Give
and Gifts Will be Given to You
Seventh Sunday of Ordinary Time
Luke 6:27-38
Jesus said to his disciples, “But to
you who hear I say, love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless
those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. To the person who strikes
you on one cheek, offer the other one as well, and from the person who takes
your cloak, do not withhold even your tunic. Give to everyone who asks of you,
and from the one who takes what is yours do not demand it back. Do to others as
you would have them do to you. For if you love those who love you, what credit
is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. And if you do good to
those who do good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do the same.
If you lend money to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit (is)
that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners and get back the same amount. But
rather, love your enemies and do good to them, and lend expecting nothing back;
then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, for
he himself is kind to the ungrateful and the wicked. Be merciful, just as
(also) your Father is merciful. Stop judging and you will not be judged. Stop
condemning and you will not be condemned. Forgive and you will be forgiven.
Give and gifts will be given to you; a good measure, packed together, shaken
down, and overflowing, will be poured into your lap. For the measure with which
you measure will in return be measured out to you.”
Introductory Prayer: Lord,
I wish to open my heart and let Your Gospel message penetrate me and change my
life. I believe that You love me and that You died for me; yet when tested by
the demands of the Gospel, my faith and generosity waiver. Nevertheless, once
more I confess my faith in You and my determination to work to please you
alone.
Petition: Dear
Jesus, give me meekness and gentleness of heart like You.
1. Love Your Enemies. Not all of us encounter people who hate, curse and strike
us. Do I have enemies? How can this part of the Gospel apply to me? Who are my
enemies? We need to treat everyone in our lives with the same exquisite
charity. If we were suffering under great persecution, we might say that we
were ready to lay down our lives for Christ. But the “enemies” that are hardest
to love are often not what we could really call enemies. They are bothersome
coworkers, siblings, parents or children. Sometimes the heroic virtue is in
treating such persons with exquisite charity and kindness.
2. Love Those Who Love
You. “If you love those who love you,
what credit is that to you?” Christ is addressing our purity of intention. What
is my motivation in the things that I do every day? Is it all for Christ? If I
could divide my day into minutes and chart the time I spend thinking about what
I want compared to the time I spend thinking about what Christ wants, what
would that chart look like? What drives me? How often do I even think about my
intentions?
3. Be Merciful. Anger and impatience are often the result of a frustrated
sense of injustice. This situation needs a remedy, and I am the one who will
apply it! Do I struggle with anger and impatience? Do I lose my cool several
times a day? Perhaps I need a little more mercy in my heart. God is so good and
merciful to us. How is my heart? Do I demand justice of everyone else while
ignoring the “plank” in my own eye? Mercy could be the secret way to more peace
and serenity in my life.
Conversation with Christ: Lord,
you have been so good to me, even at the many times in my life when I have been
intolerably demanding on others. Rid my heart of hatred and grudges. Let me
forgive past offenses—even when the offender has never asked for pardon, even
when the offender rejoices in the offense committed against me. You forgave
your torturers from the cross. Help me do the same with mine.
Resolution: I will
spend five minutes today looking inside my heart to see if there is somebody
against whom I hold a grudge or hatred, and I will forgive them.
Excerpts from the DIARY of
Saint Faustina Kowalska
Darkness
and Temptations
77 My mind became dimmed in a strange way; no truth seemed clear to me. When people spoke to me about God, my heart was like a rock. I could not draw from it a single sentiment of love for Him. When I tried, by an act of the will, to remain close to Him, I experienced great torments, and it seemed to me that I was only provoking God to an even greater anger. It was absolutely impossible for me to meditate as I had been accustomed to do in the past. I felt in my soul a great void, and there was nothing with which I could fill it. I began to suffer from a great hunger and yearning for God, but I saw my utter powerlessness. I tried to read slowly, sentence by sentence, and to meditate in this way, but this also was of no avail. I understood nothing of what I had read.
The abyss of my misery was constantly before my eyes. Every time I entered the chapel for some spiritual exercise, I experienced even worse torments and temptations. More than once, all through Holy Mass, I had to struggle against blasphemous thoughts which were forcing themselves to my lips. I felt an aversion for the Holy Sacraments, and it seemed to me that I was not profiting from them in any way. It was only out of obedience to my confessor that I frequented them, and this blind obedience was for me the only path I could follow and my very last hope of survival. The priest explained to me that these were trials sent by God and that, in the situation I was in, not only was I not offending God, but I was most pleasing to Him. "This is a sign," he told me, "that God loves you very much and that He has great confidence in you, since He is sending you such trials." But these words brought me no comfort; it seemed to me that they did not apply to me at all.
One thing did surprise me: it often happened that, at the time when I was suffering greatly, these terrible torments would disappear suddenly just as I was approaching the confessional; but as soon as I had left the confessional, all these torments would again seize me with even greater ferocity. I would then fall on my face before the Blessed Sacrament repeating these words: "Even if You kill me, still will I trust in You!" [cf. Job 13:15] It seemed to me that I would die in these agonies. But the most terrible thought for me was the conviction that I had been rejected by God. Then other thoughts came to me: why strive to acquire virtues and do good works? why mortify and annihilate yourself? what good is it to take vows? to pray? to sacrifice and immolate yourself? why sacrifice myself all the time? what good is it - if I am already rejected by God? why all these efforts? And here, God alone knew what was going on in my heart.
77 My mind became dimmed in a strange way; no truth seemed clear to me. When people spoke to me about God, my heart was like a rock. I could not draw from it a single sentiment of love for Him. When I tried, by an act of the will, to remain close to Him, I experienced great torments, and it seemed to me that I was only provoking God to an even greater anger. It was absolutely impossible for me to meditate as I had been accustomed to do in the past. I felt in my soul a great void, and there was nothing with which I could fill it. I began to suffer from a great hunger and yearning for God, but I saw my utter powerlessness. I tried to read slowly, sentence by sentence, and to meditate in this way, but this also was of no avail. I understood nothing of what I had read.
The abyss of my misery was constantly before my eyes. Every time I entered the chapel for some spiritual exercise, I experienced even worse torments and temptations. More than once, all through Holy Mass, I had to struggle against blasphemous thoughts which were forcing themselves to my lips. I felt an aversion for the Holy Sacraments, and it seemed to me that I was not profiting from them in any way. It was only out of obedience to my confessor that I frequented them, and this blind obedience was for me the only path I could follow and my very last hope of survival. The priest explained to me that these were trials sent by God and that, in the situation I was in, not only was I not offending God, but I was most pleasing to Him. "This is a sign," he told me, "that God loves you very much and that He has great confidence in you, since He is sending you such trials." But these words brought me no comfort; it seemed to me that they did not apply to me at all.
One thing did surprise me: it often happened that, at the time when I was suffering greatly, these terrible torments would disappear suddenly just as I was approaching the confessional; but as soon as I had left the confessional, all these torments would again seize me with even greater ferocity. I would then fall on my face before the Blessed Sacrament repeating these words: "Even if You kill me, still will I trust in You!" [cf. Job 13:15] It seemed to me that I would die in these agonies. But the most terrible thought for me was the conviction that I had been rejected by God. Then other thoughts came to me: why strive to acquire virtues and do good works? why mortify and annihilate yourself? what good is it to take vows? to pray? to sacrifice and immolate yourself? why sacrifice myself all the time? what good is it - if I am already rejected by God? why all these efforts? And here, God alone knew what was going on in my heart.
93
+A Short Version of the Catechism of the Vows[39]
Q. What is a vow?
A. A vow is a voluntary promise made to God, to carry out a more perfect act.
Q. Is a vow binding in a matter which is the object of a commandment?
A. Yes. The carrying out of an act which is the object of a commandment has a double value and merit; and the neglect of such an act is a double transgression and evil, because by breaking such a vow we add to the sin against the commandment, the sin of sacrilege.
Q. Why do religious vows have such value?
A. Because they are the foundation of the religious life approved by the Church, in which the members bound together in a religious community undertake to strive always for perfection by means of the three religious vows of poverty, chastity and obedience, observed according to the rules.
Q. What is the meaning of the words, "strive for perfection?"
A. To strive for perfection means that the religious life does not in itself demand that perfection be already attained, but obliges, under the pain of sin, that we work daily to attain it. Therefore, a religious who does not want to become perfect neglects his principal duty of state.
Q. What are "solemn" religious vows?
A. " Solemn" religious vows are so absolute that, in extraordinary cases, only the Holy Father can dispense from them.
Q. What are simple religious vows?
A. These are vows which are less absolute - the Holy See dispenses from perpetual and annual vows.
Q. What is the difference between a vow and a virtue?
A. A vow pertains only to that which is commanded under pain of sin; the virtue goes beyond this and helps in the carrying out of the vow; on the other hand, by breaking the vow we fail in the virtue and do it damage.
Q. To what do the religious vows oblige us?
A. The religious vows oblige us to strive to acquire the virtues and to submit ourselves completely to our Superiors and to the Rules which are in force; thus the religious gives his own person to the Community, renouncing every right over himself and his actions, which he sacrifices to the service of God.
The Vow of Poverty
The vow of poverty is the voluntary renunciation of the right over property or to the use of such property with the purpose of pleasing God.
Q. What objects does the vow of poverty concern?
A. All those goods and those objects which appertain to the Community. We have no longer any right over anything that has been given to us, once it has been accepted, whether an article or money. All these donations and presents, which may have been given us out of gratitude or in any other way, belong by right to the Community. We cannot make use, without violating the vow, of any wages we may receive for work or even any annuity.
Q. When do we break or violate the vow in a matter which entails the seventh commandment?
A. We break or violate it when, without permission, we take for ourselves anything that belongs to the house; when, without permission, we retain something in order to appropriate it; and when, without authorization, we sell or exchange something that belongs to the Community. When we make use of an object for some other purpose than that intended by the Superior. When we give to, or accept from another, anything whatsoever without permission. When by negligence we destroy or damage something. When, in going from one house to another, we take something with us without permission. In a situation where the vow is broken, the religious is bound to restitution to the Community.
The Virtue of Poverty
This is an evangelical virtue which impels the heart to detach itself from temporal things; the religious, in virtue of his profession, is strictly obliged to it.
Q. When do we sin against the virtue of poverty? When we desire something, contrary to this virtue. When we become attached to something, and when we make use of superfluous things. How many degrees of poverty are there and what are they?
A. There are, in practice, four degrees of poverty for one who is a professed religious: to dispose of nothing without the consent of the Superiors (the strict matter of the vow); to avoid superfluities and be content with necessities (this pertains to the virtue); to readily content oneself with things of inferior quality in what concerns one's cell, clothing, nourishment, etc., and to experience this contentment interiorly; to rejoice in extreme poverty.
The Vow of Chastity
Q. To what does this vow oblige us?
A. To renounce marriage and to avoid everything that is forbidden by the sixth and ninth commandments.
Q. Is a fault against the virtue a violation of the vow?
A. Every fault against the virtue is at the same time a violation of the vow, because here there is no difference, as in the case of poverty and obedience, between the vow and the virtue.
Q. Is every bad thought a sin?
A. No, every bad thought is not a sin; it becomes so only when the acquiescence of the will and consent are joined to the consideration of the mind.
Q. Is there anything, over and above sins against chastity, which is detrimental to the virtue?
A. Lack of custody of the senses, of the imagination, of the feelings; familiarity and sentimental friendships are detrimental to the virtue.
Q. What are the means by which this virtue may be preserved?
A. To conquer interior temptations with the thought of the presence of God, and moreover to fight without fear. And for exterior temptations, to avoid occasions. There are, in all, seven principal means: to guard the senses, to avoid occasions, to avoid idleness, to remove temptations promptly, to remove oneself from all - and especially particular friendships, the spirit of mortification, and to reveal all these temptations to one's confessor.
Besides this, there are also five means of preserving this virtue: humility, the spirit of prayer, modesty of the eyes, fidelity to the rule, a sincere devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary.
The Vow of Obedience
The vow of obedience is superior to the first two. It is, to tell the truth, a holocaust, and it is more necessary because it forms and animates the monastic body.
Q. To what does the vow of obedience oblige us?
A. By the vow of obedience, the religious promises to God to be obedient to his legitimate superiors in everything that they will ordain in virtue of the rule. The vow of obedience makes the religious dependent on his superior in virtue of these rules for his whole life and in all his affairs. A religious commits a grave sin against the vow every time he disobeys an order given in virtue of obedience and of these rules.
The Virtue of Obedience
The virtue of obedience goes further than the vow; it embraces the rules, the regulations and even the counsels of the superiors.
Q. Is the virtue of obedience indispensable for a religious?
A. The virtue of obedience is so indispensable to a religious that, even if he were to perform good actions contrary to obedience, these would be evil and without merit.
Q. Can we sin gravely against the virtue of obedience?
A. We sin gravely when we scorn the authority or the order of the superior, or when spiritual or temporal harm to the community results from our disobedience.
Q. What faults endanger the vow?
A. To be prejudiced against the superior, or to harbor an antipathy for him - murmuring and criticism, tardiness and negligence.
The Degrees of Obedience
Prompt and complete fulfillment - the obedience of the will, when the will persuades the intellect to submit to the advice of the superior. To facilitate obedience, Saint Ignatius suggests, moreover, three means: always to see God in our superior, whoever he might be; to justify in itself the order or advice of the superior; to accept each order as an order from God, without examining it or reflecting on it. General means: humility. Nothing is difficult for the humble.
Q. What is a vow?
A. A vow is a voluntary promise made to God, to carry out a more perfect act.
Q. Is a vow binding in a matter which is the object of a commandment?
A. Yes. The carrying out of an act which is the object of a commandment has a double value and merit; and the neglect of such an act is a double transgression and evil, because by breaking such a vow we add to the sin against the commandment, the sin of sacrilege.
Q. Why do religious vows have such value?
A. Because they are the foundation of the religious life approved by the Church, in which the members bound together in a religious community undertake to strive always for perfection by means of the three religious vows of poverty, chastity and obedience, observed according to the rules.
Q. What is the meaning of the words, "strive for perfection?"
A. To strive for perfection means that the religious life does not in itself demand that perfection be already attained, but obliges, under the pain of sin, that we work daily to attain it. Therefore, a religious who does not want to become perfect neglects his principal duty of state.
Q. What are "solemn" religious vows?
A. " Solemn" religious vows are so absolute that, in extraordinary cases, only the Holy Father can dispense from them.
Q. What are simple religious vows?
A. These are vows which are less absolute - the Holy See dispenses from perpetual and annual vows.
Q. What is the difference between a vow and a virtue?
A. A vow pertains only to that which is commanded under pain of sin; the virtue goes beyond this and helps in the carrying out of the vow; on the other hand, by breaking the vow we fail in the virtue and do it damage.
Q. To what do the religious vows oblige us?
A. The religious vows oblige us to strive to acquire the virtues and to submit ourselves completely to our Superiors and to the Rules which are in force; thus the religious gives his own person to the Community, renouncing every right over himself and his actions, which he sacrifices to the service of God.
The Vow of Poverty
The vow of poverty is the voluntary renunciation of the right over property or to the use of such property with the purpose of pleasing God.
Q. What objects does the vow of poverty concern?
A. All those goods and those objects which appertain to the Community. We have no longer any right over anything that has been given to us, once it has been accepted, whether an article or money. All these donations and presents, which may have been given us out of gratitude or in any other way, belong by right to the Community. We cannot make use, without violating the vow, of any wages we may receive for work or even any annuity.
Q. When do we break or violate the vow in a matter which entails the seventh commandment?
A. We break or violate it when, without permission, we take for ourselves anything that belongs to the house; when, without permission, we retain something in order to appropriate it; and when, without authorization, we sell or exchange something that belongs to the Community. When we make use of an object for some other purpose than that intended by the Superior. When we give to, or accept from another, anything whatsoever without permission. When by negligence we destroy or damage something. When, in going from one house to another, we take something with us without permission. In a situation where the vow is broken, the religious is bound to restitution to the Community.
The Virtue of Poverty
This is an evangelical virtue which impels the heart to detach itself from temporal things; the religious, in virtue of his profession, is strictly obliged to it.
Q. When do we sin against the virtue of poverty? When we desire something, contrary to this virtue. When we become attached to something, and when we make use of superfluous things. How many degrees of poverty are there and what are they?
A. There are, in practice, four degrees of poverty for one who is a professed religious: to dispose of nothing without the consent of the Superiors (the strict matter of the vow); to avoid superfluities and be content with necessities (this pertains to the virtue); to readily content oneself with things of inferior quality in what concerns one's cell, clothing, nourishment, etc., and to experience this contentment interiorly; to rejoice in extreme poverty.
The Vow of Chastity
Q. To what does this vow oblige us?
A. To renounce marriage and to avoid everything that is forbidden by the sixth and ninth commandments.
Q. Is a fault against the virtue a violation of the vow?
A. Every fault against the virtue is at the same time a violation of the vow, because here there is no difference, as in the case of poverty and obedience, between the vow and the virtue.
Q. Is every bad thought a sin?
A. No, every bad thought is not a sin; it becomes so only when the acquiescence of the will and consent are joined to the consideration of the mind.
Q. Is there anything, over and above sins against chastity, which is detrimental to the virtue?
A. Lack of custody of the senses, of the imagination, of the feelings; familiarity and sentimental friendships are detrimental to the virtue.
Q. What are the means by which this virtue may be preserved?
A. To conquer interior temptations with the thought of the presence of God, and moreover to fight without fear. And for exterior temptations, to avoid occasions. There are, in all, seven principal means: to guard the senses, to avoid occasions, to avoid idleness, to remove temptations promptly, to remove oneself from all - and especially particular friendships, the spirit of mortification, and to reveal all these temptations to one's confessor.
Besides this, there are also five means of preserving this virtue: humility, the spirit of prayer, modesty of the eyes, fidelity to the rule, a sincere devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary.
The Vow of Obedience
The vow of obedience is superior to the first two. It is, to tell the truth, a holocaust, and it is more necessary because it forms and animates the monastic body.
Q. To what does the vow of obedience oblige us?
A. By the vow of obedience, the religious promises to God to be obedient to his legitimate superiors in everything that they will ordain in virtue of the rule. The vow of obedience makes the religious dependent on his superior in virtue of these rules for his whole life and in all his affairs. A religious commits a grave sin against the vow every time he disobeys an order given in virtue of obedience and of these rules.
The Virtue of Obedience
The virtue of obedience goes further than the vow; it embraces the rules, the regulations and even the counsels of the superiors.
Q. Is the virtue of obedience indispensable for a religious?
A. The virtue of obedience is so indispensable to a religious that, even if he were to perform good actions contrary to obedience, these would be evil and without merit.
Q. Can we sin gravely against the virtue of obedience?
A. We sin gravely when we scorn the authority or the order of the superior, or when spiritual or temporal harm to the community results from our disobedience.
Q. What faults endanger the vow?
A. To be prejudiced against the superior, or to harbor an antipathy for him - murmuring and criticism, tardiness and negligence.
The Degrees of Obedience
Prompt and complete fulfillment - the obedience of the will, when the will persuades the intellect to submit to the advice of the superior. To facilitate obedience, Saint Ignatius suggests, moreover, three means: always to see God in our superior, whoever he might be; to justify in itself the order or advice of the superior; to accept each order as an order from God, without examining it or reflecting on it. General means: humility. Nothing is difficult for the humble.
96 +Trials sent by God to a soul which is particularly loved
by Him.
Temptations and darkness; Satan. The soul's love [for God] is still not such as God would have it. The soul suddenly loses the tangible perception of God's presence. Various defects and imperfections rise up within it, and it must fight them furiously. All her faults lift up their heads, but the soul's vigilance is great. The former awareness of the presence of God gives place to coldness and spiritual dryness; the soul has no taste for spiritual exercises; it cannot pray, either in the old way, or in the manner in which it had just begun to pray. It struggles this way and that, but can find no satisfaction. God has hidden himself from it, and it can find no consolation in creatures, nor can any of these creatures find a way of consoling it. The soul craves passionately for God, but sees its own misery; it begins to sense God's justice; it seems to it that it has lost all the gifts that God had given it; its mind is dimmed, and darkness fills it; unspeakable torment begins. The soul tries to explain its state to the confessor, but it is not understood and is assailed by an even greater unrest. Satan begins his work.
Temptations and darkness; Satan. The soul's love [for God] is still not such as God would have it. The soul suddenly loses the tangible perception of God's presence. Various defects and imperfections rise up within it, and it must fight them furiously. All her faults lift up their heads, but the soul's vigilance is great. The former awareness of the presence of God gives place to coldness and spiritual dryness; the soul has no taste for spiritual exercises; it cannot pray, either in the old way, or in the manner in which it had just begun to pray. It struggles this way and that, but can find no satisfaction. God has hidden himself from it, and it can find no consolation in creatures, nor can any of these creatures find a way of consoling it. The soul craves passionately for God, but sees its own misery; it begins to sense God's justice; it seems to it that it has lost all the gifts that God had given it; its mind is dimmed, and darkness fills it; unspeakable torment begins. The soul tries to explain its state to the confessor, but it is not understood and is assailed by an even greater unrest. Satan begins his work.
97 Faith staggers
under the impact; the struggle is fierce. The soul tries hard to cling to God
by an act of will. With God's permission, Satan goes even further: hope and
love are put to the test. These temptations are terrible. God supports the soul
in secret, so to speak. The soul is not aware of this, but otherwise it would
be impossible to stand firm; and God knows very well how much He can allow to
befall a soul. The soul is tempted to unbelief in respect to revealed truths
and to insincerity toward the confessor. Satan says to it, "Look, no one
understands you; why speak about all this?" Words that terrify it sound in
its ears, and it seems to the soul that it is uttering these against God. It
sees what it does not want to see. It hears what it does not want to hear. And,
oh, it is a terrible thing at times like these not to have an experienced
confessor! The soul carries the whole burden alone. However, one should make
every effort to find, if it is at all possible, a well-informed confessor, for
the soul can collapse under the burden and come to the very edge of the precipice.
All these trials are heavy and difficult. God does not send them to a soul
which has not already been admitted to a deeper intimacy with Him and which has
not yet tasted the divine delights. Besides, in this God has His own plans,
which for us are impenetrable. God often prepares a soul in this way for His
future designs and great works. He wants to try it as pure gold is tried. But
this is not yet the end of the testing; there is still the trial of trials, the
complete abandonment of the soul by God.
+ The Trial of
Trials, Complete Abandonment - Despair
98 When the soul comes out victorious from the preceding trials, even though it may stumble here and there, it fights on valiantly, humbly calling upon God, "Save me, I am perishing!" And it is still able to fight on.
At this point, however, the soul is engulfed in a horrible night. It sees within itself only sin. It feels terrible. It sees itself completely abandoned by God. It feels itself to be the object of His hatred. It is but one step away from despair. The soul does its best to defend itself; it tries to stir up its confidence; but prayer is an even greater torment for it, as this prayer seems to arouse God to an even greater anger. The soul finds itself poised on the summit of a lofty mountain on the very brink of a precipice.
The soul is drawn to God, but feels repulsed. All other sufferings and tortures in the world are as nothing compared with this sensation into which it has been plunged; namely, that of being rejected by God. No one can bring it any relief; it finds itself completely alone; there is no one to defend it. It raises its eyes to heaven, but is convinced that this is not for her-for her all is lost. It falls deeper and deeper from darkness to darkness, and it seems to it that it has lost forever the God it used to love so dearly. This thought is torture beyond all description. But the soul does not agree to it and tries to lift its gaze toward heaven, but in vain! And this makes the torture even more intense.
If God wishes to keep the soul in such darkness, no one will be able to give it light. It experiences rejection by God in a vivid and terrifying manner. From its heart burst forth painful moans, so painful that no priest will comprehend it, unless he himself has been through these trials. In the midst of this, the evil spirit adds to the soul's suffering, mocking it: "Will you persist in your faithfulness? This is your reward; you are in our power!" But Satan has only as much influence over the soul as God allows him, and God knows how much we can bear. "What have you gotten out of your mortifications," says Satan, "and out of your fidelity to the rule? What use are all these efforts? You have been rejected by God!" This word, rejected, becomes a fire which penetrates every nerve to the marrow of the bone. It pierces right through her entire being. The ordeal reaches its climax. The soul no longer looks for help anywhere. It shrinks into itself and loses sight of everything; it is as though it has accepted the torture of being abandoned. This is a moment for which I have no words. This is the agony of the soul.
98 When the soul comes out victorious from the preceding trials, even though it may stumble here and there, it fights on valiantly, humbly calling upon God, "Save me, I am perishing!" And it is still able to fight on.
At this point, however, the soul is engulfed in a horrible night. It sees within itself only sin. It feels terrible. It sees itself completely abandoned by God. It feels itself to be the object of His hatred. It is but one step away from despair. The soul does its best to defend itself; it tries to stir up its confidence; but prayer is an even greater torment for it, as this prayer seems to arouse God to an even greater anger. The soul finds itself poised on the summit of a lofty mountain on the very brink of a precipice.
The soul is drawn to God, but feels repulsed. All other sufferings and tortures in the world are as nothing compared with this sensation into which it has been plunged; namely, that of being rejected by God. No one can bring it any relief; it finds itself completely alone; there is no one to defend it. It raises its eyes to heaven, but is convinced that this is not for her-for her all is lost. It falls deeper and deeper from darkness to darkness, and it seems to it that it has lost forever the God it used to love so dearly. This thought is torture beyond all description. But the soul does not agree to it and tries to lift its gaze toward heaven, but in vain! And this makes the torture even more intense.
If God wishes to keep the soul in such darkness, no one will be able to give it light. It experiences rejection by God in a vivid and terrifying manner. From its heart burst forth painful moans, so painful that no priest will comprehend it, unless he himself has been through these trials. In the midst of this, the evil spirit adds to the soul's suffering, mocking it: "Will you persist in your faithfulness? This is your reward; you are in our power!" But Satan has only as much influence over the soul as God allows him, and God knows how much we can bear. "What have you gotten out of your mortifications," says Satan, "and out of your fidelity to the rule? What use are all these efforts? You have been rejected by God!" This word, rejected, becomes a fire which penetrates every nerve to the marrow of the bone. It pierces right through her entire being. The ordeal reaches its climax. The soul no longer looks for help anywhere. It shrinks into itself and loses sight of everything; it is as though it has accepted the torture of being abandoned. This is a moment for which I have no words. This is the agony of the soul.
101 Jesus, You alone
know how the soul, engulfed in darkness, moans in the midst of these torments
and, despite all this, thirsts for God as burning lips thirst for water. It
dies and withers; it dies a death without death; that is to say, it cannot die.
All its efforts come to nothing; it is under a powerful hand. Now the soul
comes under the power of the Just One. All exterior temptations cease; all that
surrounds it becomes silent, like a dying person who loses contact with
everything around it: the person's entire soul is in the hand of the Just God,
the Thrice-Holy God,-rejected for all eternity! This is the culminating moment,
and God alone can test a soul in this way, because He alone knows what the soul
can endure.
When the soul has been saturated through and through by this infernal fire, it is, as it were, cast headlong into great despair. My soul experienced this moment when I was all alone in my cell. When my soul began to sink into this despair, I felt that the end was near. But I seized my little crucifix and clutched it tightly in my hand. And now I felt my body separate itself from my soul; and though I wanted to go to my Superiors, I no longer had the physical strength. I uttered my last words: "I trust in Your Mercy!"-and it seemed to me that I provoked God to an even greater anger. And now I was drowned in despair, and all that was left me was a moan of unadulterated pain which, from time to time, tore itself from my soul. The soul is in agony-and it seemed to me that I would remain in this state, because by my own strength I could not emerge from it. Every recollection of God opened up an unspeakable ocean of suffering, and yet despite this there is something within the soul which is drawn to Him, though it seems to her for this only-that she suffer more. The memory of the love with which God formerly surrounded it is still another kind of suffering. His gaze pierces it, and everything within the soul is burned by this gaze.
When the soul has been saturated through and through by this infernal fire, it is, as it were, cast headlong into great despair. My soul experienced this moment when I was all alone in my cell. When my soul began to sink into this despair, I felt that the end was near. But I seized my little crucifix and clutched it tightly in my hand. And now I felt my body separate itself from my soul; and though I wanted to go to my Superiors, I no longer had the physical strength. I uttered my last words: "I trust in Your Mercy!"-and it seemed to me that I provoked God to an even greater anger. And now I was drowned in despair, and all that was left me was a moan of unadulterated pain which, from time to time, tore itself from my soul. The soul is in agony-and it seemed to me that I would remain in this state, because by my own strength I could not emerge from it. Every recollection of God opened up an unspeakable ocean of suffering, and yet despite this there is something within the soul which is drawn to Him, though it seems to her for this only-that she suffer more. The memory of the love with which God formerly surrounded it is still another kind of suffering. His gaze pierces it, and everything within the soul is burned by this gaze.
116 My Jesus, You know what my soul goes
through at the recollection of these sufferings. I have often marvelled that
the angels and saints hold their peace at the sight of a soul suffering like
that. Yet they have special love for us at such moments. My soul has often
cried out after God, as a little child who cries as loudly as he can when his
mother covers her face and he cannot recognize her. O my Jesus, honor and glory
to You for these trials of love! Great and incomprehensible is your mercy. All
that You intended for my soul, O Lord, is steeped in Your mercy.
118 The tongue is a small member, but it does
big things. A religious who does not keep silence will never attain holiness;
that is, she will never become a saint. Let her not delude herself-unless it is
the Spirit of God who is speaking through her, for then she must not keep
silent. But, in order to hear the voice of God, one has to have silence in
one's soul and to keep silence; not a gloomy silence, but an interior silence;
that is to say, recollection in God. One can speak a great deal without
breaking silence and, on the contrary, one can speak little and be constantly
breaking silence. Oh, what irreparable damage is done by the breach of silence!
We cause a lot of harm to our neighbor, but even more to our own selves.
In my opinion, and according to my experience,
the rule concerning silence should stand in the very first place. God does not
give himself to a chattering soul which, like a drone in a beehive, buzzes around
but gathers no honey. A talkative soul is empty inside. It lacks both the
essential virtues and intimacy with God. A deeper interior life, one of gentle
peace and of that silence where the Lord dwells, is quite out of the question.
A soul that has never tasted the sweetness of inner silence is a restless
spirit which disturbs the silence of others. I have seen many souls in the
depths of hell for not having kept their silence; they told me so themselves
when I asked them what was the cause of their undoing. These were souls of
religious. My God, what an agony it is to think that not only might they have
been in heaven, but they might even have become saints! O Jesus, have mercy!
147 I recall that
I have received most light during adoration which I made lying prostrate before
the Blessed Sacrament for half an hour every day throughout Lent. During that
time I came to know myself and God more profoundly. And yet, even though I had
the superiors' permission to do so, I encountered many obstacles to praying in
such a way. Let the soul be aware that, in order to pray and persevere in
prayer, one must arm oneself with patience and cope bravely with exterior and
interior difficulties. The interior difficulties are discouragement, dryness,
heaviness of spirit and temptations. The exterior difficulties are human
respect and time; one must observe the time set apart for prayer. This has been
my personal experience because, when I did not pray at the time assigned for
prayer, later on I could not do it because of my duties; or if I did manage to
do so, this was only with great difficulty, because my thoughts kept wandering
off to my duties. I also experienced this difficulty: when a soul has prayed
well and left prayer in a state of profound interior recollection, others
resist its recollection; and so, the soul must be patient to persevere in
prayer. It often happened to me that when my soul was more deeply immersed in
God, and I had derived greater fruit from prayer, and God's presence
accompanied me during the day, and at work there was more recollection and
greater precision and effort at my duty, this was precisely when I received the
most rebukes for being negligent in my duty and indifferent to everything;
because less recollected souls want others to be like them, for they are a
constant [source of] remorse to them.
163 JMJ The Year 1937
General Exercises
+O Most Holy Trinity! As many times as I
breathe, as many times as my heart beats, as many times as my blood pulsates
through my body, so many thousand times do I want to glorify Your mercy.
+I want to be completely transformed into Your
mercy and to be Your living reflection, O Lord. May the greatest of all divine
attributes, that of Your unfathomable mercy, pass through my heart and soul to
my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my eyes may be merciful,
so that I may never suspect or judge from appearances, but look for what is
beautiful in my neighbors' souls and come to their rescue.
Help me, that my ears may be merciful, so that
I may give heed to my neighbors' needs and not be indifferent to their pains
and moaning. Help me, O Lord, that my tongue may be merciful, so that I should
never speak negatively of my neighbor, but have a word of comfort and
forgiveness for all.
Help me, O Lord, that my hands may be merciful
and filled with good deeds, so that I may do only good to my neighbors and take
upon myself the more difficult and toilsome tasks.
Help me, that my feet may be merciful, so that
I may hurry to assist my neighbor, overcoming my own fatigue and weariness. My
true rest is in the service of my neighbor.
Help me, O Lord, that my heart may be merciful
so that I myself may feel all the sufferings of my neighbor. I will refuse my
heart to no one. I will be sincere even with those who, I know, will abuse my
kindness. And I will lock myself up in the most merciful Heart of Jesus. I will
bear my own suffering in silence. May Your mercy, O Lord, rest upon me.
+You yourself command me to exercise the three
degrees of mercy. The first: the act of mercy, of whatever kind. The second:
the word of mercy-if I cannot carry out a work of mercy, I will assist by my
words. The third: prayer-if I cannot show mercy by deeds or words, I can always
do so by prayer. My prayer reaches out even there where I cannot reach out
physically.
O my Jesus, transform me into Yourself, for you
can do all things.
173 Satan's temptations during
meditation. I felt a strange fear that the priest would not
understand me, or that he would have no
time to hear everything I would have to say. How am I going to tell him all
this? If it were Father Bukowski I could do it more easily, but this Jesuit
whom I am seeing for the first time... Then I remembered Father Bukowski's
advice that I should at least take brief notes of the lights sent to me by God
during the retreats and give him at least a brief report on them. My God, for a
day and a half all has gone well, and now a life and death struggle is
beginning. The conference is to start in a half hour, and then I am to go to
confession. Satan tried to persuade me into believing that if my superiors have
told me that my inner life is an illusion, why should I ask again and trouble
the confessor? Didn't MX [probably Mother Jane] tell you that the Lord Jesus
does not commune with souls as miserable as yours? This confessor is going to
tell you the same thing. Why speak to him about all this? These are not sins,
and Mother X, told you that all this communing with the Lord Jesus was
daydreaming and pure hysteria. So why tell it to this confessor? You would do
better to dismiss all this as illusions.
Look how many humiliations you have suffered because of them, and how many more
are still awaiting you, and all the sisters know that you are a hysteric.
"Jesus!" I called out with all the strength of my soul.
216 We have come to Cracow today [April 18,
1933]. What a joy it is to find myself again where I took my first steps in the
spiritual life! Dear Mother Directress [Mary Joseph] is ever the same, cheerful
and full of love of neighbor. I entered the chapel for a moment and joy filled
my soul. In a flash I recalled the whole ocean of graces that had been given me
as a novice here.
241 Love of neighbor. First: Helpfulness
towards the sisters. Second: Do not speak about those who are absent, and
defend the good name of my neighbor. Third: Rejoice in the success of others.
279 God made known to me what true love
consists in and gave light to me about how, in practice, to give proof of it to
Him. True love of God consists in carrying out God's will. To show God our love
in what we do, all our actions, even the least, must spring from our love of
God. And the Lord said to me, My child,
you please Me most by suffering. In your physical as well as your mental
sufferings, My daughter, do not seek sympathy from creatures. I want the
fragrance of your suffering to be pure and unadulterated. I want you to detach
yourself, not only from creatures, but also from yourself. My daughter, I want
to delight in the love of your heart, a pure love, virginal, unblemished, untarnished.
The more you will come to love suffering, My daughter, the purer your love for
Me will be.
294 +Once the Lord said to me, Act like a beggar who does not back away
when he gets more alms [than he asked for], but offers thanks the more fervently.
You too should not back away and say that you are not worthy of receiving
greater graces when I give them to you. I know you are unworthy, but rejoice
all the more and take as many treasures from My Heart as you can carry, for
then you will please Me more. And I will tell you one more thing: Take these
graces not only for yourself, but also for others; that is, encourage the souls
with whom you come in contact to trust in My infinite mercy. Oh, how I love
those souls who have complete confidence in Me. I will do everything for them.
296 +O Supreme Good, I want to love You as no
one on earth has ever loved You before! I want to adore You with every moment
of my life and unite my will closely to Your holy will. My life is not drab or
monotonous, but it is varied like a garden of fragrant flowers, so that I don't
know which flower to pick first, the lily of suffering or the rose of love of
neighbor or the violet of humility. I will not enumerate these treasures in
which my every day abounds. It is a great thing to know how to make use of the
present moment.
343 True love is measured by the
thermometer of suffering. Jesus, I thank You for the little daily crosses, for
opposition to my endeavors, for the hardships of communal life, for the
misinterpretation of my intentions, for humiliations at the hands of others,
for the harsh way in which we are treated, for false suspicions, for poor
health and loss of strength, for self-denial, for dying to myself, for lack of
recognition in everything, for the upsetting of all my plans.
Thank You, Jesus, for interior sufferings, for dryness of spirit, for terrors, fears and incertitudes, for the darkness and the deep interior night, for temptations and various ordeals, for torments too difficult to describe, especially for those which no one will understand, for the hour of death with its fierce struggle and all its bitterness.
I thank You, Jesus, You who first drank the cup of bitterness before You gave it to me, in a much milder form. I put my lips to this cup of Your holy will. Let all be done according to Your good pleasure; let that which Your wisdom ordained before the ages be done to me. I want to drink the cup to its last drop, and not seek to know the reason why. In bitterness is my joy, in hopelessness is my trust. In You, O Lord, all is good, all is a gift of Your paternal Heart. I do not prefer consolations over bitterness or bitterness over consolations, but thank You, O Jesus, for everything! It is my delight to fix my gaze upon You, O incomprehensible God! My spirit abides in these mysterious dwelling places, and there I am at home. I know very well the dwelling place of my Spouse. I feel there is not a single drop of blood in me that does not burn with love for You.
O Uncreated Beauty, whoever comes to know You once cannot love anything else. I can feel the bottomless abyss of my soul, and nothing will fill it but God himself. I feel that I am drowned in Him like a single grain of sand in a bottomless ocean.
Thank You, Jesus, for interior sufferings, for dryness of spirit, for terrors, fears and incertitudes, for the darkness and the deep interior night, for temptations and various ordeals, for torments too difficult to describe, especially for those which no one will understand, for the hour of death with its fierce struggle and all its bitterness.
I thank You, Jesus, You who first drank the cup of bitterness before You gave it to me, in a much milder form. I put my lips to this cup of Your holy will. Let all be done according to Your good pleasure; let that which Your wisdom ordained before the ages be done to me. I want to drink the cup to its last drop, and not seek to know the reason why. In bitterness is my joy, in hopelessness is my trust. In You, O Lord, all is good, all is a gift of Your paternal Heart. I do not prefer consolations over bitterness or bitterness over consolations, but thank You, O Jesus, for everything! It is my delight to fix my gaze upon You, O incomprehensible God! My spirit abides in these mysterious dwelling places, and there I am at home. I know very well the dwelling place of my Spouse. I feel there is not a single drop of blood in me that does not burn with love for You.
O Uncreated Beauty, whoever comes to know You once cannot love anything else. I can feel the bottomless abyss of my soul, and nothing will fill it but God himself. I feel that I am drowned in Him like a single grain of sand in a bottomless ocean.
375 Particular interior practice; that is, the
examination of conscience. Self-denial, denial of my own will.
I. The denial of my reason. Subjecting it to
the reason of those who represent God to me here on earth.
II. The denial of my will. Doing the will of
God, which is revealed in the will of those who represent God to me and which
is contained in the rule of our order.
III. The denial of my judgment. Accepting
immediately and without reflection, analysis or reasoning all orders given by
those who represent God to me.
IV. The denial of my tongue. I will not give it
the least bit of freedom; but in one case only I will give it complete freedom;
that is, in proclaiming the glory of God. Whenever I receive Holy Communion, I
will ask Jesus to fortify and cleanse my tongue that I may not injure my neighbor
with it. That is why I have the greatest respect for the rule which speaks
about silence.
383 At the beginning of the retreat, I saw, on
the ceiling of the chapel, Jesus nailed to the Cross. He was looking at the
sisters with great love, but not at all of them. There were three sisters at
whom Jesus looked severely, for what reasons I do not know. I only know what a
terrible thing it is to meet with such a look, which is the look of a severe
Judge. That look was not directed at me, and yet I was paralyzed with terror. I
still tremble as I write these words. I did not dare to say so much as a single
word to Jesus. My physical strength failed me, and I thought I would not live
to the end of the conference. The next day, I saw the same thing again, just as
I had seen it the first time, and this time I dared to speak these words:
"Jesus, how great is Your mercy!"
On the third day, that gaze of great kindness
upon all the sisters, except the three, was again repeated. I gathered up my
courage, which drew its force from love of neighbor, and I said to the Lord,
"You, who are Mercy Itself, as You yourself told me, I beg You by the
power of Your mercy, to look then with kindness at these three sisters as well.
And if this is not in accord with Your wisdom, I ask You for an exchange: turn
to them the kind look meant for my soul, and let Your severe gaze at their
souls be turned on me." Jesus then said to me these words: My daughter,
for the sake of your sincere and generous love, I grant them many graces although
they are not asking Me for them. But I am doing so because of the promise I
have made to you. And at that moment, He turned a merciful look towards those
three sisters as well. My heart leapt with joy to see the goodness of God.
549 Work. As poor persons, the nuns themselves
will do all the work in the convent. Each one should be glad when she is given
some work which is humbling or which goes against her nature, as that will
greatly help her interior formation. The superior will often change the
sisters' duties, and in this way help them to detach themselves completely from
the little details to which women have a great attachment. Truly, I often find
it amusing to see with my own eyes souls who have forsaken really great things
only to attach themselves to fiddle faddle; that is, trifles. Each sister,
including even the superior, shall work in the kitchen for a month. Every one
should take a turn at every chore which is to be done in the convent.
571 O
my Jesus, Eternal Truth, I fear nothing, neither hardships nor sufferings; I
fear only one thing, and that is to offend You. My Jesus, I would rather not
exist than make You sad. Jesus, You know that my love knows no one but You. My
soul is absorbed in You.
590 When I receive Holy Communion, I entreat
and beg the Savior to heal my tongue, that I may never fail in love of
neighbor.
692 + O Jesus, I understand that Your mercy is
beyond all imagining, and therefore I ask You to make my heart so big that
there will be room in it for the needs of all the souls living on the face of
the earth. O Jesus, my love extends beyond the world, to the souls suffering in
purgatory, and I want to exercise mercy toward them by means of indulgenced
prayers. God's mercy is unfathomable and inexhaustible, just as God himself is unfathomable.
Even if I were to use the strongest words there are to express this mercy of
God, all this would be nothing in comparison with what it is in reality. O
Jesus, make my heart sensitive to all the sufferings of my neighbor, whether of
body or of soul. O my Jesus, I know that You act toward us as we act toward our
neighbor.
My Jesus, make my heart like unto Your merciful
Heart. Jesus, help me to go through life doing good to everyone.
700 + Once, when I was very tired and in much
pain, I told Mother Superior [Irene] about it and received the answer that I
should get used to suffering. I listened to everything that Mother told me, and
then I went out. Our Mother Superior has great love of neighbor and especially
great love for the sick sisters, as everyone knows. And yet, as regards me, it
is extraordinary that the Lord Jesus has permitted that she not understand me
and that she test me much in this respect.
704 I spend every free moment at the feet of
the hidden God. He is my Master; I ask Him about everything; I speak to Him
about everything. Here I obtain strength and light; here I learn everything;
here I am given light on how to act toward my neighbor. From the time I left
the novitiate, I have enclosed myself in the tabernacle together with Jesus, my
Master. He himself drew me into the fire of living love on which everything
converges.
742 My daughter, if I demand through you that
people revere My mercy, you should be the first to distinguish yourself by this
confidence in My mercy. I demand from you deeds of mercy, which are to arise
out of love for Me. You are to show mercy to your neighbors always and
everywhere. You must not shrink from this or try to excuse or absolve yourself
from it.
I am giving you three ways of exercising mercy
toward your neighbor: the first-by deed, the second-by word, the third-by
prayer. In these three degrees is contained the fullness of mercy, and it is an
unquestionable proof of love for Me. By this means a soul glorifies and pays
reverence to My mercy. Yes, the first Sunday after Easter is the Feast of
Mercy, but there must also be acts of mercy, and I demand the worship of My
mercy through the solemn celebration of the Feast and through the veneration of
the image which is painted. By means of this image I shall grant many graces to
souls. It is to be a reminder of the demands of My mercy, because even the
strongest faith is of no avail without works. O my Jesus, You yourself must
help me in everything, because You see how very little I am, and so I depend solely
on Your goodness, O God.
+ Particular Examen
Union with the merciful Christ. With my heart I
encompass the whole world, especially countries which are uncivilized or where
there is persecution. I am praying for mercy upon them.
791 Hide me, Jesus, in the depths of Your
mercy, and then let my neighbor judge me as he pleases.
856 During the morning meditation, I felt an
aversion and a repugnance for all created things. Everything pales before my
eyes; my spirit is detached from all things. I desire only God himself, and yet
I must live. This is a martyrdom beyond description. God imparts himself to the
soul in a loving way and draws it into the infinite depths of His divinity, but
at the same time He leaves it here on earth for the sole purpose that it might
suffer and die of longing for Him. And this strong love is so pure that God
himself finds pleasure in it; and self-love has no access to its deeds, for
here everything is totally saturated with bitterness, and thus is totally pure.
Life is a continuous dying, painful and terrible, and at the same time it is
the depth of true life and of inconceivable happiness and the strength of the
soul; and because of this, [the soul] is capable of great deeds for the sake of
God.
861 Particular examen: remains the same;
namely, to unite myself with the Merciful Christ (that is; what would Christ do
in such and such a case?) and, in spirit, to embrace the whole world,
especially Russia and Spain.
General resolutions.
I. Strict observance of silence - interior
silence.
II. To see the image of God in every sister;
all love of neighbor must flow from this motive.
III. To do the will of God faithfully at every
moment of my life and to live by this.
IV. To give a faithful account of everything to
the spiritual director and not to undertake anything of importance without a
clear understanding with him. I shall try to clearly lay bare to him the most
secret depths of my soul, bearing in mind that I am dealing with God himself,
and that His representative is just a human being, and so I must pray daily
that he be given light.
V. During the evening examination of
conscience, I am to ask myself the question: What if He were to call me today?
VI. Not to look for God far away, but within my
own being to abide with Him alone.
VII. In sufferings and torments, to take refuge
in the tabernacle and to be silent.
VIII. To join all sufferings, prayers, works
and mortifications to the merits of Jesus in order to obtain mercy for the
world.
IX. To use free moments, however short, for
prayers for the dying.
X. There must not be a day in my life when I do
not recommend to the Lord the works of our Congregation. Never have regard for
what others think of you [for human respect].
XI. Have no familiar relationships with anyone.
Gentle firmness toward the girls, boundless patience; punish them severely but
with such punishments as these: prayer and self-sacrifice. The strength that is
in the emptying of myself for their sake is for them a [source of] constant
remorse and the softening of their obdurate hearts.
XII. The presence of God is the basis of all my
thoughts, words and deeds.
XIII. To take advantage of all spiritual help.
To always put self-love in its proper place; namely, the last. To perform my
spiritual exercises as though I were doing them for the last time in my life,
and in like manner to carry out all my duties.
871 + My Master, cause my heart never to expect
help from anyone, but I will always strive to bring assistance, consolation and
all manner of relief to others. My heart is always open to the sufferings of
others; and I will not close my heart to the sufferings of others, even though
because of this I have been scornfully nicknamed "dump"; that is,
[because] everyone dumps his pain into my heart. [To this] I answered that
everyone has a place in my heart and I, in return, have a place in the Heart of
Jesus. Taunts regarding the law of love will not narrow my heart. My soul is
always sensitive on this point, and Jesus alone is the motive for my love of
neighbor.
944 + There are moments when I mistrust myself,
when I feel my own weakness and wretchedness in the most profound depths of my
own being, and I have noticed that I can endure such moments only by trusting
in the infinite mercy of God. Patience, prayer and silence-these are what give
strength to the soul. There are moments when one should be silent, and when it
would be inappropriate to talk with creatures; these are the moments when one
is dissatisfied with oneself, and when the soul feels as weak as a little child.
Then the soul clings to God with all its might. At such times, I live solely by
faith, and when I feel strengthened by God's grace, then I am more courageous
in speaking and communicating with my neighbors.
1039 + I suffer great pain at the sight of the
sufferings of others. All these sufferings are reflected in my heart. I carry
their torments in my heart so that it even wears me out physically. I would
like all pains to fall upon me so as to bring relief to my neighbor.
1662 + O Christ, suffering for You is the
delight of my heart and my soul. Prolong my sufferings to infinity, that I may
give You a proof of my love. I accept everything that Your hand will hold out
to me. Your love, Jesus, is enough for me. I will glorify You in abandonment
and darkness, in agony and fear, in pain and bitterness, in anguish of spirit
and grief of heart. In all things may You be blessed. My heart is so detached
from the earth, that You Yourself are enough for me. There is no longer any
moment in my life for self concern.
1663 Holy Thursday [April 14, 1938]. Today I
felt strong enough to take part in the ceremonies of the Church. During Holy
Mass, Jesus stood before me and said, Look into My Heart and see there the love
and mercy which I have for humankind, and especially for sinners. Look, and
enter into My Passion. In an instant, I experienced and lived through the whole
Passion of Jesus in my own heart. I was surprised that these tortures did not
deprive me of my life.
1664 During adoration, Jesus said to me, My daughter,
know that your ardent love and the compassion you have for Me were a
consolation to Me in the Garden [of Olives].
1665 During Holy Hour in the evening, I heard
the words, You see My mercy for sinners, which at this moment is revealing
itself in all its power. See how little you have written about it; it is only a
single drop. Do what is in your power, so that sinners may come to know My
goodness.
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-77, 93, 96-98, 101 116, 118, 147, 173)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-163, 216, 241, 279., 294, 296, 343, 375)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-383)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-549, 571, 590, 692, 700, 704, 742)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-791, 856, 861, 871, 944)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-III-1029, 1039)
(Diary of
Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-VI-1662-1663)
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