The “Right” of
Gratitude
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November 12, 2019. Memorial
of Saint Josaphat, bishop and martyr
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Father Edward Hopkins, LC
Luke 17:7-10
Jesus said to the apostles: "Who among
you would say to your slave who has just come in from plowing or tending
sheep in the field, ´Come here at once and take your place at the table´?
Would you not rather say to him, ´Prepare supper for me, put on your apron
and serve me while I eat and drink; later you may eat and drink´? Do you
thank the slave for doing what was commanded? So you also, when you have done
all that you were ordered to do, say, ´We are worthless slaves; we have done
only what we ought to have done!´"
Introductory Prayer: Jesus, I believe in You, my Lord and my
Creator! You have given me everything, and You owe me nothing. You have
forgiven me everything when I owed You more than I could ever pay. I trust in
Your forgiveness and love, Lord.
Petition: Jesus, help me to be grateful to you.
1. Proud Attitudes: How often are we offended by how others
treat us, by a lack of gratitude, respect or appreciation? However justified
the reactions of our sensitivity, what lies at the root of our complaints is
pride. Looking out from my own broken creaturely condition, I can’t help but
see myself for more than I am and expect more respect from everyone –
including God. Yet, before God I am but a poor, tiny and dependent creature.
From him I receive all that I am and need. How can I demand anything from
him? Even worse, how can I complain when I recognize that I am an ungrateful
sinner who has denied the rights and love of my Creator?
2. The Fundamental Relationship: Our culture has become one of “entitlement.”
We view ourselves as having rights – “just” expectations –, and we expect
that much is owed to us. Thus we see children demanding what they want,
spouses expecting their preferences to be respected, and the belief that
government must provide us with everything. God gets thrown into the fray as
well, so that he, too, must deliver according to our attitude of spoiled
children. What we forget is that we have received everything from God and we
owe him everything. Jesus’ image of the slave and master is not just a
metaphor. Although his free and generous gift of redemption raises us up to
the level of children and friends, he owes us nothing. Our fundamental
relationship with God must be that of a grateful creature with a loving
creator. We must start there.
3. Humble Attitudes: Far from asking us to act as “worthless
slaves,” Jesus wants to free us from the pride that enslaves. The virtues of
service, gratitude, honor and obedience may not be popular today, but they
forever reflect the heart of a child of God. Jesus embraced all these virtues
and the attitudes of humility that they require. My first duty in life is to
serve and obey God. My duty of gratitude can never be exhausted, for he gives
me so many gifts – life, faith, family, etc. –, and he leads me to a love
that is self-giving rather than demanding my rights before God and others.
Conversation with Christ: Dear Lord Jesus, help me to embrace my
condition as creature with humble simplicity. Open my mind and heart to the
many endless expressions of Your generous love. Teach me a gratitude that
thinks more of You than of me.
Resolution: I will pray for the grace to show gratitude
to God in my daily activities, striving to make these acts of gratitude
occur.
Excerpts from the
DIARY of Saint Faustina Kowalska
55 1933. Spiritual Counsel Given Me
by Father Andrasz, S.J.
First: You must not turn away from these interior
inspirations, but always tell everything to your confessor. If you recognize
that these interior inspirations refer to your own self; that is to say, they
are for the good of your soul or for the good of other souls, l urge you to
follow them; and you must not neglect them, but always do so in consultation
with your confessor.
Second: If these inspirations are not in accord with the faith or the spirit of the Church, they must be rejected immediately as coming from the evil spirit. Third: If these inspirations do not refer to souls, in general, nor specifically to their good, you should not take them too seriously, and it would be better to even ignore them. But you should not make this decision by yourself, either one way or the other, as you can easily be led astray despite these great favors from God. Humility, humility, and ever humility, as we can do nothing of ourselves; all is purely and simply God's grace. You say to me that God demands great trust from souls; well then, you be the first to show this trust. And one more word-accept all this with serenity. Words of one of the confessors: "Sister, God is preparing many special graces for you, but try to make your life as clear as crystal before the Lord, paying no attention to what anyone else thinks about you. Let God suffice you; He alone." Toward the end of my novitiate, a confessor [perhaps Father Theodore] told me: "Go through life doing good, so that I could write on its pages: `She spent her life doing good.' May God bring this about in you." Another time the confessor said to me, "Comport yourself before God like the widow in the Gospel; although the coin she dropped into the box was of little value, it counted far more before God than all the big offerings of others." On another occasion the instruction I received was this: " Act in such a way that all those who come in contact with you will go away joyful. Sow happiness about you because you have received much from God; give, then, generously to others. They should take leave of you with their hearts filled with joy, even if they have no more than touched the hem of your garment. Keep well in mind the words I am telling you right now." Still another time he gave me the following recommendation: "Let God push your boat out into the deep waters, toward the unfathomable depths of the interior life." Here are a few words from a conversation I had with the Mother Directress [Mary Joseph] toward the end of my novitiate: "Sister, let simplicity and humility be the characteristic traits of your soul. Go through life like a little child, always trusting, always full of simplicity and humility, content with everything, happy in every circumstance. There, where others fear, you will pass calmly along, thanks to this simplicity and humility. Remember this, Sister, for your whole life: as waters flow from the mountains down into the valleys, so, too, do God's graces flow only into humble souls."
92 Humiliation is my
daily food. I understand that the bride must herself share in everything that
is the groom's; and so His cloak of mockery must cover me, too. At those
times when I suffer much, I try to remain silent, as I do not trust my tongue
which, at such moments, is inclined to talk for itself, while its duty is to
help me praise God for all the blessings and gifts which He has given me.
When I receive Jesus in Holy Communion, I ask Him fervently to deign to heal
my tongue so that I would offend neither God nor neighbor by it. I want my
tongue to praise God without cease. Great are the faults committed by the
tongue. The soul will not attain sanctity if it does not keep watch over its
tongue.
113 And again, I would like to say three
words to the soul that is determined to strive for sanctity and to derive
fruit; that is to say, benefit from confession.
First word-complete sincerity and openness. Even the holiest and wisest confessor cannot forcibly pour into the soul what he desires if it is not sincere and open. An insincere, secretive soul risks great dangers in the spiritual life, and even the Lord Jesus Himself does not give Himself to such a soul on a higher level, because He knows it would derive no benefit from these special graces. Second word-humility. A soul does not benefit as it should from the sacrament of confession if it is not humble. Pride keeps it in darkness. The soul neither knows how, nor is it willing, to probe with precision the depths of its own misery. It puts on a mask and avoids everything that might bring it recovery. Third word-obedience. A disobedient soul will win no victory, even if the Lord Jesus himself, in person, were to hear its confession. The most experienced confessor will be of no help whatsoever to such a soul. The disobedient soul exposes itself to great misfortunes; it will make no progress toward perfection, nor will it succeed in the spiritual life. God lavishes His graces most generously upon the soul, but it must be an obedient soul.
114 +Oh, how
pleasing are the hymns flowing from a suffering soul! All heaven delights in
such a soul, especially when it is tested by God. It mournfully sings out its
longing for Him. Great is its beauty, because it comes from God. The soul
walks through the jungle of life, wounded by God's love. With one foot only
it touches the ground.
132 I must again
mention that there are some confessors who seem to be true spiritual fathers,
but only as long as things go well. When the soul finds itself in greater
need, they become perplexed, and either cannot or will not understand the
soul. They try to get rid of the person as soon as possible. But if the soul
is humble, it will always profit in some little way or other. God himself
will sometimes cast a shaft of light into the depths of the soul, because of
its humility and faith. The confessor will sometimes say something he had
never intended to say, without even realizing it himself. Oh, let the soul
believe that such words are the words of the Lord himself! Though indeed we
ought to believe that every word spoken in the confessional is God's, what I
have referred to above is something that comes directly from God. And the
soul perceives that the priest is not master of himself, that he is saying
things that he would rather not say. This is how God rewards faith.
I have experienced this many times myself. A certain very learned and respected priest [probably Father Wilkowski, the sisters' confessor at Plock], to whom I sometimes happened to go to confession, was always severe and opposed to these matters [which I brought up to him]. But on one occasion he replied to me, "Bear in mind, Sister, that if God is asking this of you, you should not oppose Him. God sometimes wants to be praised in just this way. Be at peace; what God has started, He will finish. But I say this to you: faithfulness to God and humility. And once again: humility. Bear well in mind what I have told you today." I was delighted, and I thought that perhaps this priest had understood me. But it so turned out that I never went to confession to him again.
139 Still, a soul
which is faithful to God cannot confirm its own inspirations; it must submit
them to the control of a very wise and learned priest; and until it is quite
certain, it should remain distrustful. It should not, on its own initiative
alone, put its trust in these inspirations and all other higher graces,
because it can thus expose itself to great losses.
Even though a soul may immediately distinguish between false inspirations and those of God, it should nevertheless be careful, because many things are uncertain. God is pleased and rejoices when a soul distrusts Him for His own sake; because it loves Him, it is prudent and itself asks and searches for help to make certain that it is really God who is acting within it. And once a well-instructed confessor has confirmed this, the soul should be at peace and give itself up to God, according to His directions; that is, according to the directions of the confessor.
178 Today we are beginning the third
probation. All three of us met at Mother Margaret's, as the other sisters
were having their probation in the novitiate. Mother Margaret began with a
prayer, explained to us what the third probation consists of, and then spoke
on how great is the grace of the perpetual vows. Suddenly I began to cry out
loud. In an instant all God's graces appeared before the eyes of my soul, and
I saw myself so wretched and ungrateful toward God. The sisters began to
rebuke me, saying, "Why did she break out crying?" But Mother
Margaret came to my defense, saying that she was not surprised.
At the end of the hour, I went before the Blessed Sacrament and, like the greatest and most miserable of wretches, I begged for His mercy that He might heal and purify my poor soul. Then I heard these words, My daughter, all your miseries have been consumed in the flame of My love, like a little twig thrown into a roaring fire. By humbling yourself in this way, you draw upon yourself and upon other souls an entire sea of My mercy. I answered, "Jesus, mold my poor heart according to Your divine delight."
179 Throughout the
third probation it was my duty to help the sister in the vestiary.[60] This
duty gave me many occasions to practice virtues. Sometimes I had to take
linen to certain sisters three times and still one could not satisfy them.
But I also came to recognize the great virtues of some sisters who always
asked for the poorest things from the vestiary. I admired their spirit of
humility and mortification.
184 +Holy Hour.
During this hour, l tried to meditate on the Lord's Passion. But my soul was
filled with joy, and suddenly I saw the Child Jesus. But His majesty
penetrated me to such an extent that I said, "Jesus, You are so little,
and yet I know that You are my Creator and Lord." And Jesus answered
me, I am, and I keep company with you as a child to teach you
humility and simplicity.
294 +Once the Lord
said to me, Act like a beggar who does not back away when he gets
more alms [than he asked for], but offers thanks the more fervently. You too
should not back away and say that you are not worthy of receiving greater
graces when I give them to you. I know you are unworthy, but rejoice all the
more and take as many treasures from My Heart as you can carry, for then you
will please Me more. And I will tell you one more thing: Take these graces
not only for yourself, but also for others; that is, encourage the souls with
whom you come in contact to trust in My infinite mercy. Oh, how I love those
souls who have complete confidence in Me. I will do everything for them.
296 +O Supreme Good,
I want to love You as no one on earth has ever loved You before! I want to
adore You with every moment of my life and unite my will closely to Your holy
will. My life is not drab or monotonous, but it is varied like a garden of
fragrant flowers, so that I don't know which flower to pick first, the lily
of suffering or the rose of love of neighbor or the violet of humility. I
will not enumerate these treasures in which my every day abounds. It is a
great thing to know how to make use of the present moment.
549 Work. As poor
persons, the nuns themselves will do all the work in the convent. Each one
should be glad when she is given some work which is humbling or which goes
against her nature, as that will greatly help her interior formation. The
superior will often change the sisters' duties, and in this way help them to
detach themselves completely from the little details to which women have a
great attachment. Truly, I often find it amusing to see with my own eyes souls
who have forsaken really great things only to attach themselves to fiddle
faddle; that is, trifles. Each sister, including even the superior, shall
work in the kitchen for a month. Everyone should take a turn at every chore
which is to be done in the convent.
424 In the evening,
I just about got into bed, and I fell asleep immediately. Though I fell
asleep quickly, I was awakened even more quickly. A little child came and
woke me up. The child seemed about a year old, and I was surprised it could
speak so well, as children of that age either do not speak or speak very
indistinctly The child was beautiful beyond words and resembled the Child
Jesus, and he said to me, Look at the sky. And when I looked
at the sky I saw the stars and the moon shining. Then the child asked
me, Do you see this moon and these stars? When I said yes,
he spoke these words to me, These stars are the souls of faithful
Christians, and the moon is the souls of religious. Do you see how great the
difference is between the light of the moon and the light of the stars? Such
is the difference in heaven between the soul of a religious and the soul of a
faithful Christian. And he went on to say that, True
greatness is in loving God and in humility.
544 The
novitiate [109] is
to last one year, without any interruption. At this time the novice should be
taught about the virtues relating to the vows and about the importance of the
vows. The directress should do her utmost to provide a solid formation. Let
her train the novices in the practice of humility, because only a humble
heart keeps the vows easily and experiences the great joys that God pours out
upon the faithful soul. The novices should not be burdened with duties that
entail responsibilities, so that they may be free to devote themselves to
their own perfection. They are obliged to observe the rules and statutes
strictly, as are the postulants.
587 Once, I suddenly
saw Jesus in great majesty, and He spoke these words to me: My
daughter, if you wish, I will this instant create a new world, more beautiful
than this one, and you will live there for the rest of your life. I
answered, "I don't want any worlds. I want You, Jesus. I want to love
You, with the same love that You have for me. I beg You for only one thing:
to make my heart capable of loving you. I am very much surprised at Your
offer, my Jesus; what are those worlds to me? Even if You gave me a thousand
of them, what are they to me? You know very well, Jesus, that my heart is
dying of longing for You. Everything that is not You is nothing to me."
-At that moment, I could no longer see anything, but a strange force took
over my soul, a strange fire sprang up in my heart, and I entered into a kind
of agony for Him. Then I heard these words: With no other soul do I
unite myself as closely and in such a way as I do with you, and this because
of the deep humility and ardent love which you have for Me.
699 On one occasion,
I heard these words: My daughter, tell the whole world about My
inconceivable mercy. I desire that the Feast of Mercy [139] be
a refuge and shelter for all souls, and especially for poor sinners. On that
day the very depths of My tender mercy are open. I pour out a whole ocean of
graces upon those souls who approach the fount of My mercy. The soul that
will go to Confession and receive Holy Communion shall obtain complete
forgiveness of sins and punishment. On that day all the divine floodgates
through which grace flow are opened. Let no soul fear to draw near to Me,
even though its sins be as scarlet. My mercy is so great that no mind, be it
of man or of angel, will be able to fathom it throughout all eternity.
Everything that exists has come forth from the very depths of My most tender
mercy. Every soul in its relation to Me will contemplate My love and mercy
throughout eternity. The Feast of Mercy emerged from My very depths of
tenderness. It is My desire that it be solemnly celebrated on the first
Sunday after Easter. Mankind will not have peace until it turns to the Fount
of My Mercy.
1448 Write, speak of My mercy. Tell
souls where they are to look for solace; that is, in the Tribunal of
Mercy [the Sacrament of Reconciliation]. There the greatest
miracles take place [and] are incessantly repeated. To avail
oneself of this miracle, it is not necessary to go on a great pilgrimage or
to carry out some external ceremony; it suffices to come with faith to the
feet of My representative and to reveal to him one's misery, and the miracle
of Divine Mercy will be fully demonstrated. Were a soul like a decaying
corpse so that from a human standpoint, there would be no [hope of] restoration
and everything would already be lost, it is not so with God. The miracle of
Divine Mercy restores that soul in full. Oh, how miserable are those who do
not take advantage of the miracle of God's mercy! You will call out in vain,
but it will be too late.
1489 Conversation
of the Merciful God with a Perfect Soul.
Soul: My Lord and Master, I desire to converse with You. Jesus: Speak, My beloved child, for I am always listening. I wait for you. What do you desire to say? Soul: Lord, first let me pour out my heart at Your feet in a fragrant anointing of gratitude for the many blessings which You lavish upon me; even if I wanted to, I could not count them. I only recall that there has never been a moment in my life in which I have not experienced Your protection and goodness. Jesus: Your words please Me, and your thanksgiving opens up new treasures of graces. But, My child, we should talk in more detail about the things that lie in your heart. Let us talk confidentially and frankly, as two hearts that love one another do. Soul: O my merciful Lord, there are secrets in my heart which no one knows or will ever know except You because, even if I wanted to reveal them, no one would understand me. Your minister knows some because I confess to him, but he knows only the bit of these mysteries that I am capable of revealing; the rest remains between us for eternity, O My Lord! You have covered me with the cloak of Your mercy, pardoning my sins. Not once did You refuse Your pardon; You always had pity on me, giving me a new life of grace. To prevent doubts, You have entrusted me to the loving care of Your Church, that tender mother, who in Your name assures me of the truths of faith and watches lest I wander. Especially in the tribunal of Your mercy does my soul meet an ocean of favors, though You did not give the Fallen Angels time to repent or prolong their time of mercy. O my Lord, you have provided saintly priests to show me the sure way. Jesus, there is one more secret in my life, the deepest and dearest to my heart: it is You yourself when You come to my heart under the appearance of bread. Herein lies the whole secret of my sanctity. Here my heart is so united with Yours as to be but one. There are no more secrets, because all that is Yours is mine, and all that is mine is Yours. Such is the omnipotence and the miracle of Your mercy. All the tongues of men and of angels united could not find words adequate to this mystery of Your love and mercy. When I contemplate this mystery, my heart falls into a new ecstasy. In silence I tell You everything, Lord, because the language of love is without words; not a single stirring of my heart escapes You. O Lord, the extent of Your great condescension has awakened in my soul an even greater love for You, the sole object of my love. The life of union manifests itself in perfect purity, deep humility, gentle silence, and great zeal for the salvation of souls. O my sweetest Lord, You watch over me each moment and inspire me as to how I should act in a precise situation, when my heart wavers between two things. You yourself frequently intervened in the resolution of a difficulty. Countless times, by means of a sudden enlightenment, You have given me to know what is the more pleasing to You. Oh, how numerous are the instances of forgiveness about which no one knows! How often You have poured into my soul courage and perseverance to go forward. It is You yourself who removed obstacles from my road, intervening directly in the actions of people. O Jesus, everything I have said to You is but a pale shadow of what is taking place in my heart. O my Jesus, how ardently I desire the conversion of sinners! You know what I am doing for them to win them for You. Every offense against You wounds me deeply. I spare neither strength, nor health, nor life itself in defense of Your kingdom. Although my efforts may remain invisible on earth, they are no less valuable in Your eyes. O Jesus, I want to bring souls to the fount of Your mercy to draw the reviving water of life with the vessel of trust. The soul desirous of more of God's mercy should approach God with greater trust; and if her trust in God is unlimited, then the mercy of God toward it will be likewise limitless. O my God, Who know every beat of my heart, You know how eagerly I desire that all hearts would beat for You alone, that every soul glorify the greatness of Your mercy. Jesus: My beloved child, delight of My Heart, your words are dearer and more pleasing to me than the angelic chorus. All the treasures of My Heart are open to you. Take from this Heart all that you need for yourself and for the whole world. For the sake of your love, I withhold the just chastisements, which mankind has deserved. A single act of pure love pleases Me more than a thousand imperfect prayers. One of your sighs of love atones for many offenses with which the godless overwhelm Me. The smallest act of virtue has unlimited value in My eyes because of your great love for Me. In a soul that lives on My love alone, I reign as in heaven. I watch over it day and night. In it I find My happiness; My ear is attentive to each request of its heart; often I anticipate its requests. O child, especially beloved by Me, apple of My eye, rest a moment near My Heart and taste of the love in which you will delight for all eternity. But child, you are not yet in your homeland; so go, fortified by My grace, and fight for My kingdom in human souls; fight as a king's child would; and remember that the days of your exile will pass quickly, and with them the possibility of earning merit for heaven. I expect from you, My child, a great number of souls who will glorify My mercy for all eternity. My child, that you may answer My call worthily, receive Me daily in Holy Communion. It will give you strength... Jesus, do not leave me alone in suffering. You know, Lord, how weak I am. I am an abyss of wretchedness, I am nothingness itself; so what will be so strange if You leave me alone and I fall? I am an infant, Lord, so I cannot get along by myself. However, beyond all abandonment I trust, and in spite of my own feeling I trust, and I am being completely transformed into trust-often in spite of what I feel. Do not lessen any of my sufferings, only give me strength to bear them. Do with me as You please, Lord, only give me the grace to be able to love You in every event and circumstance. Lord, do not lessen my cup of bitterness, only give me strength that I may be able to drink it all. O Lord, sometimes You lift me up to the brightness of visions, and then again You plunge me into the darkness of night and the abyss of my nothingness, and my soul feels as if it were alone in the wilderness. Yet, above all things, I trust in You, Jesus, for You are unchangeable. My moods change, but You are always the same, full of mercy.
1617 February 27,
[1938]. Today, I went to confession to Father An. [Andrasz] I did as Jesus
wanted. After confession, a surge of light filled my soul. Then I heard a
voice: Because you are a child, you shall remain close to My Heart.
Your simplicity is more pleasing to Me than your mortifications.
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-55, 92, 113-114, 132, 139, 178-179)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-184, 294, 296, 424)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-544, 587, 699)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-V-1448-1449)
(Diary of Sister
Faustina Kowalska Notebook-VI-1617)
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