Monday of the Fourteenth Week in Ordinary Time
Father Edward McIlmail, LC
Matthew 9:18-26
While Jesus was speaking, an official came forward, knelt down before
him, and said, "My daughter has just died. But come, lay your hand on her,
and she will live." Jesus rose and followed him, and so did his disciples.
A woman suffering hemorrhages for twelve years came up behind him and touched
the tassel on his cloak. She said to herself, "If only I can touch his
cloak, I shall be cured." Jesus turned around and saw her, and said,
"Courage, daughter! Your faith has saved you." And from that hour the
woman was cured. When Jesus arrived at the official´s house and saw the flute
players and the crowd who were making a commotion, he said, "Go away! The
girl is not dead but sleeping." And they ridiculed him. When the crowd was
put out, he came and took her by the hand, and the little girl arose. And news
of this spread throughout all that land.
Introductory Prayer: Jesus, You are my savior and
redeemer; I believe that You want to hear from me. I approach You in confidence
and offer this prayer for those who are afraid to draw near to You.
Petition: Grant me, Jesus, a deeper faith in Your power to heal me and my loved
ones.
1. Awaiting Our Move: We note that the official´s faith
moves Jesus to action. Remarkable! The Son of God accommodates a mere creature,
due to a show of faith. So often we see problems around us and expect God to
solve them without any effort on our part. God knows our problems better than
we do (cf. Matthew 6:8). Yet, he sometimes doesn´t act until he sees an act of
faith on our part. The official showed such faith. It was extraordinary, after
all, for him to approach Jesus in front of other people and ask point-blank for
a miracle. Do I have such confidence when I approach Jesus in prayer? Is my
faith strong enough to ask him for something extraordinary?
2. Touching Moment: The woman suffering hemorrhages had
great faith in Jesus, too. In her case, she didn´t express it in words. Rather,
she expressed it in a deed, by discreetly touching Jesus´ cloak. That kind of
faith speaks volumes. It helps if our words are joined with actions. Petitions
don´t always suffice. We have to act, to move, to leave our comfort zone, in
order to approach Jesus. Prayer is good; prayer plus action gives God even more
fertile ground to work with. How can I complement my prayer life? Can I help my
pastor with a special project, for instance?
3. Mourning Has Broken: In Our Lord´s time it was not
uncommon to have professional mourners show up when someone died. Jesus´
comment that the official´s daughter was merely sleeping brought ridicule on
him. Who needs mourners if the young lady is alive? We can be like professional
mourners at times, resigned to the evil and death around us. We might throw up
our hands and think we can hope for nothing better. We might even be tempted,
like the mourners, to ignore Our Lord´s reassuring presence. We might think:
"What! Me, be a saint?" Or: "Me, called to the priesthood or
consecrated life?" Or: "Do you really expect us to handle another
child right now?" Luckily for us, Christ is undeterred. He comes to bring
us life, to lead us out of sin, to make us more generous. In a word, he comes
to call us to holiness. Do I resist such a call?
Conversation with Christ: The official and the suffering woman
show an admirable faith. I want to have that same kind of faith, Lord.
Sometimes I feel paralyzed by my problems, so much so that I find it hard to
approach You confidently. Increase my faith and sense of hope. Let me live as
if I really believe that You rule the world.
Resolution: I will offer up a sacrifice (or a visit to the Blessed Sacrament or an
act of charity) for a special intention.
Excerpts from the DIARY of Saint Faustina Kowalska
55 1933.
Spiritual Counsel Given Me by Father Andrasz, S.J.
First: You must not turn away from
these interior inspirations, but always tell everything to your confessor. If
you recognize that these interior inspirations refer to your own self; that is
to say, they are for the good of your soul or for the good of other souls, l
urge you to follow them; and you must not neglect them, but always do so in
consultation with your confessor.
Second: If these inspirations are not in accord with the faith or the spirit of the Church, they must be rejected immediately as coming from the evil spirit.
Third: If these inspirations do not refer to souls, in general, nor specifically to their good, you should not take them too seriously, and it would be better to even ignore them.
But you should not make this decision by yourself, either one way or the other, as you can easily be led astray despite these great favors from God. Humility, humility, and ever humility, as we can do nothing of ourselves; all is purely and simply God's grace.
You say to me that God demands great trust from souls; well then, you be the first to show this trust. And one more word-accept all this with serenity.
Words of one of the confessors: "Sister, God is preparing many special graces for you, but try to make your life as clear as crystal before the Lord, paying no attention to what anyone else thinks about you. Let God suffice you; He alone."
Toward the end of my novitiate, a confessor [perhaps Father Theodore] told me: "Go through life doing good, so that I could write on its pages: `She spent her life doing good.' May God bring this about in you."
Another time the confessor said to me, "Comport yourself before God like the widow in the Gospel; although the coin she dropped into the box was of little value, it counted far more before God than all the big offerings of others."
On another occasion the instruction I received was this: " Act in such a way that all those who come in contact with you will go away joyful. Sow happiness about you because you have received much from God; give, then, generously to others. They should take leave of you with their hearts filled with joy, even if they have no more than touched the hem of your garment. Keep well in mind the words I am telling you right now."
Still another time he gave me the following recommendation: "Let God push your boat out into the deep waters, toward the unfathomable depths of the interior life."
Here are a few words from a conversation I had with the Mother Directress [Mary Joseph] toward the end of my novitiate: "Sister, let simplicity and humility be the characteristic traits of your soul. Go through life like a little child, always trusting, always full of simplicity and humility, content with everything, happy in every circumstance. There, where others fear, you will pass calmly along, thanks to this simplicity and humility. Remember this, Sister, for your whole life: as waters flow from the mountains down into the valleys, so, too, do God's graces flow only into humble souls."
Second: If these inspirations are not in accord with the faith or the spirit of the Church, they must be rejected immediately as coming from the evil spirit.
Third: If these inspirations do not refer to souls, in general, nor specifically to their good, you should not take them too seriously, and it would be better to even ignore them.
But you should not make this decision by yourself, either one way or the other, as you can easily be led astray despite these great favors from God. Humility, humility, and ever humility, as we can do nothing of ourselves; all is purely and simply God's grace.
You say to me that God demands great trust from souls; well then, you be the first to show this trust. And one more word-accept all this with serenity.
Words of one of the confessors: "Sister, God is preparing many special graces for you, but try to make your life as clear as crystal before the Lord, paying no attention to what anyone else thinks about you. Let God suffice you; He alone."
Toward the end of my novitiate, a confessor [perhaps Father Theodore] told me: "Go through life doing good, so that I could write on its pages: `She spent her life doing good.' May God bring this about in you."
Another time the confessor said to me, "Comport yourself before God like the widow in the Gospel; although the coin she dropped into the box was of little value, it counted far more before God than all the big offerings of others."
On another occasion the instruction I received was this: " Act in such a way that all those who come in contact with you will go away joyful. Sow happiness about you because you have received much from God; give, then, generously to others. They should take leave of you with their hearts filled with joy, even if they have no more than touched the hem of your garment. Keep well in mind the words I am telling you right now."
Still another time he gave me the following recommendation: "Let God push your boat out into the deep waters, toward the unfathomable depths of the interior life."
Here are a few words from a conversation I had with the Mother Directress [Mary Joseph] toward the end of my novitiate: "Sister, let simplicity and humility be the characteristic traits of your soul. Go through life like a little child, always trusting, always full of simplicity and humility, content with everything, happy in every circumstance. There, where others fear, you will pass calmly along, thanks to this simplicity and humility. Remember this, Sister, for your whole life: as waters flow from the mountains down into the valleys, so, too, do God's graces flow only into humble souls."
57 O my
Jesus, You are the life of my life. You know only too well that I long for
nothing but the glory of Your Name and that souls come to know Your goodness.
Why do souls avoid You, Jesus?-I don't understand that. Oh, if I could only cut
my heart into tiny pieces and in this way offer to You, O Jesus, each piece as
a heart whole and entire, to make up in part for the hearts that do not love
You! I love You, Jesus, with every drop of my blood, and I would gladly shed my
blood for You to give You a proof of the sincerity of my love. O God, the more
I know You the less I can comprehend You, but this
"non-comprehension" lets me realize how great You are! And it is this
impossibility of comprehending You which enflames my heart anew for You, O
Lord. From the moment when You let me fix the eyes of my soul on You, O Jesus,
I have been at peace and desired nothing else. I found my destiny at the moment
when my soul lost itself in You, the only object of my love. In comparison with
you, everything is nothing. Sufferings, adversities, humiliations, failures and
suspicions that have come my way are splinters that keep alive the fire of my
love for You, O Jesus.
My desires are mad and unattainable. I wish to conceal from You that I suffer. I want never to be rewarded for my efforts and my good actions. You yourself, Jesus, are my only reward; You are enough, O Treasure of my heart! I want to share compassionately in the sufferings of my neighbors and to conceal my own sufferings, not only from them, but also from You, Jesus.
Suffering is a great grace; through suffering the soul becomes like the Savior; in suffering love becomes crystallized; the greater the suffering, the purer the love.
My desires are mad and unattainable. I wish to conceal from You that I suffer. I want never to be rewarded for my efforts and my good actions. You yourself, Jesus, are my only reward; You are enough, O Treasure of my heart! I want to share compassionately in the sufferings of my neighbors and to conceal my own sufferings, not only from them, but also from You, Jesus.
Suffering is a great grace; through suffering the soul becomes like the Savior; in suffering love becomes crystallized; the greater the suffering, the purer the love.
92
Humiliation is my daily food. I understand that the bride must herself share in
everything that is the groom's; and so His cloak of mockery must cover me, too.
At those times when I suffer much, I try to remain silent, as I do not trust my
tongue which, at such moments, is inclined to talk for itself, while its duty
is to help me praise God for all the blessings and gifts which He has given me.
When I receive Jesus in Holy Communion, I ask Him fervently to deign to heal my
tongue so that I would offend neither God nor neighbor by it. I want my tongue
to praise God without cease. Great are the faults committed by the tongue. The
soul will not attain sanctity if it does not keep watch over its tongue.
178
Today we are beginning the third probation. All three of us met at Mother
Margaret's, as the other sisters were having their probation in the novitiate.
Mother Margaret began with a prayer, explained to us what the third probation
consists of, and then spoke on how great is the grace of the perpetual vows.
Suddenly I began to cry out loud. In an instant all God's graces appeared
before the eyes of my soul, and I saw myself so wretched and ungrateful toward
God. The sisters began to rebuke me, saying, "Why did she break out
crying?" But Mother Margaret came to my defense, saying that she was not
surprised.
At the end of the hour, I went before the Blessed Sacrament and, like the greatest and most miserable of wretches, I begged for His mercy that He might heal and purify my poor soul. Then I heard these words, My daughter, all your miseries have been consumed in the flame of My love, like a little twig thrown into a roaring fire. By humbling yourself in this way, you draw upon yourself and upon other souls an entire sea of My mercy. I answered, "Jesus, mold my poor heart according to Your divine delight."
At the end of the hour, I went before the Blessed Sacrament and, like the greatest and most miserable of wretches, I begged for His mercy that He might heal and purify my poor soul. Then I heard these words, My daughter, all your miseries have been consumed in the flame of My love, like a little twig thrown into a roaring fire. By humbling yourself in this way, you draw upon yourself and upon other souls an entire sea of My mercy. I answered, "Jesus, mold my poor heart according to Your divine delight."
224 To suffer without
complaining, to bring comfort to others and to drown my own sufferings in the
most Sacred Heart of Jesus!
I will spend all my free moments at the feet of [Our Lord in] the Blessed Sacrament. At the feet of Jesus, I will seek light, comfort and strength. I will show my gratitude unceasingly to God for His great mercy towards me, never forgetting the favors He has bestowed on me, especially the grace of a vocation. I will hide myself among the sisters like a little violet among lilies. I want to blossom for my Lord and Maker, to forget about myself, to empty myself totally for the sake of immortal souls-this is my delight.
I will spend all my free moments at the feet of [Our Lord in] the Blessed Sacrament. At the feet of Jesus, I will seek light, comfort and strength. I will show my gratitude unceasingly to God for His great mercy towards me, never forgetting the favors He has bestowed on me, especially the grace of a vocation. I will hide myself among the sisters like a little violet among lilies. I want to blossom for my Lord and Maker, to forget about myself, to empty myself totally for the sake of immortal souls-this is my delight.
282 Once the Lord said to me, My
Heart was moved by great mercy towards you, My dearest child, when I saw you
torn to shreds because of the great pain you suffered in repenting for your
sins. I see your love, so pure and true that I give you first place among the
virgins. You are the honor and glory of My Passion. I see every abasement of
your soul, and nothing escapes my attention. I lift up the humble even to my
very throne, because I want it so.
587
Once, I suddenly saw Jesus in great majesty, and He spoke these words to me: My
daughter, if you wish, I will this instant create a new world, more beautiful
than this one, and you will live there for the rest of your life. I
answered, "I don't want any worlds. I want You, Jesus. I want to love You,
with the same love that You have for me. I beg You for only one thing: to make
my heart capable of loving you. I am very much surprised at Your offer, my
Jesus; what are those worlds to me? Even if You gave me a thousand of them,
what are they to me? You know very well, Jesus, that my heart is dying of
longing for You. Everything that is not You is nothing to me." -At that
moment, I could no longer see anything, but a strange force took over my soul,
a strange fire sprang up in my heart, and I entered into a kind of agony for
Him. Then I heard these words: With no other soul do I unite myself as
closely and in such a way as I do with you, and this because of the deep
humility and ardent love which you have for Me.
580 On a
certain occasion, the Lord said to me, I am more deeply wounded by the small
imperfections of chosen souls than by the sins of those living in the world.
It made me very sad that chosen souls make Jesus suffer, and Jesus told me, These
little imperfections are not all. I will reveal to you a secret of My Heart:
what I suffer from chosen souls. Ingratitude in return for so many graces is My
Heart's constant food, on the part of [such] a chosen soul. Their love is
lukewarm, and My Heart cannot bear it; these souls force Me to reject them.
Others distrust My goodness and have no desire to experience that sweet
intimacy in their own hearts, but go in search of Me, off in the distance, and
do not find Me. This distrust of My goodness hurts Me very much. If My death
has not convinced you of My love, what will? Often a soul wounds Me mortally,
and then no one can comfort Me. They use My graces to offend Me. There are
souls who despise My graces as well as all the proofs of My love. They do not
wish to hear My call, but proceed into the abyss of hell. The loss of these
souls plunges Me into deadly sorrow. God though I am, I cannot help such a soul
because it scorns Me; having a free will, it can spurn Me or love Me. You, who
are the dispenser of My mercy, tell all the world about My goodness, and thus
you will comfort My Heart.
581 I
will tell you most when you converse with Me in the depths of your heart. Here,
no one can disturb My actions. Here, I rest as in a garden enclosed.
1059
Jesus is commanding me to make a novena before the Feast of Mercy, and today I
am to begin it for the conversion of the whole world and for the recognition of
The Divine Mercy... so that every soul will praise My goodness. I desire
trust from My creatures. Encourage souls to place great trust in My fathomless
mercy. Let the weak, sinful soul have no fear to approach Me, for even if it
had more sins than there are grains of sand in the world, all would be drowned
in the unmeasurable depths of My mercy.
1065 +
My Jesus, support me when difficult and stormy days come, days of testing, days
of ordeal, when suffering and fatigue begin to oppress my body and my soul.
Sustain me, Jesus, and give me strength to bear suffering. Set a guard upon my
lips that they may address no word of complaint to creatures. Your most
merciful Heart is all my hope. I have nothing for my defense but only Your
mercy; in it lies all my trust.
1074
When I went for adoration, I heard these words: My beloved daughter, write
down these words, that today My Heart has rested in this convent [the
Cracow house]. Tell the world about My mercy and My love.
The flames of mercy are burning me. I desire to pour them out upon human souls. Oh, what pain they cause Me when they do not want to accept them!
My daughter, do whatever is within your power to spread devotion to My mercy. I will make up for what you lack. Tell aching mankind to snuggle close to My merciful Heart, and I will fill it -with peace.
Tell [all people], My daughter, that I am Love and Mercy itself. When a soul approaches Me with trust, I fill it with such an abundance of graces that it cannot contain them within itself, but radiates them to other souls.
The flames of mercy are burning me. I desire to pour them out upon human souls. Oh, what pain they cause Me when they do not want to accept them!
My daughter, do whatever is within your power to spread devotion to My mercy. I will make up for what you lack. Tell aching mankind to snuggle close to My merciful Heart, and I will fill it -with peace.
Tell [all people], My daughter, that I am Love and Mercy itself. When a soul approaches Me with trust, I fill it with such an abundance of graces that it cannot contain them within itself, but radiates them to other souls.
1075 Souls
who spread the honor of My mercy I shield through their entire lives as a
tender mother her infant, and at the hour of death I will not be a Judge for
them, but the Merciful Savior. At that last hour, a soul has nothing with which
to defend itself except My mercy. Happy is the soul that during its lifetime
immersed itself in the Fountain of Mercy, because justice will have no hold on
it.
1076 Write
this: Everything that exists is enclosed in the bowels of My mercy, more deeply
than an infant in its mother's womb. How painfully distrust of My goodness
wounds Me! Sins of distrust wound Me most painfully.
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-I-55, 57, 92, 178, 224, 282)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-II-587, 580, 581)
(Diary
of Sister Faustina Kowalska Notebook-III-1074-1076)
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