Becoming the New You-Fast and Feast
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September 7, 2018. Friday
of the Twenty-Second Week in Ordinary Time
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Luke
5: 33-39
The scribes and Pharisees said to Jesus,
"The disciples of John fast often and offer prayers, and the disciples
of the Pharisees do the same; but yours eat and drink." Jesus answered
them, "Can you make the wedding guests fast while the bridegroom is with
them? But the days will come, and when the bridegroom is taken away from
them, then they will fast in those days." And he also told them a
parable. "No one tears a piece from a new cloak to patch an old one.
Otherwise, he will tear the new and the piece from it will not match the old
cloak. Likewise, no one pours new wine into old wineskins. Otherwise, the new
wine will burst the skins, and it will be spilled, and the skins will be
ruined. Rather, new wine must be poured into fresh wineskins. And no one who
has been drinking old wine desires new, for he says, ´The old is good.´"
Introductory Prayer: Lord God, I come from dust and to dust I
shall return. You, on the other hand, existed before all time, and every
creature takes its being from You. You formed me in my mother’s womb with
infinite care, You watch over me tenderly. I hope at my dearth You will
embrace my soul to carry me home to heaven to be with You forever. Thank You
for looking upon me and blessing me with Your love. Take mine in return. I
humbly offer You all that I am.
Petition: Rejuvenate my spiritual life, Lord.
1. Judging by the Wrong Standards: Once again, we have Jesus at a meal, this
time with Levi (Matthew) and his friends. The scribes and Pharisees have come
along to scrutinize Jesus and his followers, as they were wary of his
teachings which were not in accord with the legalism and formalism to which
they were accustomed. Their statement here about fasting contains an implicit
judgment: You and your followers are not following our traditions of fasting;
therefore, you cannot be truly holy. They present it not as a question, but
as a statement, an accusation. They are not open to looking at things in a
new way. We, too, can be guilty of rash judgment, even with other people in
the Church who do not do things the way we do. Our reference point has to be
not what we are used to, but what the Church, guided by the Holy Spirit,
teaches and approves, be it ancient traditions or new manifestations of the
Holy Spirit in the life of the Church.
2. For Everything There Is a Season: Jesus’ answer is simple: there is a time and
place for both fasting and feasting. Some people have a special vocation to a
life of unusual abnegation, but for most of us, the liturgical year provides
us with a natural cycle of rejoicing and penance. At times we rejoice with
the “bridegroom” – like Christmas and Easter when we celebrate the coming of
Christ and his resurrection. At other times we practice more penance – as in
Lent when we focus more on making reparation for the separation from the Lord
caused by sin in our lives, or in Advent when we purify our hearts to receive
the Lord at Christmas. Ordinary Time has its own feasts and occasions of
particular significance one way or the other. The question we have to ask
ourselves is this: Are we living these liturgical realities, or are we
neglecting them? Do the feasts and fasts of the Church affect my life, or are
the liturgical seasons at best curiosities that I hardly notice?
3. The New You: Then, Jesus offers all those present a
challenge in the form of the parable. Both images – the cloth and the
wineskins – emphasize the idea that in order to embrace his message we need
to think “outside the box”. We easily get settled into a routine, becoming
complacent and tepid in our faith. It’s even worse if we have habits of sin.
To follow Christ and his “Good News” truly, we need to leave behind what St.
Paul called the “old self” in order to be new creatures in Christ (Colossians
3:9-10). For the Pharisees, that would have meant leaving behind their strict
formalism and judgmental attitude. For Levi and his friends it meant
abandoning their worldliness and sinful lifestyle. Making a break with our
old self is difficult – the “old wine” is what we’re used to – but we have to
take the step of recognizing in what our old self consists and deciding to
leave that behind to embrace Christ’s message, which is always challenging,
ever new.
Conversation with Christ: Lord Jesus, help me to focus more on
following You than on judging others. Show me who I am, and whom You want me
to be. Grant me the grace to live the life of the Church – feasts and fasts –
with enthusiasm, so You can transform me into a new creature.
Resolution: I will make it a point to live today,
Friday, as a memorial of the death of Our Lord by offering a small sacrifice
as a penance for my sins, and I will live this coming Sunday with real joy as
the celebration of his resurrection.
Excerpts from the
DIARY of Saint Faustina Kowalska
1 O Eternal Love, You command Your
Sacred Image [1] to be painted And reveal
to us the inconceivable fount of mercy,
You bless whoever approaches Your rays, And a soul all black will turn into snow. O sweet Jesus, it is here [2] You established the throne of Your mercy To bring joy and hope to sinful man. From Your open Heart, as from a pure fount, Flows comfort to a repentant heart and soul. May praise and glory for this Image Never cease to stream from man's soul. May praise of God's mercy pour from every heart, Now, and at every hour, and forever and ever. O My God 2 When I look into the future, I am frightened, But why plunge into the future? Only the present moment is precious to me, As the future may never enter my soul at all. It is no longer in my power, To change, correct or add to the past; For neither sages nor prophets could do that. And so, what the past has embraced I must entrust to God. O present moment, you belong to me, whole and entire. I desire to use you as best I can. And although I am weak and small, You grant me the grace of your omnipotence. And so, trusting in Your mercy, I walk through life like a little child, Offering You each day this heart Burning with love for Your greater glory. + J.M.J. [Jesus, Mary, and Joseph]
3 God and souls King of Mercy, guide my soul.
Sister M. Faustina of the Blessed Sacrament Vilnius, July 28, 1934
4 O my Jesus, because of my trust in You, I weave
thousands of garlands, and I know That they will all blossom.
And I know that they will all blossom When God's sun will shine on them. + O great and Divine Sacrament That veils my God! Jesus, be with me each moment, And no fear will enter my heart. +Vilnius, July 28, 1934 J.M.J+ First notebook God and Souls.
5 Be adored, O Most Holy Trinity, now and for all time. Be
adored in all Your works and all Your creatures. May the greatness of Your
mercy be admired and glorified, O God.
6 I am to write [3] down the encounters of my soul with You, O
God, at the moments of Your special visitations. I am to write about You, O
Incomprehensible in mercy towards my poor soul. Your holy will is the life of
my soul. I have received this order through him who is for me Your
representative here on earth, who interprets Your holy Will to me. Jesus, You
see how difficult it is for me to write, how unable I am to put down clearly
what I experience in my soul. O God, can a pen write down that for which many
a time there are no words? But You give the order to write, O God; that is
enough for me.
69 +O Jesus, eternal Truth, strengthen my feeble forces;
You can do all things, Lord. I know that without You all my efforts are in
vain. O Jesus, do not hide from me, for I cannot live without You. Listen to
the cry of my soul. Your mercy has not been exhausted, Lord, so have pity on
my misery. Your mercy surpasses the understanding of all Angels and people
put together; and so, although it seems to me that You do not hear me, I put
my trust in the ocean of Your mercy, and I know that my hope will not be
deceived.
70 Only Jesus knows how burdensome and difficult it is to
accomplish one's duties when the soul is so interiorly tortured, the physical
powers so weakened and the mind darkened. In the silence of my heart I kept
saying to myself, "O Christ, may delights, honor and glory be Yours, and
suffering be mine. I will not lag one step behind as I follow You, though
thorns wound my feet."
75 But these doubts always come from without, a fact which
inclined me to close myself up more and more within myself. When, during
confession, I sense uncertainty on the part of the priest, I do not open my
soul to its depths, but only accuse myself of my sins. A priest who is not at
peace with himself will not be able to inspire peace in another soul.
O priests, you bright candles enlightening human souls, let your brightness never be dimmed. I understood that at that time it was not God's will that I uncover my soul completely. Later on, God did give me this grace.
76 O my Jesus, direct my mind, take possession of my whole
being, enclose me in the depths of Your heart, and protect me against the
assaults of the enemy. My only hope is in You. Speak through my mouth when I,
wretchedness itself, find myself with the mighty and wise, so that they will
know that this undertaking is Yours and comes from You.
81 O Holy Trinity, One and Indivisible God, may You be
blessed for this great gift and testament of mercy. My Jesus, to atone for
blasphemers I will keep silent when unjustly reprimanded and in this way make
partial amends to You. I am singing within my soul an unending hymn to You,
and no one will suspect or understand this. The song of my soul is known to
You alone, O my Creator and Lord!
83 Write this: before I come as the just Judge, I am
coming first as the King of Mercy. Before the day of justice arrives, there
will be given to people a sign in the heavens of this sort: All light in the
heavens will be extinguished, and there will be great darkness over the whole
earth. Then the sign of the cross will be seen in the sky, and from the
openings where the hands and the feet of the Savior were nailed will come
forth great lights which will light up the earth for a period of time. This will
take place shortly before the last day.
84 O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of
Jesus as a fount of mercy for us, I trust in You!
95 +A Deeper Knowledge of God and the Terror of the Soul.
In the beginning, God lets himself be known as Holiness, Justice, Goodness - that is to say, Mercy. The soul does not come to know this all at once, but piecemeal, in flashes; that is to say, when God draws near. And this does not last for long, because the soul could not bear such light. During prayer the soul experiences flashes of this light which make it impossible to pray as before. Try as it may to force itself to pray as it did before, all is in vain; it becomes completely impossible for it to continue to pray as it did before it received this light. This light which has touched the soul is alive within it, and nothing can either quench or diminish it. This flash of the knowledge of God draws the soul and enkindles its love for Him. But this same flash, at the same time, allows the soul to know itself as it is; the soul sees its whole interior in a superior light, and it rises up alarmed and terrified. Still, it does not remain under the effects of terror, but it begins to purify itself, to humble and abase itself before the Lord. These lights become stronger and more frequent; the more the soul is crystallized, the more these lights penetrate it. However, if the soul has responded faithfully and courageously to these first graces, God fills it with His consolations and gives himself to it in a perceptible manner. At certain moments, the soul, as it were, enters into intimacy with God and greatly rejoices in this; it believes that it has already reached the degree of perfection destined for it, because its defects and faults are asleep within it, and this makes it think that they no longer exist. Nothing seems difficult for it; it is ready for everything. It begins to plunge itself into God and taste the divine delights. It is carried along by grace and does not take account of the fact that the time of trial and testing may come. And, in fact, this state does not last long. Other moments will soon come. I should add here, however, that the soul will respond more faithfully to divine grace if it has a well - informed confessor to whom it can confide everything.
96 +Trials sent by God to a soul which is particularly
loved by Him.
Temptations and darkness; Satan. The soul's love [for God] is still not such as God would have it. The soul suddenly loses the tangible perception of God's presence. Various defects and imperfections rise up within it, and it must fight them furiously. All her faults lift up their heads, but the soul's vigilance is great. The former awareness of the presence of God gives place to coldness and spiritual dryness; the soul has no taste for spiritual exercises; it cannot pray, either in the old way, or in the manner in which it had just begun to pray. It struggles this way and that, but can find no satisfaction. God has hidden himself from it, and it can find no consolation in creatures, nor can any of these creatures find a way of consoling it. The soul craves passionately for God, but sees its own misery; it begins to sense God's justice; it seems to it that it has lost all the gifts that God had given it; its mind is dimmed, and darkness fills it; unspeakable torment begins. The soul tries to explain its state to the confessor, but it is not understood and is assailed by an even greater unrest. Satan begins his work.
97 Faith staggers under the impact; the struggle is
fierce. The soul tries hard to cling to God by an act of will. With God's
permission, Satan goes even further: hope and love are put to the test. These
temptations are terrible. God supports the soul in secret, so to speak. The
soul is not aware of this, but otherwise it would be impossible to stand
firm; and God knows very well how much He can allow to befall a soul. The
soul is tempted to unbelief in respect to revealed truths and to insincerity
toward the confessor. Satan says to it, "Look, no one understands you;
why speak about all this?" Words that terrify it sound in its ears, and
it seems to the soul that it is uttering these against God. It sees what it
does not want to see. It hears what it does not want to hear. And, oh, it is
a terrible thing at times like these not to have an experienced confessor!
The soul carries the whole burden alone. However, one should make every
effort to find, if it is at all possible, a well-informed confessor, for the
soul can collapse under the burden and come to the very edge of the
precipice. All these trials are heavy and difficult. God does not send them
to a soul which has not already been admitted to a deeper intimacy with Him
and which has not yet tasted the divine delights. Besides, in this God has
His own plans, which for us are impenetrable. God often prepares a soul in
this way for His future designs and great works. He wants to try it as pure
gold is tried. But this is not yet the end of the testing; there is still the
trial of trials, the complete abandonment of the soul by God.
98 When the soul comes out victorious from the preceding
trials, even though it may stumble here and there, it fights on valiantly,
humbly calling upon God, "Save me, I am perishing!" And it is still
able to fight on.
At this point, however, the soul is engulfed in a horrible night. It sees within itself only sin. It feels terrible. It sees itself completely abandoned by God. It feels itself to be the object of His hatred. It is but one step away from despair. The soul does its best to defend itself; it tries to stir up its confidence; but prayer is an even greater torment for it, as this prayer seems to arouse God to an even greater anger. The soul finds itself poised on the summit of a lofty mountain on the very brink of a precipice. The soul is drawn to God, but feels repulsed. All other sufferings and tortures in the world are as nothing compared with this sensation into which it has been plunged; namely, that of being rejected by God. No one can bring it any relief; it finds itself completely alone; there is no one to defend it. It raises its eyes to heaven, but is convinced that this is not for her-for her all is lost. It falls deeper and deeper from darkness to darkness, and it seems to it that it has lost forever the God it used to love so dearly. This thought is torture beyond all description. But the soul does not agree to it and tries to lift its gaze toward heaven, but in vain! And this makes the torture even more intense. If God wishes to keep the soul in such darkness, no one will be able to give it light. It experiences rejection by God in a vivid and terrifying manner. From its heart burst forth painful moans, so painful that no priest will comprehend it, unless he himself has been through these trials. In the midst of this, the evil spirit adds to the soul's suffering, mocking it: "Will you persist in your faithfulness? This is your reward; you are in our power!" But Satan has only as much influence over the soul as God allows him, and God knows how much we can bear. "What have you gotten out of your mortifications," says Satan, "and out of your fidelity to the rule? What use are all these efforts? You have been rejected by God!" This word, rejected, becomes a fire which penetrates every nerve to the marrow of the bone. It pierces right through her entire being. The ordeal reaches its climax. The soul no longer looks for help anywhere. It shrinks into itself and loses sight of everything; it is as though it has accepted the torture of being abandoned. This is a moment for which I have no words. This is the agony of the soul.
110 O Divine Master, what happens in my soul is Your work
alone! You, O Lord, are not afraid to place the soul on the edge of a
terrible precipice where it stands, alarmed and filled with fright, and then
You call it back again to Yourself. These are Your imponderable mysteries.
113 And again, I would like to say three words to the soul
that is determined to strive for sanctity and to derive fruit; that is to
say, benefit from confession.
First word-complete sincerity and openness. Even the holiest and wisest confessor cannot forcibly pour into the soul what he desires if it is not sincere and open. An insincere, secretive soul risks great dangers in the spiritual life, and even the Lord Jesus Himself does not give Himself to such a soul on a higher level, because He knows it would derive no benefit from these special graces. Second word-humility. A soul does not benefit as it should from the sacrament of confession if it is not humble. Pride keeps it in darkness. The soul neither knows how, nor is it willing, to probe with precision the depths of its own misery. It puts on a mask and avoids everything that might bring it recovery. Third word-obedience. A disobedient soul will win no victory, even if the Lord Jesus himself, in person, were to hear its confession. The most experienced confessor will be of no help whatsoever to such a soul. The disobedient soul exposes itself to great misfortunes; it will make no progress toward perfection, nor will it succeed in the spiritual life. God lavishes His graces most generously upon the soul, but it must be an obedient soul.
114 +Oh, how pleasing are the hymns flowing from a
suffering soul! All heaven delights in such a soul, especially when it is
tested by God. It mournfully sings out its longing for Him. Great is its
beauty, because it comes from God. The soul walks through the jungle of life,
wounded by God's love. With one foot only it touches the ground.
115 + When a soul has come out of these tribulations, it
is deeply humble. Its purity of soul is great. It knows better without need
of reflecting, as it were, what it ought to do at a given moment and what to
forbear. It feels the lightest touch of grace and is very faithful to God. It
recognizes God from afar and continuously rejoices in Him. It discovers God
very quickly in other souls and in its environment in general. The soul has
been purified by God himself. God, as Pure Spirit, introduces the soul to a
life which is purely spiritual. God himself has first prepared and purified
the soul; that is, He has made it capable of close communion with himself.
The soul, in a state of loving repose, communes spiritually with the Lord. It
speaks to God without the need of expressing itself through the senses. God
fills it with His light.
The enlightened mind sees clearly and distinguishes the various degrees of the spiritual life. It recognizes [that state] when its union with God was imperfect: where the senses were involved, and the spirit was linked with the senses in a manner-exalted and special, to be sure but not yet perfect. There is a higher and more perfect union with God; namely, intellectual union. Here, the soul is safer from illusions; its spirituality is purer and more profound. In a life where the senses are involved, there is more danger of illusion. Both for the soul and for its confessor, prudence must play a greater part. There are moments when God introduces the soul to a purely spiritual state. The senses dim and are seemingly dead. The soul is most closely united to God; it is immersed in the Deity; its knowledge is complete and perfect, not sporadic as before, but total and absolute. It rejoices in this. But I want to say more about those moments of trial; at those times the confessor must have patience with such a soul. But the soul must have even greater patience with itself.
116 My Jesus, You know what my soul goes through at the
recollection of these sufferings. I have often marvelled that the angels and
saints hold their peace at the sight of a soul suffering like that. Yet they
have special love for us at such moments. My soul has often cried out after
God, as a little child who cries as loudly as he can when his mother covers
her face and he cannot recognize her. O my Jesus, honor and glory to You for
these trials of love! Great and incomprehensible is your mercy. All that You
intended for my soul, O Lord, is steeped in Your mercy.
131 But I will simply mention here that these various
sufferings had come to a peak, and I resolved to put an end to these doubts
of mine before my perpetual vows. Throughout my probation, I prayed for light
for the priest to whom I was to open up my soul to its depths. I asked God
that He himself would help me and grant me the grace to be able to express
even the most secret things that exist between me and Him and to be so
disposed that, whatever the priest would decide, I would accept as coming
from Jesus himself. No matter what judgment he would pass on me, all I wanted
was the truth and a decisive answer to certain questions. I put myself
completely in God's hands, and [all] my soul desired was the truth. I could
not go on living in doubt any longer although, in the depths of my soul, I
was so very sure that these things came from God, that I would lay down my
life for this. However, I placed the confessor's opinion above all, and I
made up my mind to do as he thought best and to act according to the advice
that he would give me. I looked forward to that moment which would decide the
course of my actions for the rest of my life. I knew that everything would
depend on this. It mattered little whether what he would say to me would be
in accord with my inspirations or quite the contrary; this no longer mattered
to me. I wanted to know the truth and follow it.
Jesus, You can help me! From this moment, I have begun anew. I conceal all the graces within my soul and await whomsoever the Lord will send me. With no doubt in my heart, I asked the Lord himself to deign to help me during these moments, and a courage of sorts entered my soul.
134 + O my Jesus, You have tested me so many times in this
short life of mine! I have come to understand so many things, and even such
that now amaze me. Oh, how good it is to abandon oneself totally to God and
to give Him full freedom to act in one's soul!
140 Pure love is capable of great deeds, and it is not
broken by difficulty or adversity. As it remains strong in the midst of great
difficulties, so too it perseveres in the toilsome and drab life of each day.
It knows that only one thing is needed to please God: to do even the smallest
things out of great love-love, and always love.
Pure love never errs. Its light is strangely plentiful. It will not do anything that might displease God. It is ingenious at doing what is more pleasing to God, and no one will equal it. It is happy when it can empty itself and burn like a pure offering. The more it gives of itself, the happier it is. But also, no one can sense dangers from afar as can love; it knows how to unmask and also knows with whom it has to deal.
282 Once the Lord said to me, My Heart was moved by
great mercy towards you, My dearest child, when I saw you torn to shreds
because of the great pain you suffered in repenting for your sins. I see your
love, so pure and true that I give you first place among the virgins. You are
the honor and glory of My Passion. I see every abasement of your soul, and
nothing escapes my attention. I lift up the humble even to my very throne,
because I want it so.
374 J.M.J Vilnius, Februrary 4, 1935
[page in the Dairy with the words "From today on my will does not exist" crossed out with a large 'X'] The moment I knelt down to cross out my own will, as the Lord had bid me to do, I heard this voice in my soul:From today on, do not fear God's judgment, for you will not be judged [The next page has...] J.M.J Vilnius, February 4, 1935 From today on, I do the Will of God everywhere, always, and in everything.[88]
378 Once as I was talking with my spiritual director, I
had an interior vision-quicker than lightning-of his soul in great suffering,
in such agony that God touches very few souls with such fire. The suffering
arises from this work. There will come a time when this work, which God is
demanding so very much, will be as though utterly undone. And then God will
act with great power, which will give evidence of its authenticity. It will
be a new splendor for the Church, although it has been dormant in it from
long ago. That God is infinitely merciful, no one can deny. He desires
everyone to know this before He comes again as Judge. He wants souls to come
to know Him first as King of Mercy. When this triumph comes, we shall already
have entered the new life in which there is no suffering. But before this,
your soul [of the spiritual director] will be surfeited with bitterness at
the sight of the destruction of your efforts. However, this will only appear
to be so, because what God has once decided upon, He does not change. But
although this destruction will be such only in outward appearance, the
suffering will be real. When will this happen? I do not know. How long will
it last? I do not know.[89] But God has promised a great grace
especially to you and to all those... who will proclaim My great mercy. I
shall protect them Myself at the hour of death, as My own glory. And even if
the sins of soul are as dark as night, when the sinner turns to My mercy he
gives Me the greatest praise and is the glory of My Passion. When a soul
praises My goodness, Satan trembles before it and flees to the very bottom of
hell.
423 Praise the Lord, my soul, for everything, and glorify
His mercy, for His goodness is without end. Everything will pass, but His
mercy is without limit or end. And although evil will attain its measure, in
mercy there is no measure.
O my God, even in the punishments You send down upon the earth I see the abyss of Your mercy, for by punishing us here on earth You free us from eternal punishment. Rejoice, all you creatures, for you are closer to God in His infinite mercy than a baby to its mother's heart. O God, You are compassion itself for the greatest sinners who sincerely repent. The greater the sinner, the greater his right to God's mercy.
496 Confession Day. From early morning, the turmoil in my
soul was more violent than anything I had ever experienced before. Complete
abandonment by God; I felt the utter weakness that I was. Thoughts bore in
upon me: why should I leave this convent where I am loved by the sisters and
superiors, where life is so tranquil; [where I am] bound by perpetual vows
and carry out my duties without difficulty; why should I listen to the voice
of my conscience; why follow an inspiration coming from who knows where;
wouldn't it be better to carry on like all the other sisters? Perhaps the
Lord's words could be stifled, not taken heed of; maybe God will not demand
an account of them on the day of judgment. Where will this inner voice lead
me? If I follow it, what tremendous difficulties, tribulations and
adversities are in store for me. I fear the future, and I am agonizing in the
present.
This suffering continued with the same intensity throughout the whole day. When, in the evening, my turn came for confession, I could not make a full confession, even though I had been preparing for a long time. I received absolution and left, not knowing what was going on within me. When I went to bed, the suffering grew even worse; or rather, it changed into a fire which penetrated all the faculties of my soul like lightning, piercing me to the marrow, and to the most secret recesses of my heart. In the midst of this suffering, I was unable to bring myself to do anything. "Your will be done, Lord." At times I could not even think these words. Truly, a deadly fear had taken hold of me, and the flames of hell were touching me. Toward morning, silence set in, and my tribulations disappeared in the twinkling of an eye, but I felt so frightfully exhausted that I could not even move. During my conversation with Mother Superior, my strength returned bit by bit, but God alone knows how I felt throughout that whole day.
566 One day, after Holy Communion, I suddenly saw the
Infant Jesus standing by my kneeler and holding on to it with His two little
hands. Although He was but a little Child, my soul was filled with awe and
fear, for I see in Him my Judge, my Lord, and my Creator, before whose
holiness the Angels tremble. At the same time, my soul was flooded with such
unspeakable love that I thought I would die under its influence. I now see
that Jesus first strengthens my soul and makes it capable of abiding with
Him, for otherwise I would not be able to bear what I experience at such a
moment.
660 O my Jesus, on the day of the last judgment, You will
demand from me an account of this work of mercy. O just Judge, but my Spouse
as well, help me to do Your holy will. O mercy, O divine virtue!
O most merciful Heart of Jesus, my Betrothed, make my heart like unto Yours.
717 All night long, I was preparing to receive Holy
Communion, since I could not sleep because of physical suffering. My soul was
flooded with love and repentance.
852 Today the Lord's gaze shot through me suddenly, like
lightning. At once, I came to know the tiniest specks in my soul, and knowing
the depths of my misery, I fell to my knees and begged the Lord's pardon, and
with great trust I immersed myself in His infinite mercy. Such knowledge does
not depress me nor keep me away from the Lord, but rather it arouses in my
soul greater love and boundless trust. The repentance of my heart is linked
to love. These extraordinary flashes from the Lord educate my soul. O sweet
rays of God, enlighten me to the most secret depth, for I want to arrive at
the greatest possible purity of heart and soul.
854 December 29, [1936]. Today after Holy Communion, I
heard a voice in my soul: My daughter, stand ready, for I will come
unexpectedly. Jesus, You do not want to tell me the hour I am looking
forward to with such longing? My daughter, it is for your own good. You
will learn it, but not now; keep watch. O Jesus, do with me as You
please. I know You are the merciful Savior and You will not change towards me
at the hour of my death. If at this time you are showing me so much special
love, and are condescending to unite Yourself with me is such an intimate way
and with such great kindness, I expect even more at the hour of my death.
You, my Lord-God, cannot change. You are always the same. Heaven can change,
as well as everything that is created; but You, Lord, are ever the same and
will endure forever. So come as You like and when You like. Father of
infinite mercy, I, Your child, wait longingly for Your coming. O Jesus, You
said in the Holy Gospel, "Out of your mouth do I judge you." Well,
Jesus, I am always speaking of Your inconceivable mercy, so I trust that You
will judge me according to Your unfathomable mercy.
895 January 23, [1937]. I did not feel like writing today.
Then I heard a voice in my soul:My daughter, you do not live for yourself
but for souls; write for their benefit. You know that My will as to your
writing has been confirmed many times by your confessors. You know what is
pleasing to Me, and if you have any doubts about what I am saying, you also
know whom you are to ask. I grant him light to pronounce judgment on my case.
My eye watches over him. My daughter, you are to be like a child towards him,
full of simplicity and candor. Put his judgment above all My demands. He will
guide you according to My will. If he doesn't allow you to carry out My
demands, be at peace; I will not judge you, but the matter will remain
between Me and him. You are to be obedient.
934 Small practices for Lent. Although I wish and desire
to do so, I cannot practice big mortifications as before, because I am under
the strict surveillance of the doctor. But I can practice little things:
first-sleep without a pillow; keep myself a little hungry; every day, with my
arms outstretched, say the chaplet which the Lord taught me; occasionally,
with arms outstretched, for an indefinite period of time pray informally.
Intention: to beg divine mercy for poor sinners, and for priests, the power
to bring sinful hearts to repentance.
1052 O my Jesus, I beg You on behalf of the whole Church:
Grant it love and the light of Your Spirit, and give power to the words of
priests so that hardened hearts might be brought to repentance and return to
You, O Lord. Lord, give us holy priests; You yourself maintain them in
holiness. O Divine and Great High Priest, may the power of Your mercy
accompany them everywhere and protect them from the devil's traps and snares
which are continually being set for the souls of priests. May the power of
Your mercy, O Lord, shatter and bring to naught all that might tarnish the
sanctity of priests, for You can do all things.
1054
When Jesus was taking leave of me, such great pain filled my soul that it is
impossible to express it. Physical strength left me; I left the chapel
quickly and went to bed. I was oblivious of what was going on around me. My
soul was filled with longing for the Lord, and all the bitterness of His
Divine Heart was imparted to me. This lasted for about three hours. I asked
the Lord to protect me from the eyes of those around me. Although I wanted
to, I could not take any food all day, until evening.
I earnestly desired to spend the whole night with Jesus in the dark prison cell. [184] I prayed until eleven o'clock. At eleven, the Lord said to me, Lie down and take your rest. I have let you experience in three hours what I suffered during the whole night. And immediately I went to bed. I had no physical strength left; the suffering had deprived me of it completely. Throughout all this time, I had been in a sort of swoon. Every beat of Jesus' Heart was reflected in my heart and pierced my soul. If these tortures had concerned me only, I would have suffered less; but as I looked at the One whom my heart has loved with all its might and saw that He was suffering, and that I could not bring Him any relief, my heart dissolved in love and bitterness. I was dying with Him, and yet I could not die. But I would not have exchanged that martyrdom for all the pleasures in the whole world. In the course of this suffering, my love grew immeasurably. I know that the Lord was supporting me with His omnipotence, for otherwise I would not have been able to endure it for even a moment. Together with Him, I underwent, in a special way, all the various tortures. The world still has no idea of all that Jesus suffered. I accompanied Him to the Garden of Gethsemane; I stayed with Him in the prison; I went with Him before the judges; I underwent with Him each of the tortures. Not a single one of His movements or looks escaped my notice. I came to know all the omnipotence of His love and of His mercy toward souls.
1059 Jesus is commanding me to
make a novena before the Feast of Mercy, and today I am to begin it for the
conversion of the whole world and for the recognition of The Divine Mercy... so
that every soul will praise My goodness. I desire trust from My creatures.
Encourage souls to place great trust in My fathomless mercy. Let the weak,
sinful soul have no fear to approach Me, for even if it had more sins than
there are grains of sand in the world, all would be drowned in the
unmeasurable depths of My mercy.
1064 + O my most sweet Master, good Jesus, I give You my
heart. You shape and mold it after Your liking. O fathomless love, I open the
calyx of my heart to You, like a rosebud to the freshness of dew. To You
alone, my Betrothed, is known the fragrance of the flower of my heart. Let
the fragrance of my sacrifice be pleasing to You. O Immortal God, my
everlasting delight, already here on earth You are my heaven. May every beat
of my heart be a new hymn of praise to You, O Holy Trinity! Had I as many
hearts as there are drops of water in the ocean or grains of sand in the
whole world, I would offer them all to You, O my Love, O Treasure of my
heart! Whomever I shall meet in my life, no matter who they may be, I want to
draw them all to love You, O my Jesus, my Beauty, my Repose, my sole Master,
Judge, Savior and Spouse, all in one; I know that one title will modify the
other-I have entrusted everything to Your mercy.
1074 When I went for adoration, I heard these words: My
beloved daughter, write down these words, that today My Heart has rested in
this convent [the Cracow house]. Tell the world about My mercy and My
love.
The flames of mercy are burning me. I desire to pour them out upon human souls. Oh, what pain they cause Me when they do not want to accept them! My daughter, do whatever is within your power to spread devotion to My mercy. I will make up for what you lack. Tell aching mankind to snuggle close to My merciful Heart, and I will fill it -with peace. Tell [all people], My daughter, that I am Love and Mercy itself. When a soul approaches Me with trust, I fill it with such an abundance of graces that it cannot contain them within itself, but radiates them to other souls.
1075 Souls who spread the honor of My mercy I shield
through their entire lives as a tender mother her infant, and at the hour of
death I will not be a Judge for them, but the Merciful Savior. At that last
hour, a soul has nothing with which to defend itself except My mercy. Happy
is the soul that during its lifetime immersed itself in the Fountain of
Mercy, because justice will have no hold on it.
1076 Write this: Everything that exists is enclosed in
the bowels of My mercy, more deeply than an infant in its mother's womb. How
painfully distrust of My goodness wounds Me! Sins of distrust wound Me most
painfully.
1093 + O Jesus, shield me with Your mercy and also judge
me leniently, or else Your justice may rightly damn me.
1146 [Let] the greatest sinners place their trust in My
mercy. They have the right before others to trust in the abyss of My mercy.
My daughter, write about My mercy towards tormented souls. Souls that make an
appeal to My mercy delight Me. To such souls I grant even more graces than
they ask. I cannot punish even the greatest sinner if he makes an appeal to
My compassion, but on the contrary, I justify him in My unfathomable and
inscrutable mercy. Write: before I come as a just Judge, I first open wide
the door of My mercy. He who refuses to pass through the door of My mercy
must pass through the door of My justice...
1158 A member of this group ought to perform at least one
act of mercy a day; at least one, but there can be many more, for such deeds
can easily be carried out by anyone, even the very poorest. For there are
three ways of performing an act of mercy: the merciful word, by forgiving and
by comforting; secondly, if you can offer no word, then pray-that too is
mercy; and thirdly, deeds of mercy. And when the Last Day comes, we shall be
judged from this, and on this basis we shall receive the eternal verdict.
1159 God's floodgates have been opened for us. Let us want
to take advantage of them before the day of God's justice arrives. And that
will be a dreadful day!
1317 I understand Your words, Lord, and the magnitude of
the mercy that ought to shine in my soul. Jesus: I know, My daughter, that
you understand it and that you do everything within your power. But write
this for the many souls who are often worried because they do not have the
material means with which to carry out an act of mercy. Yet spiritual mercy,
which requires neither permissions nor storehouses, is much more meritorious
and is within the grasp of every soul. If a soul does not exercise mercy
somehow or other, it will not obtain My mercy on the day of judgment. Oh, if
only souls knew how to gather eternal treasure for themselves, they would not
be judged, for they would forestall My judgment with their mercy.
1426 Christ, give me souls. Let anything You like happen
to me, but give me souls in return. I want the salvation of souls. I want
souls to know Your mercy. I have nothing left for myself, because I have
given everything away to souls, with the result that on the day of judgment I
will stand before You empty-handed, since I have given everything away to
souls. Thus You will have nothing on which to judge me, and we shall meet on
that day: Love and mercy... + J. M. J.
1515 + I spent this whole night
with Jesus in the dark dungeon. This was a night of adoration. The sisters
were praying in the chapel, and I was uniting myself with them in spirit,
because poor health prevents me from going to the chapel. But all night long
I could not fall asleep, so I spent the night in the dark prison with Jesus.
Jesus gave me to know of the sufferings He experienced there. The world will
learn about them on the day of judgment.
1528 + When I complained to the
Lord Jesus about a certain person [saying], "Jesus, how can this person
pass judgment like that, even about an intention?" the Lord answered, Do
not be surprised. That soul does not even know her own self, so how could she
pass a fair judgment on another soul?
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-I-1-6, 69-70, 75-60, 81, 83-84)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-95-97, 98, 110, 113-116, 120, 131)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-282,
374, 378)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-I-423, 496)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-II-566, 660, 717, 852, 854, 895, 934)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-III-1052, 1054, 1059, 1064, 1074-1076)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-III-1093, 1146, 1158-1159)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-IV-1317)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-V-1426, 1515, 1528)
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