chastity, which is detrimental to the virtue?
A. Lack of custody of the senses, of the imagination, of the feelings; familiarity and sentimental friendships are detrimental to the virtue.
Q. What are the means by which this virtue may be preserved?
A. To conquer interior temptations with the thought of the presence of God, and moreover to fight without fear. And for exterior temptations, to avoid occasions. There are, in all, seven principal means: to guard the senses, to avoid occasions, to avoid idleness, to remove temptations promptly, to remove oneself from all - and especially particular friendships, the spirit of mortification, and to reveal all these temptations to one's confessor.
Besides this, there are also five means of preserving this virtue: humility, the spirit of prayer, modesty of the eyes, fidelity to the rule, a sincere devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary.
The Vow of Obedience
The vow of obedience is superior to the first two. It is, to tell the truth, a holocaust, and it is more necessary because it forms and animates the monastic body.
Q. To what does the vow of obedience oblige us?
A. By the vow of obedience, the religious promises to God to be obedient to his legitimate superiors in everything that they will ordain in virtue of the rule. The vow of obedience makes the religious dependent on his superior in virtue of these rules for his whole life and in all his affairs. A religious commits a grave sin against the vow every time he disobeys an order given in virtue of obedience and of these rules.
The Virtue of Obedience
The virtue of obedience goes further than the vow; it embraces the rules, the regulations and even the counsels of the superiors.
Q. Is the virtue of obedience indispensable for a religious?
A. The virtue of obedience is so indispensable to a religious that, even if he were to perform good actions contrary to obedience, these would be evil and without merit.
Q. Can we sin gravely against the virtue of obedience?
A. We sin gravely when we scorn the authority or the order of the superior, or when spiritual or temporal harm to the community results from our disobedience.
Q. What faults endanger the vow?
A. To be prejudiced against the superior, or to harbor an antipathy for him - murmuring and criticism, tardiness and negligence.
The Degrees of Obedience
Prompt and complete fulfillment - the obedience of the will, when the will persuades the intellect to submit to the advice of the superior. To facilitate obedience, Saint Ignatius suggests, moreover, three means: always to see God in our superior, whoever he might be; to justify in itself the order or advice of the superior; to accept each order as an order from God, without examining it or reflecting on it. General means: humility. Nothing is difficult for the humble.
95 +A Deeper Knowledge
of God and the Terror of the Soul.
In the beginning, God lets himself be known as Holiness, Justice, Goodness - that is to say, Mercy. The soul does not come to know this all at once, but piecemeal, in flashes; that is to say, when God draws near. And this does not last for long, because the soul could not bear such light. During prayer the soul experiences flashes of this light which make it impossible to pray as before. Try as it may to force itself to pray as it did before, all is in vain; it becomes completely impossible for it to continue to pray as it did before it received this light. This light which has touched the soul is alive within it, and nothing can either quench or diminish it. This flash of the knowledge of God draws the soul and enkindles its love for Him.
But this same flash, at the same time, allows the soul to know itself as it is; the soul sees its whole interior in a superior light, and it rises up alarmed and terrified. Still, it does not remain under the effects of terror, but it begins to purify itself, to humble and abase itself before the Lord. These lights become stronger and more frequent; the more the soul is crystallized, the more these lights penetrate it. However, if the soul has responded faithfully and courageously to these first graces, God fills it with His consolations and gives himself to it in a perceptible manner. At certain moments, the soul, as it were, enters into intimacy with God and greatly rejoices in this; it believes that it has already reached the degree of perfection destined for it, because its defects and faults are asleep within it, and this makes it think that they no longer exist. Nothing seems difficult for it; it is ready for everything. It begins to plunge itself into God and taste the divine delights. It is carried along by grace and does not take account of the fact that the time of trial and testing may come. And, in fact, this state does not last long. Other moments will soon come. I should add here, however, that the soul will respond more faithfully to divine grace if it has a well - informed confessor to whom it can confide everything.
In the beginning, God lets himself be known as Holiness, Justice, Goodness - that is to say, Mercy. The soul does not come to know this all at once, but piecemeal, in flashes; that is to say, when God draws near. And this does not last for long, because the soul could not bear such light. During prayer the soul experiences flashes of this light which make it impossible to pray as before. Try as it may to force itself to pray as it did before, all is in vain; it becomes completely impossible for it to continue to pray as it did before it received this light. This light which has touched the soul is alive within it, and nothing can either quench or diminish it. This flash of the knowledge of God draws the soul and enkindles its love for Him.
But this same flash, at the same time, allows the soul to know itself as it is; the soul sees its whole interior in a superior light, and it rises up alarmed and terrified. Still, it does not remain under the effects of terror, but it begins to purify itself, to humble and abase itself before the Lord. These lights become stronger and more frequent; the more the soul is crystallized, the more these lights penetrate it. However, if the soul has responded faithfully and courageously to these first graces, God fills it with His consolations and gives himself to it in a perceptible manner. At certain moments, the soul, as it were, enters into intimacy with God and greatly rejoices in this; it believes that it has already reached the degree of perfection destined for it, because its defects and faults are asleep within it, and this makes it think that they no longer exist. Nothing seems difficult for it; it is ready for everything. It begins to plunge itself into God and taste the divine delights. It is carried along by grace and does not take account of the fact that the time of trial and testing may come. And, in fact, this state does not last long. Other moments will soon come. I should add here, however, that the soul will respond more faithfully to divine grace if it has a well - informed confessor to whom it can confide everything.
113 And again, I would
like to say three words to the soul that is determined to strive for sanctity
and to derive fruit; that is to say, benefit from confession.
First word-complete sincerity and openness. Even the holiest and wisest confessor cannot forcibly pour into the soul what he desires if it is not sincere and open. An insincere, secretive soul risks great dangers in the spiritual life, and even the Lord Jesus Himself does not give Himself to such a soul on a higher level, because He knows it would derive no benefit from these special graces.
Second word-humility. A soul does not benefit as it should from the sacrament of confession if it is not humble. Pride keeps it in darkness. The soul neither knows how, nor is it willing, to probe with precision the depths of its own misery. It puts on a mask and avoids everything that might bring it recovery.
Third word-obedience. A disobedient soul will win no victory, even if the Lord Jesus himself, in person, were to hear its confession. The most experienced confessor will be of no help whatsoever to such a soul. The disobedient soul exposes itself to great misfortunes; it will make no progress toward perfection, nor will it succeed in the spiritual life. God lavishes His graces most generously upon the soul, but it must be an obedient soul.
First word-complete sincerity and openness. Even the holiest and wisest confessor cannot forcibly pour into the soul what he desires if it is not sincere and open. An insincere, secretive soul risks great dangers in the spiritual life, and even the Lord Jesus Himself does not give Himself to such a soul on a higher level, because He knows it would derive no benefit from these special graces.
Second word-humility. A soul does not benefit as it should from the sacrament of confession if it is not humble. Pride keeps it in darkness. The soul neither knows how, nor is it willing, to probe with precision the depths of its own misery. It puts on a mask and avoids everything that might bring it recovery.
Third word-obedience. A disobedient soul will win no victory, even if the Lord Jesus himself, in person, were to hear its confession. The most experienced confessor will be of no help whatsoever to such a soul. The disobedient soul exposes itself to great misfortunes; it will make no progress toward perfection, nor will it succeed in the spiritual life. God lavishes His graces most generously upon the soul, but it must be an obedient soul.
114 +Oh, how pleasing
are the hymns flowing from a suffering soul! All heaven delights in such a
soul, especially when it is tested by God. It mournfully sings out its longing
for Him. Great is its beauty, because it comes from God. The soul walks through
the jungle of life, wounded by God's love. With one foot only it touches the
ground.
115 + When a soul has
come out of these tribulations, it is deeply humble. Its purity of soul is
great. It knows better without need of reflecting, as it were, what it ought to
do at a given moment and what to forbear. It feels the lightest touch of grace
and is very faithful to God. It recognizes God from afar and continuously
rejoices in Him. It discovers God very quickly in other souls and in its
environment in general. The soul has been purified by God himself. God, as Pure
Spirit, introduces the soul to a life which is purely spiritual. God himself
has first prepared and purified the soul; that is, He has made it capable of
close communion with himself. The soul, in a state of loving repose, communes
spiritually with the Lord. It speaks to God without the need of expressing
itself through the senses. God fills it with His light.
The enlightened mind sees clearly and distinguishes the various degrees of the spiritual life. It recognizes [that state] when its union with God was imperfect: where the senses were involved, and the spirit was linked with the senses in a manner-exalted and special, to be sure but not yet perfect. There is a higher and more perfect union with God; namely, intellectual union. Here, the soul is safer from illusions; its spirituality is purer and more profound. In a life where the senses are involved, there is more danger of illusion. Both for the soul and for its confessor, prudence must play a greater part. There are moments when God introduces the soul to a purely spiritual state. The senses dim and are seemingly dead. The soul is most closely united to God; it is immersed in the Deity; its knowledge is complete and perfect, not sporadic as before, but total and absolute. It rejoices in this. But I want to say more about those moments of trial; at those times the confessor must have patience with such a soul. But the soul must have even greater patience with itself.
The enlightened mind sees clearly and distinguishes the various degrees of the spiritual life. It recognizes [that state] when its union with God was imperfect: where the senses were involved, and the spirit was linked with the senses in a manner-exalted and special, to be sure but not yet perfect. There is a higher and more perfect union with God; namely, intellectual union. Here, the soul is safer from illusions; its spirituality is purer and more profound. In a life where the senses are involved, there is more danger of illusion. Both for the soul and for its confessor, prudence must play a greater part. There are moments when God introduces the soul to a purely spiritual state. The senses dim and are seemingly dead. The soul is most closely united to God; it is immersed in the Deity; its knowledge is complete and perfect, not sporadic as before, but total and absolute. It rejoices in this. But I want to say more about those moments of trial; at those times the confessor must have patience with such a soul. But the soul must have even greater patience with itself.
132 I must again mention that there are some confessors who seem to be true spiritual fathers, but only as long as things go well. When the soul finds itself in greater need, they become perplexed, and either cannot or will not understand the soul. They try to get rid of the person as soon as possible. But if the soul is humble, it will always profit in some little way or other. God himself will sometimes cast a shaft of light into the depths of the soul, because of its humility and faith. The confessor will sometimes say something he had never intended to say, without even realizing it himself. Oh, let the soul believe that such words are the words of the Lord himself! Though indeed we ought to believe that every word spoken in the confessional is God's, what I have referred to above is something that comes directly from God. And the soul perceives that the priest is not master of himself, that he is saying things that he would rather not say. This is how God rewards faith.
I have experienced this many times myself. A certain very learned and respected priest [probably Father Wilkowski, the sisters' confessor at Plock], to whom I sometimes happened to go to confession, was always severe and opposed to these matters [which I brought up to him]. But on one occasion he replied to me, "Bear in mind, Sister, that if God is asking this of you, you should not oppose Him. God sometimes wants to be praised in just this way. Be at peace; what God has started, He will finish. But I say this to you: faithfulness to God and humility. And once again: humility. Bear well in mind what I have told you today." I was delighted, and I thought that perhaps this priest had understood me. But it so turned out that I never went to confession to him again.
133 +Once, one of the
older Mothers [probably Mother Jane[43]] summoned me,
and it was as if fiery bolts from the blue were coming down upon my head, so
much so that I could not even discover what it was all about. But after a while
I understood that it was about a matter over which I had no control whatsoever.
She said to me, "Get it out of your head, Sister, that the Lord Jesus
might be communing in such an intimate way with such a miserable bundle of
imperfections as you! Bear in mind that it is only with holy souls that the
Lord Jesus communes in this way!" I acknowledged that she was right, because
I am indeed a wretched person, but still I trust in God's mercy. When I met the
Lord I humbled myself and said, "Jesus, it seems that You do not associate
intimately with such wretched people as I" Be at peace, My
daughter, it is precisely through such misery that I want to show the power of
My mercy. I understood that this Mother had merely wanted to subject
me to a [salutary] humiliation.
138 A great mystery
has been accomplished between God and me. Courage and strength have remained in
my soul. When the time of adoration came to an end, I came out and calmly faced
everything I had feared so much before. When I came out into the corridor, a
great suffering and humiliation, at the hands of a certain person, was awaiting
me. I accepted it with submission to a higher will and snuggled closely to the
Most Sacred Heart of Jesus, letting Him know that I was ready for that for
which I had offered myself.
Suffering seemed to
spring out of the ground. Even Mother Margaret herself was surprised. For
others, many things passed unnoticed, for indeed it wasn't worth paying any
attention to them; but in my case, nothing passed unnoticed; each word was
analyzed, each step watched. One sister said to me, "Get ready, Sister, to
receive a small cross at the hands of Mother Superior. I feel sorry for
you." But as for me, I rejoiced at this in the depths of my soul and had
been ready for it for a long time. When she saw my courage, she was surprised.
I see now that a soul cannot do much of itself, but with God it can do all
things. Behold what God's grace can do. Few are the souls that are always
watchful for divine graces, and even fewer of such souls who follow those
inspirations faithfully.
159 +O Blessed Host,
in golden chalice enclosed for me,
That through the vast wilderness of exile
I may pass-pure, immaculate, undefiled;
Oh, grant that through the power of Your love this might come to be.
O Blessed Host, take up Your dwelling within my soul,
O Thou my heart's purest love!
With Your brilliance the darkness dispel.
Refuse not Your grace to a humble heart.
O Blessed Host, enchantment of all heaven,
Though Your beauty be veiled
And captured in a crumb of bread,
Strong faith tears away that veil
That through the vast wilderness of exile
I may pass-pure, immaculate, undefiled;
Oh, grant that through the power of Your love this might come to be.
O Blessed Host, take up Your dwelling within my soul,
O Thou my heart's purest love!
With Your brilliance the darkness dispel.
Refuse not Your grace to a humble heart.
O Blessed Host, enchantment of all heaven,
Though Your beauty be veiled
And captured in a crumb of bread,
Strong faith tears away that veil
174 At that moment the
priest came in and began the conference. He spoke for a short time, as if he
were in a hurry. After the conference, he went over to the confessional. Seeing
that none of the sisters were going there, I sprang from my kneeler, and in an
instant was in the confessional. There was no time to deliberate. Instead of
telling the father about the doubts that had been sown in me in respect to my
dealings with the Lord Jesus, I began to speak about these temptations I have
just described above. The confessor immediately understood my situation and
said, "Sister, you distrust the Lord Jesus because He treats you so
kindly. Well, Sister, be completely at peace. Jesus is your Master, and your
communing with Him is neither daydreaming nor hysteria nor illusion. Know that
you are on the right path. Please try to be faithful to these graces; you are
not free to shun them. You do not need at all, Sister, to tell your superiors
about these interior graces, unless the Lord Jesus instructs you clearly to do
so, and even then you should first consult with your confessor. But if the Lord
Jesus demands something external, in this case, after consulting your
confessor, you should carry out what He asks of you, even if this costs you
greatly. On the other hand, you must tell your confessor everything. There is
absolutely no other course for you to take, Sister. Pray that you may find a
spiritual director, or else you will waste these great gifts of God. I repeat
once again, be at peace; you are following the right path. Take no heed of
anything else, but always be faithful to the Lord Jesus, no matter what anyone
says about you. It is with just such miserable souls that the Lord Jesus
communes in this intimate way. And the more you humble yourself, the more the
Lord Jesus will unite Himself with you." 175 176 177
178 Today we are
beginning the third probation. All three of us met at Mother Margaret's, as the
other sisters were having their probation in the novitiate. Mother Margaret
began with a prayer, explained to us what the third probation consists of, and
then spoke on how great is the grace of the perpetual vows. Suddenly I began to
cry out loud. In an instant all God's graces appeared before the eyes of my
soul, and I saw myself so wretched and ungrateful toward God. The sisters began
to rebuke me, saying, "Why did she break out crying?" But Mother
Margaret came to my defense, saying that she was not surprised.
At the end of the hour, I went before the Blessed Sacrament and, like the greatest and most miserable of wretches, I begged for His mercy that He might heal and purify my poor soul. Then I heard these words, My daughter, all your miseries have been consumed in the flame of My love, like a little twig thrown into a roaring fire. By humbling yourself in this way, you draw upon yourself and upon other souls an entire sea of My mercy. I answered, "Jesus, mold my poor heart according to Your divine delight."
At the end of the hour, I went before the Blessed Sacrament and, like the greatest and most miserable of wretches, I begged for His mercy that He might heal and purify my poor soul. Then I heard these words, My daughter, all your miseries have been consumed in the flame of My love, like a little twig thrown into a roaring fire. By humbling yourself in this way, you draw upon yourself and upon other souls an entire sea of My mercy. I answered, "Jesus, mold my poor heart according to Your divine delight."
270 Without humility,
we cannot be pleasing to God. Practice the third degree of humility;[76] that is,
not only must one refrain from explaining and defending oneself when reproached
with something, but one should rejoice at the humiliation.
If the things you are telling me really come from God, prepare your soul for great suffering. You will encounter disapproval and persecution. They will look upon you as a hysteric and an eccentric, but the Lord will lavish His graces upon you. True works of God always meet opposition and are marked by suffering. If God wants to accomplish something, sooner or later He will do so in spite of the difficulties. Your part, in the meantime, is to arm yourself with great patience.
If the things you are telling me really come from God, prepare your soul for great suffering. You will encounter disapproval and persecution. They will look upon you as a hysteric and an eccentric, but the Lord will lavish His graces upon you. True works of God always meet opposition and are marked by suffering. If God wants to accomplish something, sooner or later He will do so in spite of the difficulties. Your part, in the meantime, is to arm yourself with great patience.
282 Once the Lord said
to me, My Heart was moved by great mercy towards you, My dearest child,
when I saw you torn to shreds because of the great pain you suffered in
repenting for your sins. I see your love, so pure and true that I give you
first place among the virgins. You are the honor and glory of My Passion. I see
every abasement of your soul, and nothing escapes my attention. I lift up the
humble even to my very throne, because I want it so.
294 +Once the Lord
said to me, Act like a beggar who does not back away when he gets more
alms [than he asked for], but offers thanks the more fervently. You too should
not back away and say that you are not worthy of receiving greater graces when
I give them to you. I know you are unworthy, but rejoice all the more and take
as many treasures from My Heart as you can carry, for then you will please Me
more. And I will tell you one more thing: Take these graces not only for
yourself, but also for others; that is, encourage the souls with whom you come
in contact to trust in My infinite mercy. Oh, how I love those souls who have
complete confidence in Me. I will do everything for them.
320 Jesus made known
to me how very pleasing to Him were prayers of atonement. He said to me, The
prayer of a humble and loving soul disarms the anger of My Father and draws down
an ocean of blessings. After the adoration, half way to my cell, I was
surrounded by a , pack of huge black dogs who were jumping and howling and
trying to tear me to pieces. I realized that they were not dogs, but demons.
One of them spoke up in a rage, "Because you have snatched so many souls
away from us this night, we will tear you to pieces." I answered, "If
that is the will of the most merciful God, tear me to pieces, for I have justly
deserved it, because I am the most miserable of all sinners, and God is ever
holy, just, and infinitely merciful." To these words all the demons
answered as one, "Let us flee, for she is not alone; the Almighty is with
her!" And they vanished like dust, like the noise of the road, while I
continued on my way to my cell undisturbed, finishing my Te Deum and pondering
the infinite and unfathomable mercy of God.
346 December 24, 1934.
The Vigil of Christmas. During the morning Mass, I felt the closeness of God.
Though I was hardly aware of it, my spirit was drowned in God. Suddenly, I
heard these words: You are My delightful dwelling place; My Spirit
rests in you. After these words, I felt the Lord looking into the
depths of my heart; and seeing my misery, I humbled myself in spirit and
admired the immense mercy of God, that the Most High Lord would approach such
misery.
During Holy Communion, joy filled my soul. I felt that I am closely united to the Godhead. His omnipotence enveloped my whole being. Throughout the whole day I felt the closeness of God in a special manner; and although my duties prevented me throughout the whole day from going to chapel even for a moment, there was not a moment when I was not united with God. I felt Him within me more distinctly than ever. Unceasingly greeting the Mother of God and entering into Her spirit, I begged Her to teach me true love of God. And then I heard these words: I will share with you the secret of My happiness this night during Holy Mass.
During Holy Communion, joy filled my soul. I felt that I am closely united to the Godhead. His omnipotence enveloped my whole being. Throughout the whole day I felt the closeness of God in a special manner; and although my duties prevented me throughout the whole day from going to chapel even for a moment, there was not a moment when I was not united with God. I felt Him within me more distinctly than ever. Unceasingly greeting the Mother of God and entering into Her spirit, I begged Her to teach me true love of God. And then I heard these words: I will share with you the secret of My happiness this night during Holy Mass.
We had supper before
six o'clock. Despite all the joy and the external noise accompanying the
sharing of the wafer and the mutual exchange of good wishes, I did not for a
moment lose the awareness of God's presence. After supper we hurried away to
finish our work, and at nine I was able to go to the chapel for adoration. I
was allowed to stay up and wait for the Midnight Mass. I was delighted to have
free time from nine until midnight. From nine to ten o'clock I offered my
adoration for my parents and my whole family. From ten to eleven, I offered it
for the intention of my spiritual director, in the first place thanking God for
granting me this great visible help here on earth, just as He had promised me,
and I also asked God to grant him the necessary light so that he could get to
know my soul and guide me according to God's good pleasure. And from eleven to
twelve I prayed for the Holy Church and the clergy, for sinners, for the
missions and for our houses. I offered the indulgences for the souls in
purgatory.
362 +One day, during
the morning meditation, I heard this voice: I myself am your director;
I was, I am, and I will be. And since you asked for visible help, I chose and
gave you a director even before you had asked, for My work required this. Know
that the faults you commit against him wound My Heart. Be especially on your guard
against self-willfulness; even the smallest thing should bear the seal of
obedience.
With a crushed and
humbled heart I begged forgiveness of Jesus for these faults. I also begged
pardon of my spiritual director and resolved to do nothing rather than to do
many things wrongly.
424 In the evening, I
just about got into bed, and I fell asleep immediately. Though I fell asleep
quickly, I was awakened even more quickly. A little child came and woke me up.
The child seemed about a year old, and I was surprised it could speak so well,
as children of that age either do not speak or speak very indistinctly The
child was beautiful beyond words and resembled the Child Jesus, and he said to
me, Look at the sky. And when I looked at the sky I saw the
stars and the moon shining. Then the child asked me, Do you see this
moon and these stars? When I said yes, he spoke these words to me, These
stars are the souls of faithful Christians, and the moon is the souls of
religious. Do you see how great the difference is between the light of the moon
and the light of the stars? Such is the difference in heaven between the soul
of a religious and the soul of a faithful Christian. And he went on to
say that, True greatness is in loving God and in humility.
450 I was suffering
very much, and it seemed to me I would not be able to make my adoration, but I
gathered up all my will power and, although I collapsed in my cell, I paid no
attention to what ailed me, for I had the Passion of Jesus before my eyes. When
I entered the chapel, I received an inner understanding of the great reward
that God is preparing for us, not only for our good deeds, but also for our
sincere desire to perform them. What a great grace of God this is!
Oh, how sweet it is to toil for God and souls! I want no respite in this battle, but I shall fight to the last breath for the glory of my King and Lord. I shall not lay the sword aside until He calls me before His throne; I fear no blows, because God is my shield. It is the enemy who should fear us, and not we him. Satan defeats only the proud and the cowardly, because the humble are strong. Nothing will confuse or frighten a humble soul. I have directed my flight at the very center of the sun's heat, and nothing can lower its course. Love will not allow itself to be taken prisoner; it is free like a queen. Love attains God.
Oh, how sweet it is to toil for God and souls! I want no respite in this battle, but I shall fight to the last breath for the glory of my King and Lord. I shall not lay the sword aside until He calls me before His throne; I fear no blows, because God is my shield. It is the enemy who should fear us, and not we him. Satan defeats only the proud and the cowardly, because the humble are strong. Nothing will confuse or frighten a humble soul. I have directed my flight at the very center of the sun's heat, and nothing can lower its course. Love will not allow itself to be taken prisoner; it is free like a queen. Love attains God.
526 + The 14th. This Thursday,
when we were having nocturnal adoration, at first I could not pray; a sort of
dryness engulfed me. I could not meditate on Jesus' sorrowful Passion. So I lay
prostrate and offered the most sorrowful Passion of the Lord Jesus to the
heavenly Father in reparation for the sins of all the world. When I got to my
feet after this prayer and walked to my kneeler, I suddenly saw Jesus next to
it. The Lord Jesus appeared as He was during the scourging. In His hands He was
holding a white garment with which He clothed me and a cord with which He
girded me, and He covered me with a red cloak like the one He was clothed with
during His Passion and a veil of the same color, and He said to me, This
is how you and your companions are going to be clothed. My life from birth to
death on the Cross will be the rule for you. Fix your eyes upon Me and live
according to what you see. I desire that you penetrate into My spirit more
deeply and understand that I am meek and humble of heart.
532 After Holy
Communion, I saw the Lord Jesus, who said these words to me: Today,
penetrate into the spirit of My poverty and arrange everything in such a way
that the most destitute will have no reason to envy you. I find pleasure, not
in large buildings and magnificent structures, but in a pure and humble heart.
538 There will be no
distinction between the sisters, no mothers,[107] no
reverends, no venerable, but all will be equal, even though there might be
great differences in their parentage. We know who Jesus was, and yet how He
humbled himself and with whom He associated. Their habit will be like that worn
by Jesus during His Passion, and they will not simply wear the robe [He wore];
they must also seal themselves with the marks He bore: suffering and scorn.
Each one will strive for the greatest self-denial and have a love of humility,
and she who will distinguish herself most in this latter virtue will be the one
who is capable of leading the others.
544 The novitiate [109] is to
last one year, without any interruption. At this time the novice should be
taught about the virtues relating to the vows and about the importance of the
vows. The directress should do her utmost to provide a solid formation. Let her
train the novices in the practice of humility, because only a humble heart
keeps the vows easily and experiences the great joys that God pours out upon
the faithful soul. The novices should not be burdened with duties that entail
responsibilities, so that they may be free to devote themselves to their own
perfection. They are obliged to observe the rules and statutes strictly, as are
the postulants.
573 December 21, 1935.
One day my confessor [Father Sopocko] told me to go and look at a certain house
to see whether it was the same house I had seen in my vision. When I went with
my confessor to see that house, or rather those ruins, at a glance I recognized
that they were the same as I had seen in my vision. The moment I touched the
boards which had been nailed together in place of the doors, a strength
pervaded my soul like a flash, giving me unshakable certitude. I went away
quickly from that place, my heart full of joy, for it seemed to me that there
was a certain force chaining me to that place.
I am very happy to see that everything agrees perfectly with what I saw in the vision. When the confessor spoke to me about the arrangement of the cells and other things, I recognized everything to be the same as had been told to me by Jesus. I am delighted that God is acting in this way through my confessor, but I am not surprised that God is giving him so much light; since God, who is Light itself, lives in a pure and humble heart, and all sufferings and adversities serve but to reveal the soul's holiness. When I returned home, I went immediately to our chapel to rest a while. Then suddenly I heard these words in my soul: Do not fear anything. I am with you. These matters are in My hands and I will bring them to fruition according to My mercy, for nothing can oppose My will.
I am very happy to see that everything agrees perfectly with what I saw in the vision. When the confessor spoke to me about the arrangement of the cells and other things, I recognized everything to be the same as had been told to me by Jesus. I am delighted that God is acting in this way through my confessor, but I am not surprised that God is giving him so much light; since God, who is Light itself, lives in a pure and humble heart, and all sufferings and adversities serve but to reveal the soul's holiness. When I returned home, I went immediately to our chapel to rest a while. Then suddenly I heard these words in my soul: Do not fear anything. I am with you. These matters are in My hands and I will bring them to fruition according to My mercy, for nothing can oppose My will.
576 O Holy Trinity,
Eternal God, my spirit is drowned in Your beauty. The ages are as nothing in
Your sight. You are always the same. Oh, how great is Your majesty. Jesus, why
do You conceal Your majesty, why have You left Your heavenly throne and dwelt among
us? The Lord answered me, My daughter, love has brought Me here, and
love keeps Me here. My daughter, if you knew what great merit and reward is
earned by one act of pure love for Me, you would die of joy. I am saying this
that you may constantly unite yourself with Me through love, for this is the
goal of the life of your soul. This act is an act of the will. Know that a pure
soul is humble. When you lower and empty yourself before My majesty, I then
pursue you with My graces and make use of My omnipotence to exalt you.
587 Once, I suddenly
saw Jesus in great majesty, and He spoke these words to me: My
daughter, if you wish, I will this instant create a new world, more beautiful
than this one, and you will live there for the rest of your life. I
answered, "I don't want any worlds. I want You, Jesus. I want to love You,
with the same love that You have for me. I beg You for only one thing: to make
my heart capable of loving you. I am very much surprised at Your offer, my
Jesus; what are those worlds to me? Even if You gave me a thousand of them,
what are they to me? You know very well, Jesus, that my heart is dying of
longing for You. Everything that is not You is nothing to me." -At that
moment, I could no longer see anything, but a strange force took over my soul,
a strange fire sprang up in my heart, and I entered into a kind of agony for
Him. Then I heard these words: With no other soul do I unite myself as
closely and in such a way as I do with you, and this because of the deep
humility and ardent love which you have for Me.
593 O my Jesus,
nothing is better for the soul than humiliations. In contempt is the secret of
happiness, when the soul recognizes that, of itself, it is only wretchedness
and nothingness, and that whatever it possesses of good is a gift of God. When
the soul sees that everything is given it freely and that the only thing it has
of itself is its own misery, this is what sustains it in a continual act of
humble prostration before the majesty of God. And God, seeing the soul in such
a disposition, pursues it with His graces. As the soul continues to immerse
itself more deeply into the abyss of its nothingness and need, God uses His
omnipotence to exalt it. If there is a truly happy soul upon earth, it can only
be a truly humble soul. At first, one's self-love suffers greatly on this
account, but after a soul has struggled courageously, God grants it much light
by which it sees how wretched and full of deception everything is. God alone is
in its heart. A humble soul does not trust itself, but places all its confidence
in God. God defends the humble soul and lets Himself into its secrets, and the
soul abides in unsurpassable happiness which no one can comprehend.
771 In that same
moment, the soul drowns entirely in Him and experiences a happiness as great as
that of the chosen ones in heaven. Although the chosen ones in heaven see God
face to face and are completely and absolutely happy, still their knowledge of
God is not the same. God has given me to understand this. This deeper knowledge
begins here on earth, depending on the grace [given], but to a great extent it
also depends on our faithfulness to that grace.
However, the soul receiving this unprecedented grace of union with God cannot say that it sees God face to face, because even here there is a very thin veil of faith, but so very thin that the soul can say that it sees God and talks with Him. It is "divinized." God allows the soul to know how much He loves it, and the soul sees that better and holier souls than itself have not received this grace. Therefore, it is filled with holy amazement, which maintains it in deep humility, and it steeps itself in its own nothingness and holy astonishment; and the more it humbles itself, the more closely God unites himself with it and descends to it.
The soul, at this moment is, as it were, hidden; its senses are inactive; in one moment, it knows God and drowns in Him. It knows the whole depth of the Unfathomable One, and the deeper this knowledge, the more ardently the soul desires Him
However, the soul receiving this unprecedented grace of union with God cannot say that it sees God face to face, because even here there is a very thin veil of faith, but so very thin that the soul can say that it sees God and talks with Him. It is "divinized." God allows the soul to know how much He loves it, and the soul sees that better and holier souls than itself have not received this grace. Therefore, it is filled with holy amazement, which maintains it in deep humility, and it steeps itself in its own nothingness and holy astonishment; and the more it humbles itself, the more closely God unites himself with it and descends to it.
The soul, at this moment is, as it were, hidden; its senses are inactive; in one moment, it knows God and drowns in Him. It knows the whole depth of the Unfathomable One, and the deeper this knowledge, the more ardently the soul desires Him
778 And God has given
me to understand that there is but one thing that is of infinite value in His
eyes, and that is love of God; love, love and once again, love; and nothing can
compare with a single act of pure love of God. Oh, with what inconceivable
favors God gifts a soul that loves Him sincerely! Oh, how happy is the soul who
already here on earth enjoys His special favors! And of such are the little and
humble souls.
792 I must never speak
of my own experiences. In suffering, I must seek relief in prayer. In doubts,
even the smallest, I must seek only the advice of my confessor. I must always
have a heart which is open to receive the sufferings of others, and drown my
own sufferings in the Divine Heart so that they would not be noticed on the
outside, in so far as possible.
I must always strive
for equanimity, no matter how stormy the circumstances might be. I must not
allow anything to disturb my interior calm and silence. Nothing can compare
with peace of soul. When I am wrongfully accused of something, I will not explain
myself; if the superior wants to know the truth, whether I was in the right or
not, let her find out from others rather than from me. My concern is to accept
everything with a humble inner disposition.
I will spend this
Advent in accordance with the directions of the Mother of God: in meekness and
humility.
838 + I marvel at how
many humiliations and sufferings that priest accepts in this whole matter. [153] I see
this at particular times, and I support him with my unworthy prayers. Only God
can give one such courage; otherwise one would give up. But I see with joy that
all these adversities contribute to God's greater glory. The Lord has few such
souls. O infinite eternity, you will make manifest the efforts of heroic souls,
because the earth rewards their efforts with hatred and ingratitude. Such souls
do not have friends; they are solitary. And in this solitude, they gain
strength; they draw their strength from God alone. With humility, but also with
courage, they stand firmly in the face of all the storms that beat upon them.
Like high-towering oaks, they are unmoved. And in this there is just this one
secret: that it's from God that they draw this strength, and everything
whatsoever they have need of, they have for themselves and for others. They not
only carry their own burden, but also know how to take on, and are capable of
taking on, the burdens of others. They are pillars of light along God's ways;
they live in light themselves and shed light upon others. They themselves live
on the heights, and know how to show the way to lesser ones and help them
attain those heights.
1000 In the terrible
desert of life,
O my sweetest Jesus,
Protect souls from disaster,
For You are the Fountain of Mercy.
Let the resplendence of Your rays,
O sweet Commander of our souls,
Let mercy change the world.
And you who have received this grace, serve Jesus.
Steep is the great highway I must travel,
But I fear nothing,
For the pure fount of mercy is flowing for my sake,
And, with it, strength for the humble soul.
I am exhausted and worn out,
But my conscience bears me witness
That I do all for the greater glory of the Lord,
The Lord who is my repose and my heritage.
[End of Notebook Two of the Diary.]
O my sweetest Jesus,
Protect souls from disaster,
For You are the Fountain of Mercy.
Let the resplendence of Your rays,
O sweet Commander of our souls,
Let mercy change the world.
And you who have received this grace, serve Jesus.
Steep is the great highway I must travel,
But I fear nothing,
For the pure fount of mercy is flowing for my sake,
And, with it, strength for the humble soul.
I am exhausted and worn out,
But my conscience bears me witness
That I do all for the greater glory of the Lord,
The Lord who is my repose and my heritage.
[End of Notebook Two of the Diary.]
1092 April 16, 1937.
Today, as God's Majesty swept over me, my soul understood that the Lord, so
very great though He is, delights in humble souls. The more a soul humbles
itself, the greater the kindness with which the Lord approaches it. Uniting
himself closely with it, He raises it to His very throne. Happy is the soul
whom the Lord himself defends. I have come to know that only love is of any
value; love is greatness; nothing, no works, can compare with a single act of pure
love of God.
1293 It so happened
that I fell again into a certain error, in spite of a sincere resolution not to
do so-even though the lapse was a minor imperfection and rather involuntary-and
at this I felt such acute pain in my soul that I interrupted my work and went
to the chapel for a while. Falling at the feet of Jesus, with love and a great
deal of pain, I apologized to the Lord, all the more ashamed because of the
fact that in my conversation with Him after Holy Communion this very morning I
had promised to be faithful to Him. Then I heard these words:If it hadn't
been for this small imperfection, you wouldn't have come to Me. Know that as
often as you come to Me, humbling yourself and asking My forgiveness, I pour
out a superabundance of graces on your soul, and your imperfection vanishes
before My eyes, and I see only your love and your humility. You lose nothing
but gain much...
1306 + O humility,
lovely flower, I see how few souls possess you. Is it because you are so
beautiful and at the same time so difficult to attain? O yes, it is both the
one and the other. Even God takes great pleasure in her. The floodgates of
heaven are open to a humble soul, and a sea of graces flows down upon her. O
how beautiful is a humble soul! From her heart, as from a center, rises a
varied and most pleasing fragrance which breaks through the skies and reaches
God himself, filling His Most Sacred Heart with joy. God refuses nothing to
such a soul; she is all-powerful and influences the destiny of the whole world.
God raises such a soul up to His very throne, and the more she humbles herself,
the more God stoops down to her, pursuing her with His graces and accompanying
her at every moment with His omnipotence. Such a soul is most deeply united
with God. O humility, strike deep roots in my whole being. O Virgin most pure,
but also most humble, help me to attain deep humility. Now I understand why
there are so few saints; it is because so few souls are deeply humble.
1321 Hail, most
merciful Heart of Jesus,
Living Fountain of all
graces,
Our sole shelter, our
only refuge;
In You I have the
light of hope.
Hail, most
compassionate Heart of my God,
Unfathomable living
Fount of Love
From which gushes life
for sinful man
And the Spring of all
sweetness.
Hail, open Wound of
the Most Sacred Heart,
From which the rays of
mercy issued forth
And from which it was
given us to draw life
With the vessel of
trust alone.
Hail, God's goodness,
incomprehensible,
Never to be measured
or fathomed,
Full of love and
mercy, though always holy,
Yet, like a good
mother, ever bent o'er us.
Hail, Throne of Mercy,
Lamb of God,
Who gave Your life in
sacrifice for me,
Before whom my soul
humbles itself daily,
Living in faith
profound.
[End of Notebook Four]
1361 This firm
resolution to become a saint is extremely pleasing to Me. I bless your efforts
and will give you opportunities to sanctify yourself. Be watchful that you lose
no opportunity that My providence offers you for sanctification. If you do not succeed
in taking advantage of an opportunity, do not lose your peace, but humble
yourself profoundly before Me and, with great trust, immerse yourself
completely in My mercy. In this way, you gain more than you have lost, because
more favor is granted to a humble soul than the soul itself asks for...
1415 I desire,
My dearly beloved daughter, that you practice the three virtues that are
dearest to Me-and most pleasing to God. The first is humility, humility, and
once again humility; the second virtue, purity; the third virtue, love of God.
As My daughter, you must especially radiate with these virtues. When
the conversation ended, She pressed me to Her Heart and disappeared. When I
regained the use of my senses, my heart became so wonderfully attracted to
these virtues; and I practice them faithfully. They are as though engraved in
my heart.
1436 + Lord, although
You often make known to me the thunders of Your anger, Your anger vanishes
before lowly souls. Although You are great, Lord, You allow yourself to be
overcome by a lowly and deeply humble soul. O humility, the most precious of
virtues, how few souls possess you! I see only a semblance of this virtue
everywhere, but not the virtue itself. Lord, reduce me to nothingness in my own
eyes that I may find grace in ' Yours.
1564 Jesus, hide me;
just as You have hidden Yourself under the form of the white Host, so hide me
from human eyes, and particularly hide the gifts which You so kindly grant me.
May I not betray outwardly what You are effecting in my soul. I am a white host
before You, O Divine Priest. Consecrate me Yourself, and may my transubstantiation
be known only to You. I stand before You each day as a sacrificial host and
implore Your mercy upon the world. In silence, and unseen, I will empty myself
before You; my pure and undivided love will burn, in profound silence, as a
holocaust. And may the fragrance of my love be wafted to the foot of Your
throne. You are the Lord of lords, but You delight in innocent and humble
souls.
1586 O my Jesus, You
see how very grateful I am to Father Sopocko, who has advanced Your work so
much. That soul, so humble, has had to endure all the storms. He has not
allowed himself to become discouraged by adversities, but has faithfully
responded to the call of God.
1602 Today the Lord
said to me, Daughter, when you go to confession, to this fountain of My
mercy, the Blood and Water which came forth from My Heart always flows down
upon your soul and ennobles it. Every time you go to confession, immerse
yourself entirely in My mercy, with great trust, so that I may pour the bounty
of My grace upon your soul. When you approach the confessional, know this, that
I Myself am waiting there for you. I am only hidden by the priest, but I myself
act in your soul. Here the misery of the soul meets the God of mercy. Tell
souls that from this fount of mercy souls draw graces solely with the vessel of
trust. If their trust is great, there is no limit to My generosity. The
torrents of grace inundate humble souls. The proud remain always in poverty and
misery, because My grace turns away from them to humble souls.
1605 Write
down everything that occurs to you regarding My goodness. I answered,
"What do You mean, Lord, what if I write too much?" And the Lord
replied, My daughter, even if you were to speak at one and the same
time in all human and angelic tongues, even then you would not have said very
much, but on the contrary, you would have sung in only a small measure the
praises of My goodness-of My unfathomable mercy.
O my Jesus, You Yourself must put words into my mouth, that I may praise You worthily.
My daughter, be at peace; do as I tell you. Your thoughts are united to My thoughts, so write whatever comes to your mind. You are the secretary of My mercy. I have chosen you for that office in this life and the next life. That is how I want it to be in spite all the opposition they will give you. Know that My choice will not change.
At that moment I steeped myself in profound humility before God's majesty. But the more I humbled myself, the more God's presence penetrated me...
O my Jesus, You Yourself must put words into my mouth, that I may praise You worthily.
My daughter, be at peace; do as I tell you. Your thoughts are united to My thoughts, so write whatever comes to your mind. You are the secretary of My mercy. I have chosen you for that office in this life and the next life. That is how I want it to be in spite all the opposition they will give you. Know that My choice will not change.
At that moment I steeped myself in profound humility before God's majesty. But the more I humbled myself, the more God's presence penetrated me...
1701 I asked the Lord
today that He might deign to teach me about the interior life, because of
myself I can neither understand nor conceive anything perfectly. The Lord
answered me, I was your Teacher, I am and I will be; strive to make
your heart like unto My humble and gentle Heart. Never claim your rights. Bear
with great calm and patience everything that befalls you. Do not defend
yourself when you are put to shame, though innocent. Let others triumph. Do not
stop being good when you notice that your goodness is being abused. I Myself will
speak up for you when it is necessary. Be grateful for the smallest of My
graces, because your gratitude compels Me to grant you new graces...
1711 When I was left
alone with the Blessed Virgin, She instructed me concerning the interior life.
She said,The soul's true greatness is in loving God and in humbling oneself
in His presence, completely forgetting oneself and believing oneself to be
nothing; because the Lord is great, but He is well pleased only with the
humble; He always opposes the proud.
1734 O my Jesus, You
know that there are times when I have neither lofty thoughts nor a soaring
spirit. I bear with myself patiently and admit that that is just what I am,
because all that is beautiful is a grace from God. And so I humble myself
profoundly and cry out for Your help; and the grace of visitation is not slow
in coming to the humble heart.
1742 Be praised,
merciful God, One God in the Holy Trinity,
Unfathomable, infinite, incomprehensible,
immersing themselves in You, their minds cannot comprehend You,
So they repeat without end their eternal: Holy.
Be glorified, O merciful Creator of ours, O Lord,
Omnipotent, but full of compassion, inconceivable.
To love You is the mission of our existence,
Singing our eternal hymn: Holy...
Be blessed, merciful God, Eternal Love.
You are above the heavens, the saphires, the firmaments.
The host of pure spirits sings You praises,
With its eternal hymn: Thrice Holy.
And, gazing upon You, face to face, O God,
I see that You could have called other creatures before them.
Therefore they humble themselves before You in great humility,
For well they see that this grace comes solely from Your mercy.
One of the most beautiful spirits would not recognize Your mercy,
And, blinded by his pride, he drew others after him.
Angel of great beauty, he became Satan
And was cast down in one moment from heaven's heights into hell.
Then the faithful spirits cried, "Glory to God's mercy!"
And they stood firm in spite of the fiery test.
Glory to Jesus, the Christ abased,
Glory to His Mother, the humble and pure Virgin.
After this battle, the pure spirits plunged into the ocean of Divinity;
Contemplating and praising the depths of His mercy,
They drown in His mercy and manifold light,
Possessing in knowledge the Trinity of Persons, the Oneness of Godhead.
Unfathomable, infinite, incomprehensible,
immersing themselves in You, their minds cannot comprehend You,
So they repeat without end their eternal: Holy.
Be glorified, O merciful Creator of ours, O Lord,
Omnipotent, but full of compassion, inconceivable.
To love You is the mission of our existence,
Singing our eternal hymn: Holy...
Be blessed, merciful God, Eternal Love.
You are above the heavens, the saphires, the firmaments.
The host of pure spirits sings You praises,
With its eternal hymn: Thrice Holy.
And, gazing upon You, face to face, O God,
I see that You could have called other creatures before them.
Therefore they humble themselves before You in great humility,
For well they see that this grace comes solely from Your mercy.
One of the most beautiful spirits would not recognize Your mercy,
And, blinded by his pride, he drew others after him.
Angel of great beauty, he became Satan
And was cast down in one moment from heaven's heights into hell.
Then the faithful spirits cried, "Glory to God's mercy!"
And they stood firm in spite of the fiery test.
Glory to Jesus, the Christ abased,
Glory to His Mother, the humble and pure Virgin.
After this battle, the pure spirits plunged into the ocean of Divinity;
Contemplating and praising the depths of His mercy,
They drown in His mercy and manifold light,
Possessing in knowledge the Trinity of Persons, the Oneness of Godhead.
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-55, 72, 93, 95, 113-115, 132-133, 138)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-159, 174, 178, 270, 282, 294, 320, 346)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-362, 424, 450)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-526, 532, 538, 544, 573, 576, 587, 593)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-771, 778, 792, 838, 1000)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-III-1092)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-IV-1293, 1306, 1321, 1361)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-V-1415, 1436, 1564, 1586)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-VI-11602, 1605, 1701, 1711, 1734, 1742)
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