Weary of Heart
Thursday of the
Fifteenth Week in Ordinary Time
Father
Shawn Aaron, LC
Matthew 11: 28-30
Jesus said: "Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for your selves. For my yoke is easy and my burden light."
Jesus said: "Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for your selves. For my yoke is easy and my burden light."
Introductory Prayer: Almighty and ever-living God, I seek new strength from the
courage of Christ our shepherd. I believe in You, I hope in You, and I seek to
love You with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind, and all my strength. I
want to be led one day to join the saints in heaven, where Your Son Jesus
Christ lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God forever and ever.
Petition: Lord Jesus, meek and humble of heart, help me
to take on Your yoke.
1. Come to Me: If you struggle daily to do what is morally
right even when those around you take shortcuts, then come to Jesus. If the
life of selfish pleasure and illicit gain seems exceedingly attractive, then
come to Jesus. If you are burdened with your patterns of sin and weaknesses of
character that affect your vocation as a spouse, a parent, a friend, a
consecrated soul, a Christian…, then come to Jesus. If life seems unfair and
God seems distant at best, then come to Jesus. He calls us not to a set of
principles and noble ideals, but to his very person. We do not follow rules for
the sake of rules; we follow Jesus. Only when we have first come to him will we
understand the need for the rules which simply help protect the dignity of this
relationship.
2. Learn from Me: St. Paul admonishes the Galatians to live in
the freedom of Christ: "For freedom Christ has set us free. Stand firm,
therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery" (Galatians 5:1).
Yet in his letter to the Ephesians, St. Paul invites us to be "slaves of
Christ, doing the will of God from the heart" (6:5). To be a slave means
that I submit to the will of another or am subordinated (unwillingly) to one
stronger than I in some way. One who is a slave of passion, vanity, selfishness
or any other vice is subject to that vice as something more powerful than
oneself. But Jesus calls us friends and not slaves (cf. John 15:14-15). So to
be a "slave" of Christ means to entrust my life to him freely with
the intention of following where he leads. Experience shows that he always guides
us down the path that leads to our happiness and fulfillment, even when it
entails the cross.
3. Rest for
Yourselves: These words mean
“rest,” not in the sense of cessation from work and struggle, but in the sense
of peace of soul, joy and profound happiness. This is the rest that we all long
for, the rest that will one day be uninterrupted in the bliss of heaven. We
have each met individuals who experience this peace and joy despite their
circumstances. Notice that Jesus does not promise to take away the burdens, the
trials, the sufferings. But if we take his yoke upon ourselves, if we submit to
his plan, his will, his love, he guarantees the joy. If you have never
experienced it, then begin today; give him what you know in your heart he is
asking of you. Although it may hurt at first, as does every yoke, this one
brings the lightness of peace and the ease of joy.
Conversation with
Christ: Blessed Lord, You lead
me towards everlasting peace if I will simply follow, but following does not
always seem simple. Give me the very things You ask of me: faith, generosity,
courage, trust, love. With these gifts and your grace I will have the strength
necessary for the journey.
Resolution: Today I will pray an extra decade of the
rosary for the persons who are farthest away from Jesus.
Excerpts from the DIARY of Saint Faustina Kowalska
300
+Ask of my faithful servant [Father Sopocko] that, on this day, he tell the
whole world of My great mercy; that whoever approaches the Fount of Life on
this day will be granted complete remission of sins and punishment.
+Mankind will not have peace until it turns with trust to My mercy.
+Oh, how much I am hurt by a soul's distrust! Such a soul professes that I am Holy and Just, but does not believe that I am Mercy and does not trust in My Goodness. Even the devils glorify My Justice but do not believe in My Goodness.
My Heart rejoices in this title of Mercy.
+Mankind will not have peace until it turns with trust to My mercy.
+Oh, how much I am hurt by a soul's distrust! Such a soul professes that I am Holy and Just, but does not believe that I am Mercy and does not trust in My Goodness. Even the devils glorify My Justice but do not believe in My Goodness.
My Heart rejoices in this title of Mercy.
367
+On one occasion, Jesus gave me to know that when I pray for intentions which
people are wont to entrust to me, He is always ready to grant His graces, but
souls do not always want to accept them: My
Heart overflows with great mercy for souls, and especially for poor sinners. If
only they could understand that I am the best of Fathers to them and that it is
for them that the Blood and Water flowed from My Heart as from a fount
overflowing with mercy. For them I dwell in the tabernacle as King of Mercy. I
desire to bestow My graces upon souls, but they do not want to accept them.
You, at least, come to Me as often as possible and take these graces they do
not want to accept. In this way you will console My Heart. Oh, how indifferent
are souls to so much goodness, to so many proofs of love! My Heart drinks only
of the ingratitude and forgetfulness of souls living in the world. They have
time for everything, but they have no time to come to Me for graces.
So I turn to you, you-chosen souls, will you also fail to understand the love of My Heart? Here, too, My Heart finds disappointment; I do not find complete surrender to My love. So many reservations, so much distrust, so much caution. To comfort you, let Me tell you that there are souls living in the world who love Me dearly. I dwell In their hearts with delight. But they are few. In convents too, there are souls that fill My Heart with joy. They bear My features; therefore the Heavenly Father looks upon them with special pleasure. They will be a marvel to Angels and men. Their number is very small. They are a defense for the world before the justice of the Heavenly Father and a means of obtaining mercy for the world. The love and sacrifice of these souls sustain the world in existence. The infidelity of a soul specially chosen by Me wounds My Heart most painfully. Such infidelities are swords which pierce My Heart.
So I turn to you, you-chosen souls, will you also fail to understand the love of My Heart? Here, too, My Heart finds disappointment; I do not find complete surrender to My love. So many reservations, so much distrust, so much caution. To comfort you, let Me tell you that there are souls living in the world who love Me dearly. I dwell In their hearts with delight. But they are few. In convents too, there are souls that fill My Heart with joy. They bear My features; therefore the Heavenly Father looks upon them with special pleasure. They will be a marvel to Angels and men. Their number is very small. They are a defense for the world before the justice of the Heavenly Father and a means of obtaining mercy for the world. The love and sacrifice of these souls sustain the world in existence. The infidelity of a soul specially chosen by Me wounds My Heart most painfully. Such infidelities are swords which pierce My Heart.
609
I said to Him, "I know that You are my Lord and Creator even though You
are so tiny." Jesus stretched His little arms out to me and looked at me
with a smile. My spirit was filled with incomparable joy. Then suddenly Jesus
disappeared, and it was time for Holy Communion. I went with the other sisters
to the Holy Table, my soul deeply moved. After Holy Communion, I heard these
words in my soul: I am
in your heart, I whom you had in your arms. I then pleaded with
Jesus for a certain soul [Father Sopocko], asking the Lord to grant him the
grace to fight, and to take this trial from him. As you ask, so shall it be, but his merit will not be
lessened. Joy reigned in my soul that God is so good and
merciful; God grants everything that we ask of Him with trust.
615
March 1, 1936. Today during Holy Mass I experienced a strange force and urge to
start realizing God's wishes. I had such a clear understanding of the things
the Lord was asking of me that truly if I were to say that I do not understand
what God is demanding from me, I would be lying, because the Lord is making His
will known to me so clearly and distinctly that I do not have the least shadow
of a doubt about them. I realized that it would be the greatest ingratitude to
delay any longer this undertaking which the Lord wishes to bring to fulfillment
for His glory and the benefit of a great number of souls. And He is using me as
a miserable tool through which to realize His eternal plans of mercy. Truly,
how ungrateful my soul would be to resist God's will any longer. Nothing will
stop me any longer, be it persecution, sufferings, sneers, threats, entreaties,
hunger, cold, flattery, friendships, adversities, friends or enemies; be it
things I am experiencing now or things that will come in the future or even the
hatred of hellnothing will deter me from doing the will of God.
I am not counting on my own strength, but on His omnipotence for, as he gave me the grace of knowing His holy will, He will also grant me the grace of fulfilling it. I cannot fail to mention how much my own lower nature resists this thing, manifesting its own desires, and there results within my soul a great struggle, like that of Jesus in the Garden of Olives. And so I too cry out to God, the Eternal Father, "If it is possible, take this cup from me, but, nevertheless, not my will, but Yours be done, O Lord; may Your will be done." What I am about to go through is no secret to me, but with full knowledge I accept whatever You send me, O Lord. I trust in You, O merciful God, and I wish to be the first to manifest to You that confidence which You demand of souls. O Eternal Truth, help me and enlighten me along the roadways of life, and grant that Your will be accomplished in me.
My God, I desire nothing but the fulfillment of Your will. It does not matter whether it will be easy or difficult. I feel an extraordinary force driving me to action. One thing alone holds me back, and that is holy obedience. O my Jesus, You urge me on the one hand and hold me back and restrain me on the other. In this, too, O my Jesus, may Your holy will be done.
I continued in this state, without a break, for many days. My physical strength declined, and though I did not speak to anyone about it, nevertheless Mother Superior [Borgia] noticed my pain and remarked that I had changed in appearance and was very pale. She told me to go to bed earlier and to sleep longer, and she had a cup of hot milk brought to me in the evening. She had a motherly heart, full of care, and tried to help me. But in the case of spiritual sufferings, external things have no influence, and they do not bring much relief. It was from the confessional that I drew my strength and the consolation of knowing that it would not be long before I could begin to act.
I am not counting on my own strength, but on His omnipotence for, as he gave me the grace of knowing His holy will, He will also grant me the grace of fulfilling it. I cannot fail to mention how much my own lower nature resists this thing, manifesting its own desires, and there results within my soul a great struggle, like that of Jesus in the Garden of Olives. And so I too cry out to God, the Eternal Father, "If it is possible, take this cup from me, but, nevertheless, not my will, but Yours be done, O Lord; may Your will be done." What I am about to go through is no secret to me, but with full knowledge I accept whatever You send me, O Lord. I trust in You, O merciful God, and I wish to be the first to manifest to You that confidence which You demand of souls. O Eternal Truth, help me and enlighten me along the roadways of life, and grant that Your will be accomplished in me.
My God, I desire nothing but the fulfillment of Your will. It does not matter whether it will be easy or difficult. I feel an extraordinary force driving me to action. One thing alone holds me back, and that is holy obedience. O my Jesus, You urge me on the one hand and hold me back and restrain me on the other. In this, too, O my Jesus, may Your holy will be done.
I continued in this state, without a break, for many days. My physical strength declined, and though I did not speak to anyone about it, nevertheless Mother Superior [Borgia] noticed my pain and remarked that I had changed in appearance and was very pale. She told me to go to bed earlier and to sleep longer, and she had a cup of hot milk brought to me in the evening. She had a motherly heart, full of care, and tried to help me. But in the case of spiritual sufferings, external things have no influence, and they do not bring much relief. It was from the confessional that I drew my strength and the consolation of knowing that it would not be long before I could begin to act.
617
O Holy Trinity, Eternal God, I want to shine in the crown of Your mercy as a
tiny gem whose beauty depends on the ray of Your light and of Your inscrutable
mercy. All that is beautiful in my soul is Yours, O God; of myself, I am ever
nothing.
650
O my Jesus, my Master and Director, strengthen and enlighten me in these
difficult moments of my life. I expect no help from people; all my hope is in
You. I feel alone in the face of Your demands, O Lord. Despite the fears and
qualms of my nature, I am fulfilling Your holy will and desire to fulfill it as
faithfully as possible throughout my life and in my death. Jesus, with You I
can do all things. Do with me as You please; only give me Your merciful Heart
and that is enough for me.
O Jesus my Lord, help me. Let what You have planned before all ages happen to me. I am ready at each beckoning of Your holy will. Enlighten my mind that I may know Your will. O God, You who pervade my soul, You know that I desire nothing but Your glory.
O Divine Will, You are the delight of my heart, the food of my soul, the light of my intellect, the omnipotent strength of my will; for when I unite myself with Your will, O Lord, Your power works through me and takes the place of my feeble will. Each day, I seek to carry out God's wishes.
O Jesus my Lord, help me. Let what You have planned before all ages happen to me. I am ready at each beckoning of Your holy will. Enlighten my mind that I may know Your will. O God, You who pervade my soul, You know that I desire nothing but Your glory.
O Divine Will, You are the delight of my heart, the food of my soul, the light of my intellect, the omnipotent strength of my will; for when I unite myself with Your will, O Lord, Your power works through me and takes the place of my feeble will. Each day, I seek to carry out God's wishes.
728
+ I have chosen Saint Claude de la Colombiere and Saint Gertrude as my patron
saints for this retreat, that they may intercede for me before the Mother of
God and the merciful Savior.
733
It sometimes happens, while I am listening to the meditation, that one word
puts me in very close union with the Lord, and I no longer know what Father [144]
is saying. I know that I am close to the most merciful Heart of Jesus; my whole
spirit is entirely plunged in Him, and in one moment I learn more than during
long hours of intellectual inquiry and meditation. These are sudden lights
which permit me to know things as God sees them, regarding matters of both the
interior and the exterior world.
813
+ O merciful Jesus, stretched on the cross, be mindful of the hour of our
death. O most merciful Heart of Jesus, opened with a lance, shelter me at the
last moment of my life. O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of
Jesus as a fount of unfathomable mercy for me at the hour of my death, O dying
Jesus, Hostage of mercy, avert the Divine wrath at the hour of my death.
838
+ I marvel at how many humiliations and sufferings that priest accepts in this
whole matter. [153] I see this at particular times, and I support him
with my unworthy prayers. Only God can give one such courage; otherwise one
would give up. But I see with joy that all these adversities contribute to
God's greater glory. The Lord has few such souls. O infinite eternity, you will
make manifest the efforts of heroic souls, because the earth rewards their
efforts with hatred and ingratitude. Such souls do not have friends; they are
solitary. And in this solitude, they gain strength; they draw their strength
from God alone. With humility, but also with courage, they stand firmly in the
face of all the storms that beat upon them. Like high-towering oaks, they are
unmoved. And in this there is just this one secret: that it's from God that
they draw this strength, and everything whatsoever they have need of, they have
for themselves and for others. They not only carry their own burden, but also
know how to take on, and are capable of taking on, the burdens of others. They
are pillars of light along God's ways; they live in light themselves and shed
light upon others. They themselves live on the heights, and know how to show
the way to lesser ones and help them attain those heights.
848
While I was saying the chaplet, I heard a voice which said, Oh, what great graces I will grant to
souls who say this chaplet; the very depths of My tender mercy are stirred for
the sake of those who say the chaplet. Write down these words, My daughter.
Speak to the world about My mercy; let all mankind recognize My unfathomable
mercy. It is a sign for the end times; after it will come the day of justice.
While there is still time, let them have recourse to the fount of My mercy; let
them profit from the Blood and Water which gushed forth for them.
O human souls, where are you going to hide on the day of God's anger? Take refuge now in the fount of God's mercy. O what a great multitude of souls I see! They worshiped the Divine Mercy and will be singing the hymn of praise for all eternity.
O human souls, where are you going to hide on the day of God's anger? Take refuge now in the fount of God's mercy. O what a great multitude of souls I see! They worshiped the Divine Mercy and will be singing the hymn of praise for all eternity.
1256
[August] 30. Reverend Father Sopocko left this morning. When I was steeped in a
prayer of thanksgiving for the great grace that I had received from God;
namely, that of seeing Father, I became united in a special way with the Lord
who said to me, He is a
priest after My own Heart; his efforts are pleasing to Me. You see, My
daughter, that My will must be done and that which I had promised you, I shall
do. Through him I spread comfort to suffering and careworn souls. Through him
it pleased Me to proclaim the worship of My mercy. And through this work of
mercy more souls will come close to Me than otherwise would have, even if he
had kept giving absolution day and night for the rest of his life, because by
so doing, he would have labored only for as long as he lived; whereas, thanks
to this work of mercy, he will be laboring till the end of the world.
1458
+ After that night of suffering, when the priest [Father Matzanger 226]
entered my cell with the Lord Jesus, such fervor filled my whole being that I
felt that if the priest had tarried a little longer, Jesus himself would have
leaped out of his hand and come to me.
1459
After Holy Communion the Lord said to me, If the priest had not brought Me to you, I would have
come Myself under the same species. My daughter, your sufferings of this night
obtained the grace of mercy for an immense number of souls.
1751
+ O Jesus, concealed in the Blessed Sacrament of the Altar, my only love and
mercy, I commend to You all the needs of my body and soul. You can help me,
because You are Mercy itself. In You lies all my hope.
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1775
After these words, my love made great efforts to express to Him what He was to
me, but I was at a loss for words and burst into tears in my helplessness. And
Jesus said, For you, I
am mercy itself; therefore I ask you to offer Me your misery and this very
helplessness of yours and, in this way, you will delight My Heart.
1776
Today, a living flame of divine love entered my soul; if it had lasted any
longer, I would have been consumed by the fire, freeing myself of the bonds of
the present. It seemed to me that, if it had lasted an instant longer, I would
have been drowned in the ocean of love. I cannot describe these arrows of love
that pierce my soul.
+ Conference on Mercy.
+ Conference on Mercy.
1777
My daughter, know that
My Heart is mercy itself. From this sea of mercy, graces flow out upon the
whole world. No soul that has approached Me has ever gone away unconsoled. All
misery gets buried in the depths of My mercy, and every saving and sanctifying
grace flows from this fountain. My daughter, I desire that your heart be an
abiding place of My mercy. I desire that this mercy flow out upon the whole
world through your heart. Let no one who approaches you go away without that
trust in My mercy which I so ardently desire for souls.
Pray as much as you can for the dying. By your entreaties, obtain for them trust in My mercy, because they have most need of trust, and have it the least. Be assured that the grace of eternal salvation for certain souls in their final moment depends on your prayer. You know the whole abyss of My mercy, so draw upon it for yourself and especially for poor sinners. Sooner would heaven and earth turn into nothingness than would My mercy not embrace a trusting soul.
Pray as much as you can for the dying. By your entreaties, obtain for them trust in My mercy, because they have most need of trust, and have it the least. Be assured that the grace of eternal salvation for certain souls in their final moment depends on your prayer. You know the whole abyss of My mercy, so draw upon it for yourself and especially for poor sinners. Sooner would heaven and earth turn into nothingness than would My mercy not embrace a trusting soul.
1778
My resolution continues to be the same: to unite myself to Christ-Mercy.
Conclusion of the Retreat.
Last Conversation with the Lord.
Conclusion of the Retreat.
Last Conversation with the Lord.
1783
+ When I immersed myself in prayer and united myself with all the Masses that
were being celebrated all over the world at that time, I implored God, for the
sake of all these Holy Masses, to have mercy on the world and especially on poor
sinners who were dying at that moment. At the same instant, I received an
interior answer from God that a thousand souls had received grace through the
prayerful mediation I had offered to God. We do not know the number of souls
that is ours to save through our prayers and sacrifices; therefore, let us
always pray for sinners.
1784
Today, in the course of a long conversation, the Lord said to me, How very much I desire the salvation
of souls! My dearest secretary, write that I want to pour out My divine life
into human souls and sanctify them, if only they were willing to accept My
grace. The greatest sinners would achieve great sanctity, if only they would
trust in My mercy. The very inner depths of My being are filled to overflowing
with mercy, and it is being poured out upon all I have created. My delight is
to act in a human soul and to fill it with My mercy and to justify it. My
kingdom on earth is My life in the human soul. Write, My secretary, that I
Myself am the spiritual guide of souls-and I guide them indirectly through the
priest, and lead each one to sanctity by a road known to Me alone.
1789
+ Today 253 I saw the glory of God which flows from the image. Many
souls are receiving graces, although they do not speak of it openly. Even
though it has met up with all sorts of vicissitudes, God is receiving glory
because of it; and the efforts of Satan and of evil men are shattered and come
to naught. In spite of Satan's anger, The Divine Mercy will triumph over the
whole world and will be worshiped by all souls.
1794
+ O Jesus, eternal God, thank You for Your countless graces and blessings. Let
every beat of my heart be a new hymn of thanksgiving to You, O God. Let every
drop of my blood circulate for You, Lord. My soul is one hymn in adoration of
Your mercy. I love You, God, for Yourself alone.
1797
Today, the Lord came to me and said,
My daughter, help Me to save souls. You will go to a dying sinner, and you will
continue to recite the chaplet, and in this way you will obtain for him trust
in My mercy, for he is already in despair.
1801
One day during Holy Mass, the Lord gave me a deeper knowledge of His holiness
and His majesty, and at the same time I saw my own misery. This knowledge made
me happy, and my soul drowned itself completely in His mercy. I felt enormously
happy.
1803
One day, when I was preparing for Holy Communion and noticed that I had nothing
to offer Him, I fell at His feet, calling down all His mercy upon my poor soul:
"May Your grace, which flows down upon me from Your Compassionate Heart,
strengthen me for the struggle and sufferings, that I may remain faithful to
You. And, although I am such misery, I do not fear You, because I know Your
mercy well. Nothing will frighten me away from You, O God, because everything
is so much less than what I know [Your mercy to be]-I see that clearly.
[Here ends the sixth and last notebook]
[Here ends the sixth and last notebook]
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-I-300, 367)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-II-609, 615, 617, 650, 728, 733, 813, 848)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-III-1256)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-V-1458-1459)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-VI-1751, 1776-1778, 1784, 1789)
(Diary of Sister Faustina Kowalska
Notebook-VI-1794, 1797, 1801, 1803)
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